When you see her again, if you don’t get that all-shook-up feeling then it will count against you. It was just a bit of meaningless fun, you can tell yourself, but here is the clincher: it did mean something. It meant that you were willing to share your most private self. All those secrets and intimacies that you thought only the most special would ever get to know, you just gave them away. It means this girl was as much to you as Elowen was, since you can’t share any more of yourself than everything. It would demean the relationship I thought so untouchable. She would have had more of me than I can risk giving Sindee, for fear of falling in love. What would my current best friend feel if she found out? How could I explain to Sindee that I constantly resist her because she is easily capabl
