My hot mentor

Chapter nineteen - Another mentor and madness

Ashley's POV:

I told him so many times to keep things professional. I don't know what else to do to make him understand me. I need a new mentor. As much as I like what we do, I have been clear. I mean, from the beginning. That might hurt him, but I don't have another choice. He will think he can always do this if I keep forgiving him. I'm doing it for him, even if he won't understand me. It's better if we cut all contacts. I can do that, but it won't be easy for him. I decided to keep up with the notes. It's like a fun game. Also, I never lied in a single one. I still like him the same way the first time we met. I'm tongue-tied when I look at him. That is one of the reasons why I avoid his eyes, and the other thing is that I will easily give in. He knows he has this control over me. His touch is like magic. It sends shivers every time. My stomach gets tied like a knot. I can't do anything to change this. I'm getting weak. Well, this should stop. We won't see each other that often. I'll change my mentor. I don't want him to stop chasing his dreams because of me. I'm not such a person. Sadly, I care too much. I'm ready to do everything to keep him clean until he graduates. One day, he will understand why I had to do all this. I hope that it won't be too late.

Today, I have to do one of the worst tasks. If I talk with Ethan, he will do everything to change my decision. It's better if we don't speak to each other. I won't block him, but he can't keep texting me. I don't know how I'll keep it together. Hopefully, he won't get mad at me. I know he won't like it. The question is if someone will be available. The year has already started. I don't mind studying alone. It's better than to keep seeing him every day. If you love someone, you have to let them go. I only care, but it's the same.

I'm going to the reception. Linda will give me a new mentor. I haven't told Ethan. I shouldn't do it this way, but I know how he will react. That is the last thing I want to see. I took a deep breath and went there. I had to wait for her. There was a sign that she would come after five minutes. I can still give up and change my mind, but I won't do it. Soon, she arrived with a smile.

- Hello. How can I help you today?

- I would like to change my mentor. Is anyone available? Creative writing.

- Do you have problems?

- It's something like that.

- Let me check. We have three. Chloe, Alex, and David.

- I will take Chloe.

- Alright, then. I'll write you up and make the change. You were with Ethan?

- Yes, why?

- He is the best mentor in this career.

- I know, but things didn't end well. I don't want to talk about this.

- I won't ask anything. Here are the papers for the new mentor. I'll tell Chloe about the meeting.

- Hey, Linda. Can you give the schedule of each teacher's consultation?

- Sure. I was about to call you.

- Really? Why?

- You have a new student.

- Nice. Who?

- She is right in front of you.

- Ashley? But you were with Ethan.

- It's a long story. - I said

- Does he know?

- No.

- Here is the schedule.

- Thank you, Linda. Let's go and talk with you.

- Why?

- Don't you want to know when our lessons will start?

- Oh, yeah.

- Let's sit here. I want to know what's going on. Why didn't you tell Ethan?

- Because he will try to change my mind. I warned him since the beginning. He didn't keep his word. What else do I have to do?

- You should've told him about this. Do you know how he will feel when he finds out from someone else?

- I don't care anymore. When will we start with the lessons?

- How about we meet for lunch in the coffee shop? We can study there.

- Great.

- Bring everything you and Ethan have covered so far. That way, I will know where to start.

- I will. Thank you. You can blame it on me if Ethan gets mad at you.

- Don't worry. We'll talk later. I have another class now. That is my social media account. You can text me, even if it's not about the lessons. I'll be glad to help.

- Can we keep this professional? Please.

- Sure. It'll be the way you want.

Chloe went to her class. I went back to my dorm. I worked on the project I had started. I don't know if something good will come from it, but I want to try. Mostly, I'm doing this as a way to express myself. I was checking the time to make sure I wouldn't be late. Chloe won't wait for me long. I went to the coffee shop and got some food. She came after ten minutes. I brought everything she told me. It will be weird, but I have no choice.

- Hello. Are you ready to start? - Chloe asked

- Yes, I am.

- I want to see the last thing you covered with Ethan.

- Here it is. It was for mister Nelson's class.

- I see. Ok, we can continue from there. Do you have any struggles? I can begin with this.

- For now, no. I like that someone explained to me what we learned in class. That way, I will understand it better.

- You had an A on his previous test.

- I did, yes.

- Can I know what the heck is going on? You were supposed to be with me. - Ethan said

- Can we not talk about this now?

- I deserve an explanation.

- You will have it later. I want to finish my lesson with Chloe.

- I'll wait for you at the back of the university on a bench after an hour.

- Fine. I'll be there.

- Good. - he said and left

- I won't say anything. - Chloe said

- Can we start with the lessons? I don't want to think about him now.

- You know he will be mad. I think you should've told him.

- I know. Will you check this? I don't think I should've done this task like that.

- Let's see. It's the correct answer, but it's not written correctly. That is how I answer mine.

Chloe and I studied for an hour. I told Ethan that I'll go to see him. Honestly, I don't want to talk with him right now. I know he will be mad at me. He would've never let me do it if I had told him. I went to my dorm to leave my things. Later, I went to meet him. He was on a bench waiting for me with his head down. If I don't go, things will get worse. I'll try to explain to him why I did it. There is a chance that he will understand me.

- Hey.

- Hey.

- I'm here.

- So?

- You wanted to see me.

- Why? Why did you do that?

- I have warned you.

- So what? I'm not doing anything illegal.

- I don't want to have these relations. I have told you what I wanted since the beginning, but you didn't want to listen.

- I tried! I tried to do whatever you told me. It's not that easy.

- As you can see, I did it.

- No, you didn't. Otherwise, you would've stopped me.

- And then what? You won't stop doing it. If I keep forgiving you, this won't change anything. You will keep doing it.

- Because that is what I want. You are much more than my student.

- Now you know why I changed you. I had to think about myself.

- For what? Nothing will happen to you. I promise.

- It's not only about me. I have told you my decision many times, and you have no right to be mad at me.

- But I am because you did it behind my back.

- I had no choice. You would've never let me do it.

- Of course, I won't. I will do anything to keep you close.

- Then you should've done what I told you.

- You told me to think about myself.

- Yes, I did.

- That is why I did all this. You became something important.

- What about the girl with the notes? You might have chances with her.

- I don't even know who she is.

- You can find her. I don't want us to argue about this. Accept the truth and leave me alone.

- Ashley!

- No, Ethan. That's my final word. - I said and left

He got mad at me, but I won't think about this. I have other things in my head. I was walking to my dorm when I received a call from my mom. My brother and Kylie are here. They have a surprise for us. We haven't seen them in months. I took my things in a small backpack and went home. I'm not in the mood for this, but I won't deny a talk with them. The door was open, and I walked in. I heard noises from the kitchen.

- Hello?

- Ashley! Come here. - Kylie said and hugged me

- You will kill me.

- I'm sorry.

- It's ok. What is the surprise? Mom told me about it on the phone.

- Here it is. - Bryan said

- I knew it! You were pregnant the whole time.

- How? I didn't tell anyone. - Kylie said

- Because whenever I called, you showed me your head and the neck. You didn't want me to find out you were getting big.

- Yes. I'm sorry.

- Why are there two?

- That was a surprise for us, too. We expected one kid. No, they are twins.

- Boys?

- Yes. We have two boys.

- Great. - I said, and Ethan appeared in my mind

- Since you are here, we can finally say it.

- Say what? - my mom asked

- We are getting married! Ashley, you will be one of my bridesmaids.

- Ashley?

- Hey, sister. Are you ok? - Bryan asked and touched me

- What?

- We are getting married. Will you be one of my bridesmaids? Please. - Kylie said

- Look, I'm sorry. Right now, I don't want to think about this. - I said and went to the backyard

- What is going on? You can tell me. I won't talk to our parents.

- Nothing. I don't want to talk about this.

- What happened with that guy? Did you make a move?

- It's a long story.

- You can tell me. Kylie said he was your mentor.

- Yes. He was.

- Why was? Isn't Ethan your mentor anymore?

- No, I changed him today.

- Why would you do that? I thought he was a good teacher.

- He is, but he didn't keep his word.

- I don't understand.

- That way is better.

I stayed home for dinner. I avoided every question about myself. Ethan sent me a message. I didn't reply. I prefer to cut all contact with him. That will be until I figure out what I want to do. It's a bit weird working with Chloe, but she is great. Well, Ethan was different. He had a unique style of teaching. This doesn't mean she is not good enough. Both of them are. I'm sure she can help me as much as he can. That is why I chose her. Also, we have met before. It will make things a bit easier. I know she will keep it professional without asking me questions. I hope that I didn't hurt Ethan too much.