Hybrid by Blood

Chapter 5 Barley Breathing

    At that moment in life, I was glad that Ryder couldn't hear the other voices in my head. Between Marylin and the other, I couldn't tell what was happening. I didn't know why that voice came up or where it came from, but I couldn't think straight. 

    I started trying my best to think of other things. I couldn't help, but hate wolf telepathy. I thought I wanted to be full wolf and finally get accepted, but something in me is telling me different. I laid my seat back and closed my eyes. I hadn't noticed I fell asleep when I was woken up a few hours later. 

    Once everything was moved into the house I sat on the bed of mine and Ryder's room. The pack was downstairs on the first floor. I could smell the eucalyptus from a mile away. He was coming to talk to me. I had my head in my hands and I didn't know what to do. I felt a connection with the mysterious guy, but there was nothing I could do. I had seen my life with Ryder, but now I am not so sure. 

    I was so deep in thought  I hadn't noticed the feet standing in front of me or the hand rubbing my back. I jumped when I noticed the contact. His finger curled under my chin as he lifted my head up. His eyes were so intoxicating. He grabbed my hand as he wrapped his other arm around my waist. He gently pulled me up and kissed my lips. I felt sparks fly and for a second I forgot about the mysterious guy that had caused something. I couldn't help, but pull him closer and part of me wanted to tell him to stop, but the other wanted so much more and that part was winning. 

    Suddenly, he pulled away. I sucked in a breath through my nose. He put his hands on my waist and kissed my neck. He stopped that too and looked at me and left. I wanted to grab him and pull him in, but I couldn't. I was frozen and part of me felt rejected. Tears fell from my eyes. I took off my shoes. I ripped my shirt and shorts off. 'How much you wanna bet we can jump out of the window and live?' I thought. Don't try it. 

Too late

    I phased into a wolf and jumped out of the open window. I landed on the ground and ran through the woods. I wanted to be away from people. From wolves. For just one night. I could hear Ryder's thoughts. He was asking me where I was going. I didn't listen. I couldn't face him. I didn't want to. He kept telling me to come back. I stopped at the border. If I crossed I would be able to hear him and part of me was scared. I didn't want to lose him, but I also didn't want to be stuck between two guys. I sat at the border for a while. I wanted alone time, but I didn't want Ryder to know that. I started to smell his scent. It was a different scent. I could tell it was the guy that caused the voice in my head. He stopped at the border and looked at me. Some clothes were thrown in my direction. I grabbed them with my teeth and went to a bush. 

    After I was phased back and I was dressed I came out into the moonlight. His face was pale and his hair reached his shoulders. The black shirt he wore reached the middle of his forearms and it hugged his chest tightly. His jeans were dark grey. "Hey," he said. I smiled as I heard his honey-coated voice. I couldn't help, but be more attracted to him. He held out his hand to me. I crossed the border and all I could think about was him. I grabbed his hand and I was immediately pulled onto his back. He ran so fast everything was a blur. We reached a house within 5 minutes. It seemed like this house was miles away from where I had just moved. Where Ryder was. I got off of him and he grabbed my hand. He led me inside where people were waiting. "This is the girl I was after. My Rainn," He said. I couldn't say anything. I looked at him and he looked at me. "I am Damon by the way," He finished. I smiled I could finally put a name to this mysterious face. 

    After a while, I learned their names. The blonde girl that was original with him was named Ashleigh and she was just with him to keep him out of trouble. She was the one who saw him with me. Pretty soon I felt at home. Soon I regretted getting rid of my vampire side. 

    A few minutes later they all froze. Damon grabbed my hand. "Come on we have to go," He said. I was confused. Then I could smell the eucalyptus. He was here and so were my brothers. I shook my head. I pulled away from him. I went out to the front as the rest were out there. "Rainn," I heard Ryder say. They were covering me. I pushed past him and Ryder was on my left and Damon on my right. I was in the middle of two groups surrounding me. 

    "I see you made a connection," Ryder said. I couldn't say anything. I couldn't deny it. The tension in the air was painful. I stared into the darkness of the forest in front of me. I wanted Ryder, but I also wanted Damon. The pain that shot through my body was excruciating. I think my brother Grey had noticed because he ran to my side. "Rainn can you hear me?" He asked. I couldn't answer. He grabbed my hand. 

"Squeeze it if you can hear me," He said. I moved my fingers, but it hurt. He picked me up bridal style and I looked at him. "Rainn. Your anxiety is too high. You need to focus on the sound of my voice. Everything is going to be okay," He said. that last sentence caught me. Tears started to flow and he sat on the ground. 

    My breathing started to grow heavy, then it was ragged. "Talk to me. What's wrong?" He questioned. I felt dumb and stupid. He seemed to understand me through my eyes. He stood up and set me down. "I want to go home. I want to sleep," I said. "I understand, but you can't just bottle up your feelings like that," He said. I nodded and we hugged. For a second I felt normal. "Who do you want to be with tonight? Ryder or Damon?" Grey questioned. I looked at both of them. I loved both of them. I pointed to Ryder. Damon came up to me and grabbed my hand. He put his hand around to the back of my head. He pulled me towards him and our lips touched. They moved in sync. I couldn't stop myself. He pulled away and looked at me. "I'll talk to you tomorrow," He said. Ryder then came to my side. He moved my head towards his. Our lips were barely touching and I felt sparks fly. He closed the gap slowly and our lips felt normal. I felt more normal with him. He pulled me so close to where our bodies touched. My hand left Damon's and I wanted more of Ryder. He then pulled away. and rubbed his thumb on my cheek. "You're mine," He said softly. He kissed me once more and picked me up as we pulled away. 

    I wanted to make my decision, but I wasn't ready yet.