FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I FELT SAFE.
At night, I found it difficult to sleep with the nightmares, and the obsessive thoughts that ran through my brain. I wish I had an off button for my brain, because it was hard to concentrate on anything when my just wouldn't stop. I found it comforting to know that Devin and Simon were right next door if anything ever happened. I knew that nothing would happen to me if they were there.
Yet, that didn't stop the nightmares from becoming more and more frequent, and while I had those sleeping pills, I was also scared to take them. I was scared of falling asleep, in fear that I would see John's face once again. And with every night that I was subjected to sleep, the more vivid and real the dreams became. I often woke up drenched in my own sw
