twin

without the love

meg wakes up, hearing the alarm set up to 5 am.

aki is still beside her, facing her, sleeping silently.

she sits down, feeling the pain in her head

confused

seeing their clothes everywhere.

"why am i naked?" she thought

looked at aki, and he is still wearing a boxer short. but no tshirt on.

showing his nice biceps and his abs... makes her melt.

she immediately stood up and checked if the door is locked.

feeling embarrased that his brother might have seen her naked while she was

asleep. for they used to just come in and out akis room.

it is locked.

she was relieved.

picked up her clothes and puts it on.

"what happened last night? we slept beside each other.. but not slept

together..whats the difference tho" she thought

"he turned his back on me and i fell asleep. but why am i naked?"

"am i just dreaming?"

she sits down beside aki on his bed. still thinking....

suddenly aki wraps his arms around megs waist.

"you're up." aki said "come here, lets sleep more." pulling her towards him.

she lays down silently, still confused.

aki hugs her tight

"mmm, round 2?" said aki and laughed.

"what?" then she hugs him back, so tight

she missed him so much. she was happy thinking aki is back.

"he still loves me" she thought and smiled.

"mmmm, i missed you babe." she said, but aki did not reply but kissed her on

her lips.

smack!

and he goes back to sleep.

"but whats going on, he was so cold last night, as if i was not existing. he was

putting much concern to the other girl and even called each other baby."

"what is going on...did we made love last night? i know i had drank too much,

but why cant i remember anything?"

she had a lot of thoughts in her mind,

"last thing i remember was.. i fell asleep as he turns his back on me"

last thing she felt, was pain

last thing she knew, is that she accepted the fact that aki belongs to another

girl already.. and that she dont have any chance to be his girlfriend.

everything is clear that he doesnt care anymore.

he let things to happen, he did not care that she will be hurt seeing him with

another girl.

or

"is it just his way of checking my feelings if i will be jealous??"

but he knows, he already knows. i always show him how i feel, i even say i love

you" started to battle on her mind. still getting the benefit of the doubt.

she kept hugging aki.

she doesnt want to miss the opportunity that aki is back in her arms.

it was her moment.

she doesnt want to let go of him, wished that this will never end.

she thought last night would be the end of their love story.

there was a lot of ice on bed , made his heart frozen.

now its melting.

she cant say anything... she cant ask aki for she doesnt want aki to think she was

assuming. she doesnt want to lose him.

"does he really feel something for that girl..? or should i say, does he really feel

something for me?" she thought.

her mood changes

convincing herself that she was just nothing for him, that the girl is his

girlfriend. and she should stop loving him.

but her heart fights back, "i love him" "i want him and i need him"

her feelings was strong and she want to let it all out.

but aki is not saying what she always wanted to hear.

and aki is not giving her back what she deserve.

she was not asking him to give her everything.

she was not demanding.

she just wanted to feel that aki loves him.

even for a bit.

nothing more , nothing less.

she was feeling crazy.

she turns her back to aki

but aki moved towards her , held her hands and wrapped it to her waist.

he whispered "i missed you"

meg kept silent, as if she was asleep.

then he kissed her neck.

he moved the hair on her nape and kissed her again.

he hugged her tight and gets even more closer to her.

continued to kiss at the back of her neck and she was thrilled.

she had mixed feelings trying to resist what she was feeling.

pretending she is sleeping.

he slightly bit her ears and started to lick the back of her ears.

"what are you doing?" she said, as she moved her head away

but aki continued to kiss her nape. down to her shoulders.

she's about to give up.

aki moves his arms inside her off shoulder top.

carresing her tummy and waist.

it gets more intense.

aki moves his waist towards meg and wraps his legs to her waist.

letting her feel IT more at her buttocks.

his hands inside megs shirt unlocks her bra and carresed her breast.

he stopped kissing her nape

goes up, removes megs offshoulder top

and kissed her in her lips. passionately.

aki won,meg was not able to resist and let her swords down.

"am i just dreaming? or are we back in reality?" she tought.

she felt amazing.

they made love again. as they used to do.

aki stood up after 3 rounds.

puts on a towel and wraps it around his waist.

looks like he's done.

opens door and went straight to the bathroom to take a shower.

meg was left in the bed with just a blanket covering her naked body.

feeling tired.

repeating her thoughts about what happened last night.

feeling happy and sad at the same time.

"what am i doing" hating herself giving up so easily like she would like to take

every chance and every moment with aki. feeling like she is the third party in

her situation.

"he satisfies me, i cant let go of him... i love him" "but this has to stop, no! i cant, i

dont want this to stop. i love him" she thought.

aki went back, wearing shirt and pants on.

"get dressed, im leaving in 5 mins" he said, with aphatetic tone.

seems like nothing happened.

"where are you going, its sunday, you dont have practice, right?"

"uhmm i know, but i have to fetch my sisters. we have a gig later at night"

"your sisters said you dont have gigs on sunday"

"yeah right, one of the bars we are playing needs to replce a band who is not

available later, we have to cover the slot."

"i see, can i come?" asked meg and begged "pleaseee? im not doing anything

later at night" she smiled with poppy eyes

"its far. and we are full, no space in the car"

"but i used to go, even if its far..""why is it full? we can fit in before, right?" she

said

"my brothers friend is coming...and we have additional equipment to bring"

"who, john? or reny? "

"yeah, yeah its john.. "

feeling jealous thinking he was hiding something

she felt like he was not telling the truth.

"okay, then ill ask john" gets the phone and about to text john.

"ahh no i guess its reny, im not sure." gets her phone and puts it inside her bag

before she can send john a text.

she became more suspicious.

"or it might be that girl who calls you baby? right?" said meg sarcastically.

"wait what? who?"

"nothing.." gets dressed and stood up.

aki hugs meg sensed that meg is feeling jealous, and to cover up about his

plans later.

"are you jealous about the girl last night?" he said

"no, who am i to get jealous?" pertaining to their status with no label.

removes his arms around her and walks towards the door.

"she is our regular guest, and you know the kind of job we have is to entertain

our guests.. " his excuse and changes his mood.

"dont you understand our job? " raised his voice

gets the key to his car

"thats why i dont want commitments, girls get jealous all the time. " he said.

"hey i understand your job, did i say i was jealous?, she was calling you baby, so

if you are together then i will stop seeing you" she explained

"you looked jealous last night, the other night and the other night, youre

always jealous." putting meg some guilt feelings and so she will not ask

anything more about him and the girl anymore.

he is getting pissed "i told you she is our regular guest, dont you dare to ask

about her again." slams the door as he gets in to his car.

"get in, we have to go. ill just drop you off where you can ride a jeep, hurry or ill

leave you here"

meg gets in the car, but continued to talk

"why not tell me, if you two have a relationship, so i will stop asking." meg

raised her voice too asking for an answer, she almost cried.

"she's nothing, why even bother, she is not my type" he said, as he starts the

car not looking at meg.

"not your type? but i didnt see you do that to other guest." a tear fell on her

eyes, she wiped it immediately before aki can see it.

and keeps quiet.

she did not hear any answer from aki.

he was silent, escaping questions from meg

escaping the fact that he himself doesnt understand.

aki drops her off to where she could ride a jeep.

no goodbyes.

not even a goodbye kiss.

not a single word.

she went down.

and went home.

this is the first time they had a big fight. and he did not even drive him to her

house.

"what was that all about?" back to her confusing thoughts.

they made love

then after...

they fought

as if nothing happened.

he said it was his job

what? to entertain the guest, check.

but to flirt with others and treat them as girlfriends? - thats not supposed to be

a part of it.

is treating her as a girlfriend, just a part of his job?

does he really feel something for meg?

does he also make love with other guest, like what he does with her?

is meg just a guest for him.

is she just a part of the audience

and not his life.

were all the days , months they have been seeing each other real?

or just a part of the show.

do they make love because he loves her?

or....

he does it with her, without the love?