To make my mate love me

Love Me Love Me Not

I felt myself being laid down in a car, but the motions of the drive stole away my last bit of light as the dark sleep consumed me. 

I was picked up and carried for a minute then placed back down on a softer surface. A bed? 

My sleep was interrupted now and I desperately needed to pee and drink some water stat 

I sway out of bed feeling like I'm floating I fall on the floor attempting to walk straight and like the big child I am I do a roly poly to my bathroom door. 

I crawl to the toilet climbing on and bending over counting my toes while I pee smiling to myself. 

I crawl out my room to the stairs not trusting my legs to walk. I bum slide down the stairs giggling like a child. 

I grab a bottle of water from the fridge and pull myself on top of the kitchen island laying on top of it pouring water into my mouth like a waterfall. 

I roll off the island unlike a cat wolves don't always land on all fours, that's definitely gonna bruise I thinking laughing as I roll across the cold tiled floor realising I'm only in my underwear and the cold floor is more like a freezing floor making me feel nauseated. 

I crawl up the stairs again and try stand, in a dizzy spell I grab the door handle throwing it open my eyes aren't adjusted to the blackness I blindly throw myself into the warm bed. Hmm it smells so good in here. 

I fall into a deep sleep feeling a warm embrace all around me. 

"get up trinity now!"  a voice growled stirring me in my sleep 

"go away Stephan" I say not at all ready to get up. 

"Trinity get out of his bed now!" their was no mistaking who that angry voice belonged to this time. 

I open my eyes wincing at the sudden light while Elijah towers over me looking like he could commit murder. 

I gently put my head back down on the pillow to go to sleep again not wanting to aggregate my hangover. 

When I realise I'm in somebody arms, very warm and very muscly arms. I'm not in my bed I realise I'm not even in my room. 

I'm sprawled out on Stephan’s bed stinking of day old alcohol and only in my skimpy underwear while he's cuddling me. s**t. 



But even if I wanted I couldn't move right now without vomiting everywhere. 

I peel Stephan’s arm off me and shuffle a biit so there is now space between our over exposed bodies. 

I hear an agitated growl then I'm being hurled in the air and into the arms of non other than my bastard mate. 

Memories soon start to flood me from last night, he truly does not feel anything for me so what an earth is he doing here demanding I stay away from other men. 

He walks to my room swinging the door open and walking to my bed, every step makes me feel more like a needy child who needs looking after. 

He puts me in my own bed and throws the quilt over me then attempts to walk away but I reach my hand out grabbing his shirt. 

"stay" I mumble budging up in the bed not letting go of his shirt so he falls on the bed a bit. 

"I can't" he says sounding pained. 

I'm not in the mood for arguing so I use my hand to pull him down quickly so he couldn't possible stop himself. 

He was now hovering over top of me supporting his weight on his bent arms so he doesn't crush me his bottom half however leaned on top of mine flush. 

"Trinity we can't do thi" he shakes his head but I don't let him finish. 

"shhh, sleep!" I say while quickly using my leg power to knock him off me so he is now laid beside me. 

He stayed there not moving looking into my eyes for awhile before he sat up. He kicked his shoes off and pulled his top over his head. 

He laid back down beside me while I cuddled into his bare chest resting my head above his pounding heart letting the rhythm rock me to sleep as Elijah’s fingertips danced over my back sending shivers down my spine. 

When I woke up I felt healed as if sleeping with my mate was the magic cure I'd needed all along. 

Or should I say sleeping beside him at least. 

Listening to his breathing made me think to all the times I've fallen asleep to it over the phone, but that could never compare to this. 

Feeling his breaths fan my face, my body being moved up and down with his rising and falling chest, his hands holding me tight one resting on my bum the other holding my leg which was bent over his groin, his groin which II could feel throbbing tightly on the inside of my thigh through his boxers as his pants seem to have wiggled down in his sleep. 

I open my eyes to look up at him, god I don't want this moment to end, I know as soon as he has woken up he's going to regret staying and I'm not ready for that yet. So I don't move don't make a sound just lie there staring at him on awh. 

"your staring" and impossibly husky voice said making me jump. 

Though he hasn't opened his eyes yet he'd caught me out s**t. 

"no I'm not” I lie still blatantly staring at him without a care in the world. 

His eyes finally crack open slowly sending waves of lust smashing to my most sensitive areas. 

God how is this man even real, as he smiles at me with bed hair and sleepy eyes. He's a dream and he's half dressed my bed. 

I don’t care if he doesn't feel what I feel right now I'm being selfish and taking this moment for me. 

I smile back at him, our faces so close I can see each one of his individual lashes that cast shadows down his cheeks and to his lips which my eyes fall onto as if it was an automatic reaction that I had no power to stop. 

But I remember the burn of yesterday when I'd tried that I wouldn't let myself be burnt twice you know how the saying goes fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame in me. 

I force my eyes away staring down now not being able to hide the sadness on my face. 

"Thank you for staying and looking after me" I say in small voice. 

"I'll always look after you Tinkerbelle" he says putting his finger under my chin and lifting so we are face to face again. 

"don't make promises you can't keep Elijah" I say looking down I keep my face still to his but my gaze is no longer on his. 

In a quick blur Elijah grabs my chin in  one hand and the other reached in my hair as he fists it slamming his lips onto mine. 

It was nothing like yesterday, he was in control of this as his mouth set the pace, fast needy and passionate. 

He tightened his fist in my hair pulling at the roots making a pained and pleasured groan escape my mouth. 

He took his opportunity diving his tongue into my mouth as we mindlessly explored each other, he dominated over me and I didn't mind being submissive to him. 

He moved his hand from my chin not for a second faltering our passion driven make out, he grabbed my hip picking me up and placing me on top of hid straddling in my bed. 

Two thin layers of fabric was all that held us back from what we craved, as I grinded myself mercilessly against him while he booked his hips to meet my movements. Perfectly in sync. 

His lips left mine trailing down my jaw and to my neck where he made the kind of kisses that were sure to mark me for a least a week. 

Our groaning and painting filling the room both of us in a state of pure euphoria. 

I too brought my lips down to his neck seemingly driving him crazy as he made one long thrust holding me in place against him for a second before brutally slaying my body. 

Be both moan breathlessly into one another while his hand directed my hips over him. 

His onslaught of neck kisses continue as he kisses my marking spot in the crook of my neck bringing me closer to the edge I follow his lead also dominating his marking spot with wet and wanton kisses. 

He grazes my spot with his teeth before biting me there where I need him, its not enough to break the skin but it was enough to bring me over the edge. 

Making me scream his name "Eli-Elijaaah" as my first ever climax shaked through my body vigorously I bit down on his spot to contain the onslaught of moans escaping me I didn't break his skin but it didn't matter because apparently that's all it took for him too as he booked his hips onto me roughly holding my hips to him with a vice like grip as I felt the now wet material that covered us both cling to one another as we rode out our highs together with soft breathless kisses. 

We stayed like that for a long while as I straddles him I'd rested my head on his chest and he'd wrapped his arms around me holding me in place. 

Eventually I roll off him scared I'd suffocated him with the sudden silence. 

Thankfully he was still alive and kicking as he smiled at me as I rolled lying on my side next to him. I prompted myself up on my elbow and he did the same as we laid in bed the room filling with pillow talk. 

We’d been like this for hours talking more than we ever had about anything and everything. We laughed together effortlessly and our souls connected more than they ever had. 

Until his phone buzzed he reached over grabbing his phone to see who it was. 



His smile dropped, he got out of bed put on his shoes and left the room by the sounds of it he went next door into Stephan’s room. A minute or so later I hear Stephan’s shower start, I don’t know why he didn't just use my shower or at least tell me he was going to get one instead of just walking out. 

I decide to have a quick shower too while he's occupied in his own. 

I make it as fast as possible now wanting to miss a seconds with Elijah. By the sounds of it I think we both shut the water off at the same time. I dried my body and quickly towel dried my hair throwing on some cosy clothes, a pair of cotton shorts and a long sleeved button up top which I left half unbuttoned. 





Once I'm dressed I hear footsteps on the stairs and I quickly rush out my door to see Elijah on his way out. 

"where-where are you going" I stutter. 

"home trinity, this" he says signalling between the two of us with his hand "should never have happened" 

"but it has happened you can't just pretend it didn't" I say getting anxious biting my lip. 

"no but I can make sure it doesn't happen again" he says flatly. 

"you said you felt nothing for me so what the hell was that?     You started this not me" I say shouting a bit now though my voice is breaking. 

"the bond trinity it.. It pulls me to you but that's all it is its just the bond.     I should of fought it I'm sorry." 

"your sorry? I'm not" I speak as I hold back my tears. 

"trinity it was stupid of us both, this can't happen again.. It won't      it's not fair on Laura" he says sadly. 

Of course that's what this all came down too. 

"not fair on Laura.. NOT FAIR ON LAURA" I scream "how is any of this fair on me!! Your MY mate not hers and yet I'm the one left feeling like the dirty little secret" I'm yelling at this point my face red in anger. 

"I'm sorry" he repeats turning from me as he takes another step down the stairs. 

"do you love her" I yell to him feeling the tears roll down my face. 

He stopped in his tracks and was silent for a long time before eventually Turing his head to face me but keeping his body facing the door "yes" he said quietly as if that would soften the blow. 

My tears roll all the more faster down my face dripping off my chin landing on my feet. 

My breathing becomes shallow as I struggle to draw the breaths in, as if even the oxygen had abandoned me. 

I stumble back a bit feeling the sudden weight of holding my own body up was impossible now. 

"re-reject me" I stutter out between sobs. 

He doesn't say anything just shakes his head as he turns his body to face me now taking slow steps back towards me. 

"reject me!" I shout clearer this time the tears exiting my eyes did not falter. 

"no" is all I got back as he carried on coming towards me. 

I hold my arms out in front of me silently saying to stay away. "please alpha Elijah" I say begging the man who'd just made my body shake with a mind blowing orgasm to leave me. 

"No trinity I wont" he says still approaching me.   

I stand shaking my head at what I'm about to do, true mates were special to me I always thought when I found mine I'd never let them go, that I'd fight to the death for them. 

my parents true mates or lack there for of is what made my mum leave my dad, they were best friends and got together to fill a void each other had. 

my mum hadn't found her mate and my father had fallen in love with his second chance mate they were happily together for years until she found her true mate then my dad stepped down wanting the best for his sweet love. 

Then my parents found solidarity in each other, but one day my mum decided that that wasn't enough she wanted her true mate and she left my dad. He was a broken man right there and then. He'd lost the woman he’d loved and his best friend he thought he'd had nothing left so he took his life. 

Trigger warning talking about suicide!! 

I wasn’t enough to fill the emptiness in his heart and I wasn't enough to save his life either. When I found him hanging from the ceiling I ran to him lifting his body with all my strength but it wasn't enough I couldn't carry his weight as I screamed for help that I didn't receive trying to push up my dads body to loosen the noose around his neck but I wasn’t enough then and I'm not enough now. 

So I've got to let him go, my mum would hate me for this but she's not here she never is. 

She blames herself and I know she also secretly blamed me too. When she was drunk one night she'd yelled at me "why weren't you enough for him to stay! You should have been enough I thought you'd be enough! But you weren't" 

she never remembered that night and I'm glad my mother is not a cold woman had never been one, but after that night she was emotionless like she'd just turned it off she was heartbroken because she lost the man she realised she'd loved and he was enough but it was too late and it was her fault. 

"I, Trinity Lila Elizabeth, reject you" Elijah tried to run to me to stop my words but was stopped when he dropped to his knees a pain wracking over him "reject you Elijah Joe Mathew's" I say also dripping to my knees our heads lay next to each other as I cried he held a shaking arm around my head to comfort me. 

The pain we were feeling was not because of a broken bond the pain we were in was inflicted to us by our wolves. They were showing us there distaste in our current situation and punishing us for trying to separate them. 

See our bond still remained unless Elijah accepted my rejection see it was a two way thing one couldn't do it without the other. 

But he should want this, I don't understand he wants to be with Laura not me. Yet he claims the bond keeps drawing him to me so if he removed it his life would be must simpler. So why is he fighting this. 

I don’t know how long we lie there for but even well after the physical pain has ebbed we lay there silently while he plays with my hair. 

The mental pain however was still sharp like a knife as it pierced my very soul. 

I don’t understand why this couldn't be straight forward like Evan and his mystery mate, Danielle and Ryan, lea and Pete. Christ nearly any other person and their mates but not me, and for an A* student I couldn't figure this equation out for the life of me. 

I don’t know when exactly I fell asleep but when I woke up I'm no longer on the hard floor but tucked up in my bed. I couldn't see Elijah or smell him for that matter I guess he'd left some time ago as his scent barely lingered in the air. 

I look around for my phone finding it on my bedside table with multiple missed calls and texts but I don't bother check them it likely Danielle asking why I missed school again and why Elijah and Stephan had too. 

It's a little past 12pm now and I can't skip tomorrow as much as I might wish I could, tomorrow is Laura’s birthday. It wasn't about me and my petty feelings it was about Laura it was always about Laura. 

I force myself back to sleep even though I'm far from tired considering I'd hardly left my bed all day. 

I woke to my alarm already feeling  tired, though I’d slept for hours I felt like it hadn't even touched the surface. 

I didn't know whether to get myself pretty and make it look like my heart wasn't a pile of shrapnel or whether to embrace the fact I felt like f*****g s**t and show it. 

I decide to meet in the middle and make an effort with my hair and makeup but keep my clothes cosy. I curl my hair tying it half up half down and wear a matching cropped hoodie sweatpants set, I don't bother messing with contacts shoving my glasses on instead. 



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Once I'm ready earlier than usual due to my lack of effort I go downstairs and help Stephan who’s baking Laura fave cake red velvet! I help him more like take over the man was useless. 

He starts cutting the stems of the flowers I picked out, I'd choose two bouquets one looked pretty like Laura the other was beautiful autumn colours that was fitting for her October birthday. He started putting them in two separate angelic vases I'd gotten to match, they were beautiful and reminded me of Laura so it was only fitting. 





We finish the tasks and wrap our present up, finishing with a big bow on top. I put the cake in a case to keep it fresh. 



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By this point we we're already late to school not that I cared much but Stephan was desperate to see Laura already. 

Once we reached school I was walking too slow for Stephan’s liking, he wanted to hurry and see his mate. 

He ran at me throwing me over his shoulder I'm a fireman carry. He started running towards our class while we both giggled. 

"put me down you big dog" I laughed while smacking at his bum as we walk into the classroom. 

"sorry we're late, this one" he says shrugging his shoulder making me wobble "decided she wanted to get hands on this morning" he says and though I can't see his face I know there is a smirk across it. 

I can't hold back the laughter as I smack his bum again. He giggles and walks us to our seats then finally puts me down before pulling my chair out for me to have a seat. 

I didn't want to look behind me and see Elijah not after everything so instead I pretend his scent didn't consume my every cell.