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The clinic was packed that morning.
Mothers sitting on plastic chairs, nurses calling names one by one,
and Rebecca rubbing her belly gently the way she always did when she was nervous.
I sat beside her, my hand resting on my thigh, fingers twitching slowly,
as if reminding me my recovery wasn’t finished.
But today wasn’t about me.
Today was about her — the little life that had brought light into the darkest stretch of my life.
When the nurse finally called Rebecca’s name, she stood up carefully.
I rose with her, walking just a step behind because my leg still stiffened randomly.
Inside the ultrasound room, the air felt cold.
Rebecca lay back on the bed, lifting her shirt.
The nurse squeezed the gel onto her stomach — she jumped a little, laughing softly.
“Cold!” she whispered.
The screen lit up.
The nurse moved the probe slowly, searching, adjusting, listening.
Then suddenly — a rhythmic thumping filled the room.
Thump-thump… thump-thump… thump-thump…
My heart stopped.
Then restarted with twice the force.
“That’s your baby’s heartbeat,” the nurse said with a smile.
Rebecca covered her mouth.
Tears escaped from beneath her fingers.
I felt my own eyes burning, the sound hitting me harder than any pain I had ever known.
That heartbeat wasn’t just a heartbeat.
It was hope.
It was proof that despite everything —
the trauma, the seizures, the fear, the nights I thought I wouldn’t make it —
life was still forming where love had touched me the strongest.
The nurse turned the screen toward us.
“There she is,” she said softly.
“A healthy baby girl.”
Girl.
The moment the word left her mouth, my body froze.
Rebecca turned to look at me, her eyes wide, waiting for me to react.
And I smiled — a real one — the first one that felt honest in months.
Because suddenly, everything made sense.
The name we had whispered back in high school whenever we joked about “our future kids”…
the name we laughed about but secretly held close…
the name we said once during a late-night walk under streetlights,
as if speaking it could create destiny…
It was perfect.
It always belonged to her.
Our daughter.
Our little Olerato.
Rebecca placed my trembling hand on her stomach.
“She’s really coming, Tebelo,” she said softly.
“Our Olerato he’s really coming.”
I swallowed hard.
My throat tightened with emotions I didn’t even know how to name.
I was still recovering.
Still fighting stiffness, pain, fear, the label of “permanent damage.”
Still trying to stitch myself back together.
But in that moment — watching our tiny daughter kicking on the screen —
something shifted in me.
A reason.
A purpose.
A future I didn’t think I would live to witness.
Olerato.
The name meant “love ” —
and for the first time in a long time,
I felt like I was finally stepping out of the darkness.
It was strange how life worked.
Weeks earlier, I was dragging my leg along walls like a man twice my age. My hand shook even when I tried to hold bread. I woke up confused, slept in fear of another seizure, and walked with the weight of “permanent damage” hanging over my head.
But after we saw Olerato on the ultrasound… after I heard her heartbeat… after Rebecca placed my hand on her stomach and whispered, “Look how she kicks for you,” something inside me shifted.
Suddenly, the exercises the physio gave me didn’t feel like t*****e. They felt like responsibility.
When my hand stiffened, I no longer sat down hopeless. I tried again, forcing the fingers to open just a little more. When my leg dragged, I reminded myself:
I want to run with my daughter. Hold her safely. Carry her. Be present. Be whole.
Every improvement, no matter how small, became a victory.
I went from using walls for support to taking five steps on my own… then ten… then walking across Rebecca’s yard without collapsing.
Even Nhlanhla noticed.
“Eish grootman, the baby is healing you more than the doctor,” he joked.
But he wasn’t wrong. Olerato gave me a reason to fight the pain. A reason to push even on days I felt defeated. A reason to wake up excited again.
I was recovering for her.
But the world outside didn’t celebrate with us.
The news of Rebecca’s pregnancy didn’t just spread — it exploded in Finetown.
People whispered louder. Some pointed when I passed by. Others stared like I was a scandal walking on two half-working legs.
Because to them, the story was simple:
“He left Joyce… now Rebecca is pregnant… no wonder the family is angry.”
Nobody cared about the truth. Nobody cared about my injuries, my pain, the trauma, the struggle. People only cared about drama.
Old women shook their heads when I walked by. Men I used to greet acted blind, walking past without acknowledging me. Girls who used to smile at me now whispered behind their hands like schoolkids.
It was like I had been put on trial in a court where no one wanted the real story.
Even at the spaza, two neighbours stood behind me in the line, talking loud enough for me to hear:
My chest tightened.
The rumors didn’t just sting — they crushed the little confidence I was rebuilding.
Some days, the whispers felt louder than my heartbeat. Heavier than my recovery. More painful than the stab wound itself.
But the worst part was this:
People blamed Rebecca more than me.
They treated her like she was the villain. Like she lured me in. Like she planned all this.
A girl carrying life inside her… while fighting sickness, stress, and fear… was still being judged by people who didn’t even know what happened that night.
I tried to defend her whenever I could, but my voice was still weak… and outsiders rarely believe someone with scars.
Yet Rebecca stayed strong.
She held my arm when we walked. She stood next to me even when people watched us like a movie. She didn’t hide her belly. She didn’t hide me.
One night, after a long walk back from the shops, she squeezed my hand and said:
“Let them talk, Tebelo. They don’t know our truth. They don’t know what we survived. They don’t know what we’re building.”
Her strength shamed me. Her courage lifted me. Her love steadied me when I felt small.
And in a strange way…
the more the community talked, the closer we became.
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