Never once yours GXG (ON HOLD)

People say that once you found your mate, you'll feel complete, happy, etc. I was a fool for believing those words they said to me when I was young. What is love? The definition of that word means happiness to others or something more. But for me, I wish I didn't find it. I wish that she had died earlier or vice-versa. Being with her only brought suffering into my life. I've never felt complete like what mother said to me, I felt so broken and lost. I feel like I've been trapped my whole life. The day that they killed my father, accusing him of being a traitor, in front of those selfish nobles who were sipping on their gold cups celebrating my father's death. I shouldn't have trusted her and her words, assuring me that everything will be fine. I was wrong. The next day, after my father's persecution, I saw my mother standing in the same spot where my father once stood before his head falls to the ground. I tried running to her, to hug her close but I was held down on the ground. It broke my heart to pieces as I watch my mother look at me in the eyes as she mouthed '' I'm sorry'' before they cut her head. ''Mother!!!'' I shouted at her, it was futile I know. Her head was already on the ground, detached from her body, she's dead. I struggled to get out of the royal guards' grip and ran to where my mother corpse lies. Why?! How can this happen?! - Questions popping in my mind but the answers were nowhere to be found. I looked into the crowd, searching for the princess of this kingdom, my mate. Seconds later, I saw her sitting on her golden throne, smirking at me as she kisses the woman sitting on her lap. At that moment, I could feel my whole world crumble down. It felt like my soul was being torn apart. The pain was unbearable. My brain was going haywire. Anger took over and the next thing I know, I was standing in front of them. Without a second thought, I let my fangs out of my gums, in a flash, I grabbed the woman's neck and tightened my grip around her neck. I could hear the woman's bone break to pieces as its slice through her skin. Bloodlust, that was what I was feeling. I watched the girl exhale her last breathe once I was sure that the girl in front of me was dead. I turned my gaze towards my mate who was trembling in fear as I walk closer to her. I extended my nails preparing to grab her heart out of her ribcage but I was stopped. It was like I was getting smaller, that's what I thought at first. But then my head hit the ground, after that, I saw my body fall next, headless. Then it registered, I was beheaded. I took one last look at my so-called mate, she was smirking at me as if the mate bond between us was useless. Then I was swallowed by darkness. Fuck love. To be continued.