Finding the serial killer

Chapter 68

Chapter 68

Jake’s POV,

"You remember when I threw a birthday party, I invited all my classmates. That was the first time I invited so many people to celebrate my birthday. Usually I only celebrate with my family and few of my childhood friends. But I invited so many people because I thought you will come as well and I can finally celebrate my birthday with you around. But you didn't show up. "

"I never thought you were serious about me. you were always friendly with everyone. I never thought I was special. I even thought that you were dating Mia. You both were together many time. I've seen you dropping off and picking up her many times. Many people thought that you both were together. I thought that you were flirting with everyone and I surely didn't want to be one of your flings so I just opted to ignore you." I confessed my thoughts to him.

"I always felt like you were ignoring me but I never give it any mind. I thought that I was just being paranoid. I remember how you walk away whenever I was coming to you. But I never saw that you saw me before leaving so I thought that it was a coincidence. I've never seen any fondness for me in your eyes. I've approached you so many times but everytime the result was same. I lost my hope. I tried to move on. I tried to date someone else. I tried to touch someone else but you never once leave my thoughts. I always imagined what it would be like to hold your hand. To be close to you. To see you smile for me. To kiss you. But you seemed like a far fetched dream to me always happy in my mind but always so far."

He had tears in his eyes saying that he had liked me for so long.

"I'm sorry I was always really protective towards my feelings, I never open up with anyone and I was scared of the pain of heartbreak. I just cannot bear such emotions." I started crying too.

"I will never hurt you, never intentionally for sure. But I cannot live without you either. Living without seeing you for a year was long enough to experience hell. Whenever I was at home or alone in the office I just thought about you. I tried to meet you and contacted you. I was so scared that you won't answer my call. Don't know why but I feel like you hated me. I felt like you were pushing me away. It hurts me alot to think about it. But thankfully you answered but we could meet." He was still explaining me and I can see sincerity in his eyes.

"It has been more than a year since we last met. Honestly I missed you and I was happy that you called me. I thought you must have forgotten me." I said with a hint of happiness in my voice.

"389 days" he said suddenly. I was confused so I hummed,

"Hmmmm?"

"I has been 389 day since i last saw you. You remember the last day of college, I asked Eli to take you with her to the party. I thought she was your closest friend and if she asks you, you will surely come. I was planning to confess you about my feelings that day. But Eli told me that you had a flight because you have to attend an audition the next day and you cannot attend the party. I thought that I lost my last chance to be by your side." He was confessing to me and I was still contemplating whether it is too late for me to open up to him.

"I've liked you since the day you had helped me with some project of my. Before that I just thought that you were like the others who were approaching me with some interests in their mind. But you seemed genuinely a nice guy that day, that's why I started talking to you. I felt some attraction towards you but I keep on denying them. I hate goodbyes so I just left. I purposely attended that audition so there won't be any sayonaras. It was hard for me too but I was controlling myself."

"So do you like me still? " He asked.

"I've never stopped liking you. You were never off my mind." I told him.

"Would you give me a chance? Will you be my girlfriend? I never thought I can like someone as much as I like you. And I swear I will never hurt you."

I hold his right hand with my two hand and brought them closer to my my cheeks and leaned my face slightly on his hand and said,

"I've never done this girlfriend thing before and I am scared of breakups. I hate goodbyes the most, I've seen many broken relationships", with my every sentence his eyes was getting filled with sadness, "but to be with you I can try my best to forget all that and just be myself, just be the girl I am." Listening to my words his face light up, he hugged me and said,

"My love for won't end in this life time. It's longer than my life and deeper than my my deepest emotion. I will always make you happy and protect you from hurting." He pulled away about and give my a soft kiss on my lips. I don't know how long I looked in his eyes and he looked in mine but it felt like we both were refusing to let each other go. It was as if we were making up for the time we have lost in confusion.