World of Dream

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

I nodded and wave at her, she waved back at me. Naglakad na nga ako pauwi ng bahay. Medyo natagalan pa ako dahil hindi ko alam kung saan ang dinaanan namin ni Stacy kanina.

"Where have you been, Twyla?" Mariing tanong ni daddy sa akin pagkarating ng bahay.

I'm so tired. Nataranta ako kung ano ang aking isasagot buti nalang at nakapag isip ako agad.

"Diyan lang po sa paligid."

"Sa paligid? Anong oras kang umalis tapos ngayon ka lang babalik? Saan ka ba nagpupunta? Paano kung mapahamak ka? Hindi ka pa naman pamilyar sa lugar na ito." Sermon naman ni mommy na may halong pag aalala.

"Okay lang po ako. Don't worry."

"Don't worry? Sa ilang oras mong nawala? Ipinapatawag lang sa 'yo si Dwylle nawala ka na? Kanina pa siya rito."

"Ganoon po ba? Sorry po. Hindi ko po kasi siya nakita kanina at nalibang ako sa paglilibot." Paliwanag ko.

"Kumain ka na. Hindi ka ba nagugutom? Hindi ka pa nananghalian." Si daddy naman.

"Sige po." Sagot ko nalang at dumiretso na sa kusina para matakasan ang sermon nila.

Malaki na ako pero concern parin sila sa akin. They cared so much for us. I hope I can be like them in the future. I will be good to my daughter or son, i will do my best to be a good parent. But before having a family I need to finish my study first. Busog ako kaya kumain lang ako ng bread with ham and cheese. Pagkatapos ay nilinis ko ang aking katawan.

I'm really tired, i just wanna lay on my bed and take a rest. Magpapahinga na sana ako ngunit may kumatok sa aking kuwarto. Naglakad ako palapit doon para buksan ang pintuan. It's Dwylle. "What is it?" Salubong ko.

"Dinner na ate." Sabi niya at umalis lang din.

"Okay." Sumunod na ako sa kaniya.

"How's Lola?" I asked as i sat on my chair.

Baka kasi maunahan ako ng sermon na naman. "She's fine. Nagpapahinga na."

"Tapos na po ba siyang magdinner?"

"Yeah. Nauna na siya kanina." Sagot ni Mommy.

Hinila ko na ang upuang para sa akin at umupo na rito.

"What's your plan for tomorrow?" Tanong ni mommy habang kumakain.

"Explore province?" Sagot ni Dwylle.

"Wag kang masyadong lumayo, Dwylle huh?"

"Opo."

"Kapag gusto niyong pumasyal. Just tell me, okay?" Si daddy.

"Ano po bang mapapasyalan dito?" Ramdam ang excitement kay Dwylle.

"Mayroong falls sa malapit. Mayro'n ding kabundukan, medyo malayo nga lang. Kung gusto niyong puntahan ihahatid ko kayo."

"Do you want to ride horse?" Tanong ni mommy.

"Yes! Yes!" Masayang sabi ni Dwylle.

"I don't know how to ride horse." Saad ko.

"May magtuturo naman." Sabi ni mommy.

"Kailan po?" Tanong ni Dwylle.

"The next day. Ano? Do you want that?"

"Hindi po ba pwedeng bukas nalang?" Si Dwylle na excited sa pagsakay sa kabayo.

"I have something to do tomorrow and we will go shopping."

"Can I go with you, Dad?" Dwylle said. "I wanna buy something."

"Of course. Ikaw Twyla?"

"I won't go. I'll just stay here." Sambit ko.

"Baka may gusto kang ipabili?" Tanong naman ni mommy.

"Just buy me some books."

Magbabasa nalang ako kapag mabored. I want to go to the falls, daddy's talking a while ago. Saan kaya iyon? Pagkatapos kumain ng dinner ay umakyat ako sa rooftop ng bahay namin.

There are so many stars and i really want to watch it. Humiga ako sa tiles naming rooftop. Sinuot ang airpods na naka-connect sa aking cellphone. This is one of my hobby.Stare at the sky full of stars while listening to music.

“Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

'Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer”

Mahina kong sinabayan ang lyrics ng kantang aking pinapakinggan. Nang natapos ang ilang kanta at naramdaman ko ang lamig ay pumasok na ako. Humiga ako sa aking kama. Agad akong nakatulog dahil sa pagod na kanina ko pa nararamdaman.

"Magnanakaw! He stole my wallet!" My mom shouted.

"What?" Dad asked.

Nasa isang mall ang aking mga magulang kasama ang aking kapatid na si Dwylle. Hindi ako sumama dahil sa katamaran. I want to rest now. Because tomorrow we will ride horse. I'm sure I will get tired. Kaya nagpaiwan na lamang ako para kay Lola.

There is some feeling i can't understand. It doesn't feel right, i know in myself that this is just a dream. I'm sure i am having a dream right now. This is just a dream and i know that i am inside my dream right now. So what? My mind knows that i am having a dream right now, but what can i do?

Tumakbo si daddy at hinabol ang magnanakaw. Nahabol ni daddy ang magnanakaw nang nasa tagong lugar na sila. The thief punch my dad. No! s**t! I need to do something. I need to think what i can do to help my dad. I need to call the police. But I don't have a cellphone with me. The thief has a knife.

This is just a dream, i convince myself. Itinutok ng magnanakaw ang kutsilyo kay daddy. Pinigilan ito ni daddy at inagaw ang kutsilyo. So much blood came out of my dad's hand. I want to cry but this is just a dream. I know that i need to do something but what? What am i gonna do? I don't know. I just know that i am inside my dream.

"Give me my wife's wallet." Mariing sabi ni daddy.

Hinila ng magnanakaw ang kutsilyo sa kamay ni daddy. Isasaksak na sana niya ito kay daddy ngunit nakita niya ako.

My dad stared at where i am too. He was shocked. "What are you doing here, Twyla?" My dad asked.

Binulongan ako si daddy na tumakbo ngunit hindi ko ginawa.

Instead of running, i walk towards the thief. "Give back what you stole." Sabi ko sa magnanakaw.

I don't even know what am i doing. Is this how my dreams work? I cannot control myself inside my dream. It's moving on its own.

"You're very beautiful, Miss." Nakakadiring sabi nito.

"Beautiful, my ass." Sabi ko at tinignan siya ng matalim.

"I will give back what I stole if you will come with me."

"Don't touch my daughter."

"So, anak mo ito? Ibigay mo siya sa akin at ibabalik ko ang ninakaw ko."

"This is a warning."

Ngumiti ng nakakadiri sa akin ang lalaking magnanakaw. Napangiwi ako dahil dito, i just wanna throw a vomit to this thief!

"Then, I'll come with you." I smirked. But for sure, it's like a genuine smile to this thief.

"What are you talking about, Twyla!?” Sigaw ni daddy.

I nodded at him and assure him that it's okay. "Give back what you stole."

"Halika muna rito." Lumapit nga ako sa kung nasaan ang magnanakaw.

Ibinigay na ng magnanakaw ang wallet ng aking mommy. "Ako na po ang bahala rito. Don't worry." Sabi ko kay Daddy.

The thief held my hand after giving my mommy's wallet to my dad. Ngunit hindi ko ito hinayaan. I kick him but before i can do more moves, i already felt a hot liquid coming out from my chest. Dumaloy ang napakaraming dugo galing sa aking dibdib.

Isinaksak ng magnanakaw ang kutsilyong hawak niya sa aking leeg. I can't believe it. What a mess?! Huli kong narinig ang hagulhol ni daddy bago ipinikit ang mga mata.

I know it's just a dream. I am aware that i am dreaming that time but what can i do about it? Can it change the scene in my dream? Would it affect the reality? What will happen if i know that i am dreaming? It can't change the fact that it will happen, the next day. Do they call it lucid dreaming?

I am aware that i am dreaming, that i am inside my dream but can you control your dream? What is happening with my dream? This is strange, it's my first time to experience lucid dream.

They call it lucid dream, but I never believed it until now. I didn't believe in it until i experienced it on my own. It's really true, you can be aware while you're dreaming.

"Mom, ano pong oras kayo pupuntang grocery?" I asked my mom who's watching television in our living room.

"Mamayang hapon. Maybe before 3? Bakit?" Kanina ay titig na titig sa tv ngayon ay nakuha ko yata ang kaniyang atensiyon at lumingon siya sa akin.

"I changed my mind. I want to come with you."

"Okay. I will just call Tessy to take care of your grandma."

"Okay po." Lumabas na ako ng living room pagkatapos noon. What i'm going to do now?

My dream is helping me to survive my day. I can prevent what will happen the next day if i'm going to have a dream at night. If something bad will happen, i can think of a way to prevent it.

Inubos ko ang oras sa pagb-bike kasama ang aking kapatid. Pumunta kami ng falls, siya ang may alam ng daan kaya isinama ko siya. Nagdala kami ng damit para makaligo rito.

Dwylle is really enjoying this huh? Ang bilin nila mommy ay bantayan ko raw siya. Samantalang alam naman niyang lumangoy. Ako nga rito ang hindi alam.

The water reached me until my waist. Iyon lang kasi ang kaya ko samantalang si Dwylle ay nasa pinakamalalim na parte na. Naiinggit ako kasi alam niyang lumangoy. Ako hindi at nandito lang kumukuha ng litrato ng napakagandang falls.

The sound of it is relaxing but I can't avoid thinking about what will happen later. Can I really stop it? Of course right! Hindi pwedeng masunod iyon dahil ayoko pang mamatay. I need to go to college first. I want to have a boyfriend too. I want to experience what other girls feeling when they have a boyfriend. What's the feeling of it?

I'm curious but study first. I have suitors but i don't have time to entertain any of them, i also don't want to. I'm already fine being with Riscent. Maybe, i can start entertaining my suitor and have a boyfriend once the right time comes. May isang kubo sa di kalayuan malapit sa falls. Doon namin iniwan ni Dwylle ang aming damit.

"Ate! Come here, it's fun!" Pang-iinggit ng aking kapatid sa akin.

I just rolled my eyes at her. "I will teach you how to swim."

"I don't even trust you." Sagot ko. Inilubog ko ang aking ulo para mabasa ang aking tuyong buhok.

Nagbabad lang ako sa tubig habang hinihintay si Dwylle na magsawang lumangoy. Pero wala akong nahintay kaya nang nabored ako ay niyaya ko na siyang umahon.

"Let's go." Yaya ko kay Dwylle.

"Ate?! Please just wait! Last five minutes." Tutol ng aking magaling na kapatid.

"Dwylle. 'Wag matigas ang ulo." I glared at her.

"May ulo bang malambot, ate?"

Umahon na ako at itinapis ang dalang tuwalya. Nauna na akong pumunta sa kubong pinag-iwanan namin ng aming gamit.

Napakalinaw ng tubig ng falls. It really looks fresh. Maaari itong inumin. Iniinom nga ni Dwylle kanina. Kaya kahit na makainom ka ng tubig nito habang naliligo ay malinis naman. Nag bike din kami pauwi ng bahay.

Nang nakarating kami sa bahay ay handa na ang tanghalian. "Did you had fun?" Tanong ni mommy.

"Of course, Mom." Masiglang sagot ng aking kapatid habang ako ay tumango lamang.

"Tita Tessy is here? Where is her daughter?" Tanong ni Dwylle nang makita si Tita Tessy na pinapakain si lola.

"Naiwan ang ate Trince mo sa bahay hija." Sagot ni Tita Tessy.

Narinig ko ang tanong ni Dwylle. "Ganoon po ba? I really missed her."

"Hayaan mo next time, isasama ko siya."

"Sige po." Ngiti ni Dwylle.

"What will you buy, Twyla?" Si Daddy.