twin

Ex or ex with the S

"would you like to stay for the night?"

"no, thank you i have errands to do early in the morning."

"no i insist. you can use my ex girlfriends clothes. you know where it is"

"hmm, nevermind. i dont want to use it anyway."

"is there something wrong?"

"no im just feeling full." meg said, making an excuse and she wanted to really go home after what she saw on his phone.

"are you sure? my sisters are coming tonight."

"really... and who else." pertaining to his ex.

"just them. who else?" aki said getting confused.

"uhmm maybe someone you always have in your mind."

"what?"

"nothing... "

"are you expecting someone else?"

"no, i thought your sisters doesn't want me to stay here?"

"they do.. aren't you close to each other, they already know you're here."

"so?"

"something wrong?"

meg kept silent.

thinking she could lead the conversation to were he can be honest.

he was lying.

he was lying all along.

"hey whats your icebook account" gets her phone "we've been seeing each other for a year now and you haven't added me yet. " she said

"ahmm, i dont have social media accounts."

"really? how about your sisters and brother?"

"i don't know, if you can stay later then you can ask them maybe."

"hmmm, okay." changed mind and agreed to stay till morning.

part of her wanting to have more time with him.

before she says goodbye.

she was planning to end it

but she can't move on without him

she was used to have aki on her side

thinking she can just get used with the pain that he had been inflicting on her.

aki likes her, meg likes him

but he is still holding back.

with the past

he cant leave behind.

the moon comes out

and there she stayed with aki

they hang out in the living room

they were soundtrippin'

but

they were just silent

browsing on their phones.

waiting for each other to open a topic

meg was trying to hold her thoughts on her mind

she does wanted to speak up

she does wanted to ask him

but she can't

she has been waiting for aki to tell her the truth.

though she already know where she stands in his life

she already know that aki isnt into her

that aki, wasn't in love with her

that with her... she is just nothing.

but she wanted to stay

and be part of his life.

she befriended his friends

befriended with his siblings

even met his parents and she got along with them.

she was like a part of his family

was like a part of his friends

but not a part of his love life.

after few hours of waiting

aki got really bored.

puts down his phone and sat beside meg.

humming the song he just finished

humming ..her song.

he then puts his arms around meg and tried to kiss her.

"hey, no ...what are you doing." moves her head away from him.

"what...they're not here yet." tried to kiss her again

"i said no..." feeling irritated thinking that he is not inlove with her so why kiss him back.

"oh come on.. i know you want it." aki teased meg

he took her hand and put it on his lap. wanted meg to feel him getting hard.

meg removed her hand immediately, but aki puts it back.

"your brother is here right?" her excuse

"no ..he came to fetch my sisters. we are alone..." looks on her eyes like he was begging her to make love with him.

"they will be here maybe a little late, they went to buy groceries" showing his phone a text message from his sister.

megs heart was pounding

she was nervous

like it was her first time.

as if she was not used to do it before with aki.

"oh i forgot, im gonna give you something.. " aki said then he stood up, holding her hands. pulling her towards him as he walks on his room.

"come here... i have some chocolates for you..." he was being sweet, but he wants something in return.

"thats so nice of you..where did you get it?"

"it doesn't matter.. that's for you. i got it yesterday" then hugs her.

meg got really confused on the way he was acting.

she knows he is still into his ex girlfriend but why is he doing this to her.

"so... dont i get a kiss?" aki said , cornering her to the wall. with his both hand leaning on the wall, and traps her.

he gets closer and kissed her on her lips

bits of kisses that meg cannot resist

she was breathing deeply

and she was feeling his warmth

meg is still leaning on the wall and aki puts his hand down and wraps it to her tightly.

he was in heat, kissing her slowly but with a lot of passion.

she tried to resist but she cant control him anymore.

she tried to push him but he was strong and she was feeling very weak with what he was doing.

as he kiss her,  he moves his hand towards to her hands. and locked her fingers with his. putting it over her head so she can't move.

he was excited. she was nervous.

she doesnt want it but her body wants it.

she missed his touch

his kisses

his everything.

"akiiii!... we're here"

they heard

and so they suddenly stopped.

they both looked flushed and aki immediately puts his shirt on.

gets out of the room, leaving meg inside.

"hey... why so early?" hugs her sisters

"uhmm she was in a hurry to use the bathroom. hahah" his younger sister said.

as her elder sister rushed into the bathroom.

his brother parks the car.

"where is meg? i thought she is here.?" sister asked.

"she's inside the room. she was just changing clothes. its very hot right" making excuse for he was sweating.

"hey girl! how are youuu!" as meg goes out akis room. sweating.

"im great!! hey why are you both sweating.. are you guys ok?" curious sister

"its hot in akis room.. " said meg.

"anyway, we got some drinks , i told aki that you stay here for the night" said the elder sister shouting from the bathroom

meg just smiled and said "yeah yeah he begged for me to stay!" looks at aki, teases him, signals him not to tell anyone else what they have been doing inside.

"hey i didnt beg.. i just insisted."

"yes you did..." then they laughed

she was forgetting about her status

was forgetting her self again

forgot that she was hurt.

she wanted more, he wanted more.

but they had to stop.

she has to stop

loving him

caring for him

making love with him.

they started drinking

after an hour

meg went outside for a while to get some fresh air.

she lits a cigarette and did not care what aki will think

she now has her freedom to do whatever she wants

because she knows aki isn't into her

aki saw her and followed

"hey, why are you smoking, i told you to stop right?"

"im a bit stressed, just let me smoke even one stick."

"ok.. ok... dont show it to my sisters"

"thats why im here outside, and they saw me already at the bar right?"

"i think so. just one stick ok?... "holds her waist and whispered "later ok?"

telling her about the unfinished business they had in his room.

he walks away and goes inside the house.

she was not able to answer. aki already assumed it was a yes.

she was thinking "am i gonna give it again? but he loves his ex..not me." "we both want it, but its wrong.. is it just the pleasurable desire that we both share? not the love..." she wants to resist his charms, but she can't. "why cant he just stop teasing me,seducing me or even stop seeing me if he doesn't like or love me..what does he want from me?"

she wanted to stop, for she already know where she stands.

but she hasn't heard it from him yet, so she kept on denying.

she wanted to hear the words confirming that he doesn't love her.

she wanted to leave him, but part of her wants to stay.

she wants to fight though she knows she already lost the battle

she's already wounded but she wants to survive and win him back

she wanted to raise her white flag, but still...

she loves him.

she is giving her all.

tho she knows it is just that S** that aki wants from her

and he is...

deeply in love 

with his ex.