To make my mate love me

Picnic

We exit the stage and go to the dressing rooms to get changed back into the clothes we came in.

I throw my messy hair up into an equally messy ponytail to keep it off my sweat clad skin.

When I walk out the dressing room Lee is leaning against the wall waiting for me with his sweet smile. We walk out together hand in hand.

"you did great, you definitely carried the whole team" Lee said looking down at me happily.

"more like my ass did" I say with a sigh.

"Well at least you know you've got a good a-" Lees words we're cut off with aloud grunt of pain.

Elijah towered over Lee who now laid on the marbled floor. Elijah's fists were about to crash back down on Lees face.

I quickly grabbed Elijah's arm and tried to pull it back and away though my strength definitely did not match that's of Elijah's, he took a step back from Lee.

And he turned his lethal gaze on to me. s**t.

But he does nothing as he stares into my fear filled eyes he steps back away from me with a look of betrayal in his now sad eyes.

"you don't ever touch her again Williams" he said referring to Lee by his second name.

With that he backed away through the door down the corridor that leads outside.

I run to Lee who has got back up onto his feet while holding his very broken nose.

"this is going to hurt" I say as I reset his nose so it won't heal bent.

He winces from the pain but soon his healing starts to ease some of his pain.

We walk out the door Elijah had left out of and soon see everyone stood outside waiting for us.

When we exit most of them cheer at us in congratulations.

"well don't you two sexy minx" Stephen said with a wolf whistle. I roll my eyes at him and blow him a kiss with a wink and a bow.

"When's the wedding" Ryan says joking.

"I'm thinking a nice spring wedding you know some purple some pink and a touch of blue on a beautiful beach" I say smiling holding back a laugh as I tap my chin as if deep in thought "scratch that I want a fall wedding yellows, reds and oranges in a big old church either way I'm not fussy" I add

"hmm seems like you've hardly given it a seconds thought" Lee says joking around with a smirk across his face.

I can't hold back the laughter anymore as I punch Lees arm.

"you guys were really great" Laura says with her ever caring smile.

"great? Nah you guys were sexy as hell" Danielle says in an almost shout.

"can't say I enjoyed watching the two of you basically dry humping each other in front of me" Elijah says his voice full of disgust earing a snigger from jade.

"well I can't say I enjoy feeling every time you two actually have s*x" I say my eyes dart from Elijah to Laura and back to Elijah. As I smile sweetly.

Laura's mouth falls open as she chokes on her own breath.

Everyone else seems to find my outburst rather amusing as a lot of 'oooohs' and 'ohh shits' are muttered from them.

Elijah however doesn't see the funny side. Good because I didn't say it as a joke!

"don't pretend you don't like it little love, it's the most you've ever got" I says in a mocking voice.

"hmm I've had better" I lie. Though the excruciating pain I feel when he sleeps with Laura is for from sensual for me I've never had any other s****l experience unless you count Mr. Smith which I don't.

"you wish" is all the says back with darkened eyes.

The atmosphere has suddenly become awkward around us now, Laura doesn't know where to look apparently anywhere but at me and Elijah right now. Her gaze finally settles on Stephan as he smiles at her.

There moment is short lived however as Stephen nudges me showing me his phone.

I break my gaze away from Elijah to look at his phone confused as to what he's trying to show me as the phone is still on the lock screen.

Shit the time I realise it's now a little past 6 so I need to hurry and get back home if I'm going to follow through with my plan.

"gotta go" is the only think I say as me and Stephan taking off running hand in hand to his car laughing at nothing together.

I messaged Danielle on the drive back telling her to meet me at the house with Ryan.

Once me and Steven get home I quickly rush around to get all the needed ingredients out and turning the oven on the pre heat.

a few minutes later Danielle and Ryan let themselves in. I tell Danielle to go pick me an outfit and ask Ryan to help me with the food.

We are cooking Elijah's favourite meal which is tomato consommé and smocked ricotta tortellini.

after the dish is in the oven which I leave Ryan in charge of keeping an eye on, I dart up the stairs.

When I walk into my room Danielle is there with the outfit she'd chose for me laid out next to her on the bed.

I take a quick 5 minute shower knowing it was well needed after all the dancing and swearing I'd done today.

Once I'm done I quickly get out and dry myself I get changed into the clothes Danielle chose out for me.

It was a simple but cute outfit, a white pair of split trousers and blue denim off the shoulder crop top paired with some white heels.

I make a start on my make up while Danielle drys my hair then adds some loose wavy curls to it once my hair is done and styled she helps me with my make up.



Once I'm completely ready I go down the stairs where Ryan has already packed the picnic basket with the food and the expensive bottle of wine and whiskey I'd bought earlier with a fake ID.

I hadn't know if he'd drink wine so I grabbed both knowing he drank whiskey.

I say thank you to both my amazing friends as they wish me luck.

Soon enough I'm on the road with Stephen on our way to the spot. I ask him to drop me off a bit further down from where Elijah and I parked as I still wanted to keep our place secret.

I quickly swap my heels for trainers so I can walk quicker, I carry my heels in one hand and grab the large heavy basket in the other.

I kiss Stephan on the cheek before thanking him and jumping out the car.

Before I close my door he shouts back to me "good luck littlepup, call me if you anything okay?" he says to me

I smile back at him nodding my head and set off on the long walk ahead.

Thanks to the help from Stephen, Ryan and Danielle I'm left with around 35 minutes until Elijah should be arriving.

I need to get there first so I can set out the blanket and light the candles ready before he comes.

I make my way through the thick never-ending for rest following the faint remaining smell of Elijah from yesterday to make sure I don't get lost.

I finally reach the area with the cliff and waste no time laying out the blanket with the basket in the middle a few steps away from the cliffs edge.

I light multiple candles around which envelope me in their rich rhubarb scent its mouth watering.

I keep the food in the basket hoping it will stay hot. I take the bottles out and place them down.

I look at my phone to check the time 7:25pm I have 5 minutes until when I told him to be here for.

I quickly change back into my heels and hide my trainers from sight.

I sit myself on the blanket and move around trying to get into a position to look good.

After sitting in the same spot for what feels like forever I check my phone again it's now 7:55pm.

The food is likely going cold by now and the sun had already set 10 minutes ago.

But still I sit there waiting for him.

Times seems to go in slow motion as I sit and wait.... And wait.

Becoming impatient now i move from the position I'd spent so long perfecting with my back aching from not moving this whole time.

Another check of my phone shows its now 8:37pm.

Was he really that angry at me earlier that he stood me up I think with a lump forming in my throat.

I wait another 10 minutes the sky is now dark and I give up on thinking he actually cared enough to come or actually cared at all.

I sit at the cliffs edge with my feet dangling feels as they swayed backwards and forwards.

I don't cry surprisingly I keep hold of the knot in my throat as I breath heavily.

I sit there staring at the dark cloudy sky which was filled of stars that lit up the small peek where I sat alongside the moon.

At about 9:20pm his scent hit me. He was coming after all.

A few seconds later I hear the sound of his footsteps approaching me but I don't move from the cliff I don't even look his way.

He slumped down next to me his legs dangling beside mine and his arms slightly brushing mine.

The sizzle the touch caused mad me breath out a long breath I didn't know I was holding.

He doesn't look at me and I don't look at him we both just sit and stair at the open sky.

"the foods cold" I say after a few minutes in a flat tone not having the energy to summon any emotion.

"I'm not hungry" he says equally as flat.

I laugh without humour as I stand up and walk over to the picnic basket he still doesn't look at me as I pick it up and throw it over the peek.

Elijah let's out a deep sigh "trinity why did you want me to come" he said sounding actually sad.

"walk with me" I say my voice cracking slightly.

I turn my back to him kick of my heels so I'm left bare foot and start walking into the forest not waiting for an answer from him.

My bare feet sting as the twigs and other sharp thing that cover the cold floor cut into my soles.

I hear his footsteps but he stayed behind me not walking besides me.

"are you going to tell me what we're doing here?" he says from behind me sounding bored of this whole thing already.

"why did you come if clearly bothers you so much" I say still walking on.

"nothing better to do.. Besides Laura asked me too" he says back to me in a flat tone as if his words aren't a punch to the face.

"oh.. That's nice of her" I say as a single tear rolls hotly down my face.

He'd told Laura. Of course he had he tells her bloody everything. I thought angry at myself for thinking he could have just this moment with me.

I feel like and i***t. The only reason he's even here with me is because the girl he actually wants told him to be.

"I know" he said sounding away in thought.

We carry on walking in silence for a few minute he's still a good 4 steps behind me as are steps become slower and smaller.

"this forest reminds me of the one by my family cabin" I say breathing out deeply.

"me and Evan used to rush back from school everyday to my house, we'd do all my chores and more so at the weekends we could go to the cabin with my mum and my.. My dad" I say the last part sadly.

I don't talk about my dad much anymore, he killed himself a little over a year ago now and I'd never gotten over it so instead I ignored it.

"when we were at the cabin we would always run through the forest seeing who's wolf was faster and we'd run until we reached the neighbouring cabins garden" I start to laugh at the memories floating through my head.

"there was this huge tree full of the biggest apples I'd ever seen" my face light up at the memory.

"we'd climb it as high as we could to the top we're the best apples we're, god we both fell out of that tree so many times you'd think we'd or learnt to stop climbing it but nope" I laugh a little biting my lip.

"we'd grab as many apples as we could shoving them into our pockets and Turing our shirts up using them as hammocks to full up too"

"and every single time the old grumpy man would come out chasing us with his stick, he was surprisingly quick for someone who supposedly needed a walking stick" I can't stop the giggle as the old man's face pops into my head.

"we used to call him the boogeyman and we'd run as fast as we could from him dropping multiple apples scared he'd punish us for stealing" I slight shiver ran through my back thinking of how terrified I was of that man.

I reach out my hand no longer walking and run it down the rough bark of the large pine tree.

"when we'd get back to the cabin we'd hide all the apples in my room and when my parents were asleep he'd sneak into my room and we'd sit eating apple after apple playing board games" I laugh to myself.

"I don't even like them anymore, I suppose I ate enough back then to last me my lifetime"

"we had so many memories there me and Evan, he was my only friend for a long time before Danielle and her parents joined the pack" I can't seem to stop myself from talking as the stories just pile out of me.

"I remember one time when we were about 15 we sat on my bed watching the titanic together we were so mesmerised by it by their love"

" we decided to be each others first kiss" I chuckle thinking of that day and how simple it all was then.

"he sat in front of me, we were both crossed legged on my bed and then it happened.. He moved his face into mine without actually angling it and he leaned in way to quick he ended up head-butting me hard on the forehead I fell straight off my bed and onto the floor" I smile to myself.

"he tried to convince me to give it another try for so long but I was stubborn even then. I wouldn't even let him sit on my bed for a week"

"my dad loved Evan used to say we were two peas in a pod.. Made for each other he'd always say" I sigh deeply.

"I'm not surprised Evan thought we'd be mates, I guess subconsciously I did too, it would have been much easier if that were the case" finally the words stopped falling from my mouth.

It's silent for a minute. Then he finally speaks.

"Evan isn't your mate, you shouldn't wish he was either" he says in a low hushed voice.

"Well your not my mate either.. Not really" I say biting my lip taking a deep breath in. "and I know i don't wish he was mine. He's found his true mate now.. I'm happy for him" I say staring at the endless trees.

"do you wish we weren't mate's?" he asks with a broken voice.

"don't you?" is all I say not answering his question.

"what did you want from this tonight?" he said fed up again "I'm here, but why?"

"because Laura told you to be" I said bitterly making him sigh.

I shake my head "I'm sorry I really do appreciate you coming tonight" I say turning to face him for the first since he turned up.

Our eyes lock at stay like that for a little while before I take in the rest of him.

He looked gorgeous of course, he wore a light grey knit jumper, and a pair of washed denim jeans.

His hair was messier than usual and he looked tired, worn out with bags under his eyes but he still looked perfect as he was lit up by the moon light through the trees.



"everyday for over a year you've been Laura's, so thank you for giving me a few hours of tonight" I say once again staring into his hypnotic eyes.

"don't bring Laura into this mess" he said making my hear ache at his words. We really were jus a mess weren't we?

I swallowed the pain and tears away not letting myself break in front of him. I'm stronger than this.

"sorry" I squeak betraying my self proclaimed strength.

He didn't respond but turned around and started walking back towards the cliff.

I followed behind him silently. When we reached the peer he stood staring out at the star lit black sky as clouds covered the moon raining a gentle glow down onto us and the lake down below. "beautiful isn't it?" he asked.

I turned my eyes from him and looked out too "very" I breathed.

Silence overtook us but it wasn't awkward.

We simply listened to the things happening around us, the birds in the tree, the gentle movement of the river, the smooth melody of the wind whistling through the trees. We just let the nature talk for us for awhile.

I peered up at him to find him already looking at me. Now his beauty washed over me was the most exquisite piece of art.

His long black lashes cast shadow over his beautifully golden eyes in the moonlight.

I look down to his lips. Red. Full. Perfect.

Before I know what I'm doing I'm on my tip toes leaning in, my lips a mere inch from his when he brought his hands up to my shoulders gently holding me in place and stopping my progress.

His touch however only makes me more desperate.

"don't" he whispered down onto my aching lips.

"just one kiss.. Just one kiss its the least I deserve I saved myself all this time for my mate all I ask for is one kiss.. My first kiss. And if you still feel nothing i'll.. I'll let you go" I whisper painfully.

"it wouldn't be your first, you kissed Lee earlier" he said to me angry at his own words.

"a stage kiss, I want a real kiss" it fell silent for a few seconds.

"please" I begged desperately look what he reduced me too.

He dropped his hands away from my shoulders and my body missed his warm electric touch.

"okay" he whispered barely Audible even to my werewolf ears.

I close my eyes and lean in the rest of the way. He doesn't try stop me this time he let my lips crash into his.

I felt weak and the knees and the most powerful I'd ever been all at once.

Tink was right there with me loving finally having our mate.

The tingles were more alive then ever as they ran through my whole body.

But he didn't do anything. His luscious lips didn't move with mine they didn't react at all, his hands were held behind his back.

I quickly pulled back opening my eyes to see his were open. All the hope I had for an us diminished right there.

"I'm sorry" he whispered adding pressure to my already breaking heart.

I could feel my hearts burst into a thousand pieces the shrapnel cutting deep to my sole. He truly did not care for me. His mate.

A helpless sob left my mouth and I was defenceless to hold it back. I turn my eyes to the ground not wanting him to see me.

"I'm sorry" he apologised again sprinkling salt to my open wounds.

I turned my back to him as tears streamed out my eyes and burnt holes down my face.

"let me take you back to Stephan's okay?" he said in a low voice.

"please leave me alone" I said while my voice broke.

"Trinity come on le-" he tried to argue before I cut him off.

"go... Please" I said in a less broke voice this time pulling the last bit of my strength together to hold back the sobs.

I heard his footsteps as he retreated from me. Once I could not longer hear or smell him my knees finally gave out.

I crashed to the floor ripping holes in the knees of my pants as blood stain their white material but the pain didn't register.

I cried to myself freely I sobbed with my wolf who was right beside me begging me chase after him. She wants her mate. But he doesn't want us.

I hurt everywhere pain exploding from my body I grabbed at my aching heart through my vest top wishing the pain away.

And then as if the goddess herself were laughing at me the heavens opened up raining down on me.

My skin felt cold as the water rolled down my exposed skin.

I walked over to the blanket wrapping it around myself grabbing both the bottles that were on it.

I once again find myself sitting on the peer legs dangling letting the wind rock them back and forth.

I look at the bottle of whiskey next to me and think to myself if ever there was a time to drink it was now.

I picked it up cracking it open taking off the lid. Bringing the bottle to my lips the smell alone is enough to make me quiver.

I leant my head back taking a mouthful and almost spitting it back out as the warmth slid down my throat.

This was horrid. I bring the bottle back to my mouth thinking it wouldn't be so bad the second time with the burn in my throat and the rich taste already in my mouth.

I was wrong however, it was just as disgusting this time too I put the bottle down placing the lid back on to keep the rain out.

I pick up the wine instead thinking this would be easier to swallow.

That too tastes awful but is drinkable as I gulp it down quickly wanting to feel its effects now anything to numb my pain.

The blanket soon became soaked through as I decide to unwrap myself from it.

The cold drops of rain pricked at my skin again and again as my tears got lost in it.

My body was finally blessedly numb. My hands, my fingers, my purple lips, my red face but the thing I wanted numb most of all remained throbbing my heart.

The wine was long gone now as I picked up the whisky again and poured into my mouth and down my chin.

The taste wasn't half as bad as it was before and I actually welcomed the warmth that spread down my throat to my stomach.

With half the bottle gone I look at my phone through my blurry vision which swayed in my drunkenness as I called Stephan.

"hellllooooo" I sang through the chattering of my teeth.

"where are you?" he said sounding worried I could hear him get up and start moving.

"I'm here of course" I say laughing without humour as tears fall down my face.

"are you okay" he asks as I hear him go out the don't door.

"it's raining on me, the goddess is a real bi-"

"are you drunk" he asked loudly.

I laugh hysterically in response dropping my phone.

I tilt my face up towards the sky letting the rain pelt my already raw eyes and cheeks.

I hum to myself softly like my father used to do to me, I stared out admiring the beauty of this place. It really was a fairy-tale brought to life.

I sat there humming to myself swinging my legs feeling the wind in them.

I continue drinking the whisky hoping to stay in this numb state. I don't want to feel anymore.

Tink was not impressed with me as she had retreated to the back of my head giving me the cold shoulder.

Maybe 30 minutes later I hear a voice call out from behind me "trinity" Stephan calls. Slowly approaching me with his hands held out what an earth is he doing? "come on I'm here.. Let go" he said in a slow steady voice.

"goddess, Tinkerbelle get away from there" an all the familiar voice said.

I turned my head more to see both Stephan and Elijah slowly approaching me on their knees. What are theses idiots doing.

I laugh to myself placing it together I carry on laughing until my throat hurts. Clearly confusing the guys.

"what's funny about this" Elijah in a wobbly voice.

"I'm not going to jump you idiots" I say talking another couple mouthfuls of whisky.

"I'm not my dad" I laugh even more at the irony, he took his own life when my mum left him and they though that's exactly what I was trying to do.

Elijah winces at my words and Stephan just seems confused of course he doesn't know about my dad's suicide.

"come on let's get you h-" Elijah tried to plead while trying to reach out to me.

"I can do it myself, and I thought I told you to leave me alone" I spit angrily at him pushing his reaching hands away from me.

"come to me littlepup" Stephen says still not believing I won't jump.

I swing my legs back over while taking more of the drink into my mouth.

I stand quickly with my bottle in hand, apparently I stood too quickly as a wave of dizziness swept over me causing me to loose my balance making me stumble back.

But before I could fall Elijah had me in his arms sighing contently as he brought me into his chest holding me there.

I feel a warmth embrace me taking the edge of my pain as the sweet smell of chocolate and vanilla cover me.

I push away from him and stumble into Stephan's embrace as he throws his jacket over my frozen skin.

"Come on littlepup" he said kissing my forehead "let's go home"

I smile up at his smelling his earthy scent "did I ever tell you smell nice" I say looking up at him.

"no littlepup" he laughed.

"you have a pretty face too you know" I say reaching my hand out to trace his jaw.

Before I make contact I was grabbed away back into Elijah's chest. "enough" he demanded.

He pulled the jacket off my shoulders throwing it back at Stephan making my shiver.

Elijah quickly whips his hoodie off pulling it over my own head and pulling my arms through like I was a child. Leaving him bare chested.



"I don't need it" I say through chattering teeth.

"shh.. It looks better on you" I said beautifully to my ear.

The warmth intensified and before I knew what was happening my feet were lifted off the ground as I was carried bridal style through the forest.

I stare up at his beautiful face in awe "you smell nice too you know" I say burying my face into his chest inhaling him.

"you have nice eyes too" I say tapping my finger on his eyelid.

"your skin is also nice and soft" I say stroking a gently hand over his cheek.

"and lips" I say pressing my fingertips against his full soft lips.

I shiver at the sizzle of tingles that erupt at the touch.

He looks down at me with big longing eyes.

"I'm sorry" I say to him catching him off guard.

He stiffened clearing his throat "for what?"

"I told you that if you felt nothing I'd let you go.. I lied.. I don't want to let you go I can't" I say in a unrecognizable voice due to all my crying making my throat rare.

I Nussle myself deeper into his bare chest feeling his n****e piercing dig into my arm as I rest my head in the crook of his neck and I stop fighting my tiredness.

But before consciousness slips through my fingers I heard his soft whisper "good"