See Love Die

Chapter 13

CONRADS POV:

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"Listen, that's enough" I snapped, the old guy was still full of energy, trying to barge past me to get to the other guy again.

Ben, Connor, Zia and Hardin were all trying to hold themselves back from going full Vamp, but Jamie walked over to help.

"I got this" he said calmly, while pulling the guy to the side of the building where noine could see.

After a few moments, the guy walked past us and back in to the bar.

"How did you do that?" I quizzed, it took me 5 minutes to get him to stop shouting in the first place.

"Mind control" he winked and walked back over to the guys.

I picked the bloodied guy up, and made sure he was okay.

He was lethargic and couldn't stand.

"I think he needs an ambulance" I shouted over to Cory who was heading back over.

He nodded and dialed 911.

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After 20 minutes of sitting with the guy and Cory grabbing him some water, he seemed like he would make it, and the ambulance turned up.

They thanked us and took him away.

"I need a stiff drink after that" I muttered to Cory.

He nodded and we made our way inside the hotel.

He'd stayed with me and I'd told the others to go inside.

The smell was too much for most Vampires apart from Cheryl and Jamie as they'd never tasted human blood before.

It shocked me at Harry's reaction, I never knew she could have it in her to feed on a human.

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I took myself to my room to get changed and then on the way down, went to make sure Chase was okay.

I knocked on his door and waited a moment.

"Who is it?" I heard Cheryl's voice on the other side.

"It's me" I spoke.

There was a click of the lock and the door opened, she let me in and I took a seat next to the bed.

Chase was laying there, clearly naked and under the duvet while Cheryl had his shirt on, it hung around her hips and she got herself back under the covers for her modesty to be hidden.

"How you feeling?" I asked him.

"That was scary bro, I need to feed soon or I'll lose control next time" he said, shamefully.

"Hey, there's nothing to be ashamed of man, well find you a doner before we leave. Could you not compell somebody and heal them straight afterward?" I questioned.

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It didn't seem morally right, but there would be no memory of it and they'd be healed again within minutes.

"It's a risky one" he admitted, running a hand over his stubble. "If I drink it from the vein I might not be able to stop, it makes it harder" he added.

"I'll be there with you bro, I got you" I reassured him, it was hard to see him struggling with himself so much.

He nodded.

"Eli and Lucas are going with Harry tomorrow to buy chains for us all, they're going to enchant them with cloaking spells, we can do it then" I said.

He nodded again.

"Thankyou man" he looked at me.

"Was Harry okay?" He added.

"I haven't seen her since she asked me to help earlier" I admitted.

"Cah you check on her bro?" He asked.

She really was like a little sister to him.

"Make sure she's okay please?" Cheryl added "I need to stay with Chase but I don't want her to think I've ditched her" she looked sad.

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Struggling to be there for both her boyfriend and her bestfriend, and she couldn't sleep with Harry to take her mind off of it.

A disturbing thought flickered through my mind.

You could it mimicked.

I shook it off, she had a boyfriend and was a vampire, it was a no go.

"I'll pass by on my way down, I I a drink" I chuckled.

"It'll be room service for me tonight" Chase smiled back, "I need to stay away from humans for the time being"

"I understand man, don't worry about it, I'll catch you guys in the morning" I said, getting up off the chair and letting myself out.

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I passed a few rooms before I got to Harry's, and hesitated before knocking.

"Who is it?" I heard a muffled voice from behind it.

"It's Conrad, are you okay?" I pressed my ear to the door, and heard her shuffling around inside.

"Um, yeah, I'll be fine" I heard, softly.

"Do you need anything?" I asked, unsure of what to do, she sounded like she was upset but this wasn't my fortè.

"No, I'll be fine, thankyou" she broke off, and I heard her soft sobs.

It broke my heart.

"Can I come in? Or tempt you to come down and grab a drink with us?"

There was silence.

"Chase asked me to make sure you're okay, and for all I know you're cooped up in there at gun point or with victims of your own" I tried to lighten the mood and cheer her up.

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"Not funny" she spat back.

Wrong move dickhead, I scolded myself.

But to my surprise, she opened the door slightly, not allowing me to see her.

"I'm okay, see" she opened the door to show me her room was empty.

She had an immaculate room but was still hiding herself.

She shut the door on me again, and I heard her lean against it.

I rested my forehead against it too.

"You sure you'll be okay? Misery doesn't want any company?" I spoke, gently.

"No, I think I'm better off on my own" she whispered back.

I heard her holding in her sobs.

"Okay if you're sure, but the offer stands, I'll be down there for an hour, come down at any point if you feel like it"

I placed my hand on the door, for some unknown reason, knowing she was hurt, hurt me.

"Thankyou" she whispered.

I stayed for another minute or so, with my head and hand placed against the thick wooden door, before I made my way down to the bar.

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I couldn't understand Harry, she was so strong yet so fragile.

A delicate thorn.

I saw Cory and John at the bar, everybody else had turned in for the night.

"Hey bro" Cory said, bumping my fist.

"Everything good?" He asked.

"Yeah, just need to put this day behind me now" I admitted, and ordered myself a whiskey.

I couldn't wrap my head around the goodness of these Vampires.

Even Chase surprised me.

They tried to restrain themselves from urges that take over others.

That ruin lives, but they weren't on treaty land, or breaking any rules as to speak, yet they still didn't want to harm anyone.

"Tomorrow is the start of a long week" John spoke.

"You aint wrong there" I agreed.

We were due to split up tomorrow, my group taking a lead in Forest Oaks, and Chase's going to a small town called Foxville.

Neither leads had been questioned yet and both were far away from each other.

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We had to make sure we were sporadic, and any we'd missed on the way up, we could cover on our way home.

I sipped the spicy brown drink and felt it warming my insides.

My brain becoming fuzzy and relaxation hitting every muscle and joint in my body.

I sighed, kind of hoping Harry would show her face so I could see she was okay.

She shouldn't be alone going through this, but she was adamant she wanted to be.

There was something else pressing her, I noticed the way she would look at her friends love and saw pain on her face, or how she flinched at her own boyfriends name.

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Maybe she was having relationship problems, which was none of my business, but would ultimately make this situation harder for her if Chris would show up.

I sighed into my drink and ordered another.

Repeating this process until 1am hit, the hour had passed and I made my lethargic way back up to my room with the boys.

As soon as my head hit the pillow I was gone for the night.

A new day, a new week and a new plan all awaited me in the morning.

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HARRYS POV:

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I slid my back down the solid wooden door and sobbed silently into my hands.

I was so alone, but I didn't want company, didn't think I deserved any.

I was a mess, I had cravings I couldn't control because of how much I messed up at the start.

I should have just left myself vulnerable, refused to keep drinking his blood incase anything bad happened to me.

Because it did anyway, and he caused it, he did it.

My life felt like it was falling apart, I should have taken up Conrads offer to go and drink but I couldn't face anyone right now, I just wanted to dry my body of tears and get over this alone.

If he finds me, and tries to hurt any of the brave people here doing his job for him, I'm not sure how I'll react.

I could ask the wolves to bite him, poisen him and leave him to die.

But that would be too much to ask of anyone, they would be too worried about the consequences.

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I just had to move past the fear that was holding me down in the way that it was, stop being so soft and emotional.

I didn't want to change who I was but it was getting me nowhere.

I dragged myself from the door to the bed before breaking down again, clutching on to the pillows and burying myself in the covers.

I cried like this for a while before drifting off to sleep, hoping the pain would have subsided by morning.

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My alarm was bleeping meters away from me, and I rolled over to turn it off.

Heaving myself out of bed, I went to the bathroom to use the toilet.

The reflection in the mirror above the sink scared me, I had mascara stains down my cheeks and brown smudges from the eyebrow powder I used, merging with my hairline.

I washed my face thoroughly and brushed my teeth.

I didnt want to wear makeup today, I didn't deserve to feel pretty.

I pulled on my jogging bottoms and an oversized Levis hoodie and packed my stuff up.

As I was tieing the laces on my all black vans, my door knocked.

I opened it with caution, paranoia striking me hard.

I sighed when I realised it was just Cheryl.

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"Good morning" she said, delicately.

"Hi" I mumbled back, feeling numb and unemotional.

"Are you okay?" She questioned, taking in my makeup less face and baggy clothes.

"Yeah, I just feel ill after yesterday, I'll get over it" I shrugged.

"I'm sorry I didn't come to you last night, Chase didn't want to be alone" she looked down at her hands and played with the tips of her fingers.

"It's fine I know he needed you, I wanted to be by myself anyway" I admitted.

"Did Conrad check on you?"

"Yeah he did" I replied nonchalantly.

"Okay I'm glad, you'll tell me if you're not okay, right?" She questioned, looking deep into my eyes.

I nodded, "I promise I'm fine" I lied, feeling guilty.

She just had too much going on with Chase to need to hear about my problems too, and there was no solving them.

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"Let's get some breakfast, we have some shopping to do together before we part ways" she said, sadly.

"It'll be okay, we'll be back together by the end of the week" I replied.

She gave me a big hug and we made our way downstairs to eat.

Mostly everyone was chatting away, trying to forget that yesterday had even happened, so I tried my best to plaster a smile on my face.

A few looked at me with pity, and others ignored what had happened and spoke to me as normal.

I appreciated the normality, although my head was fuzzy and I had ten thousand thoughts whirling through my brain.

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I picked at the pancakes I'd usually wolf down, and drank my orange juice instead.

My appetite was gone.

I had to fix my feelings before we set off, I was going to be surrounded by people I barely knew for a week all by myself without my best friends, but at least I wouldn't have the constant reminder of their love around me.

I loved that they were in love, it usually made me happy, but right now with my whole life upside down, it made me feel incomplete.

It was my own insecurities playing on me and I didn't want to affect my friendship with either of them by making it an issue and it would be unfair to ask them to stop with the PDA, that made them happy, so I would just swallow it down.

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The imminent shopping trip left a small bubble of happiness somewhere inside my gloomy soul, so I tried to eat a little and made conversation with people, dragging myself back into slight normality.