Minute 85
I had made myself a prisoner of my own devices.
I had every chance to cancel or change my crazy plans, but never turned back once I took the first step. And then all has been becoming harder and harder to accomplish. Outside that path everything was easier, I just thought this one would be easier than it really was. I cannot even remember the exact specific reasons why I did it. The only family member that comes to mind is mom, although not precisely in trying to punish her in any way, but more like a rebellion against what was happening at home and her abandonment of dad and I. Mostly of I.
But the two people that are ever-present in my mind are Sara and Darcy. I think the fact that I wanted to be more ‘presentable’ to Sara made me want to change so much. I didn’t know she wo
