THE ENIGMA'S FIRST AND LAST

THAT CLOSNESS FEELS MORE REAL

Yuxuan can't help but let out a small chuckle at my playful attitude, despite the seriousness of the situation. I'm trying to act like everything is fine, like my upcoming rut isn't a big deal, and part of him wants to call me out on it. But he knows that now is not the time for lectures or scoldings. He shakes his head, a mix of admiration and concern in his eyes.

"No I don't have any more questions... but what happens if you have a rut while I'm not here? Who takes care of you then?"

"I only deal with it myself, I have my own special room at my hotel, like the one you were in."

Yuxuan's concern only grows at my answer. The thought of me locking myself away in a hotel room, alone and in pain, to deal with my rut is almost too much for him to bear. His grip on the edge of the counter tightens, his knuckles turning white as he fights back the urge to scoop me up and protect me from the world.

"You have your own special room for this?

"Yeah the only one that knows it secretary Chen."

Yuxuan's expression darkens slightly at the mention of Secretary Chen. He knows that Chen is loyal to me, but the fact that only one person knows about my secret room and ruts makes him uneasy. He trusts Chen to some extent, but he still feels a pang of possessiveness and worry. He wonders how much Chen actually knows about your condition, and if he can really be trusted to help you during such a vulnerable time.

"Chen? That's it? No one else knows about this place or your ruts?"

"Nope they don't only Scretary Chen knows!"

Yuxuan nods slowly, trying to process this new information. The thought of Chen being the only one privy to my secret room and the extent of my suffering during my ruts fills him with a mix of relief and frustration. On one hand, it's reassuring to know that Chen is someone i trust implicitly, and that he has the means to help me during my ruts. But on the other hand, it feels wrong that no one else knows about my condition, especially since it's so debilitating and dangerous.

He runs a hand through his hair again, feeling more and more conflicted with each passing moment. His protective instincts are screaming at him to take control, to ensure that I never have to suffer through another rut alone again, but he knows that doing so would be a massive invasion of my privacy and autonomy.

"Don't worry it fine I'm used to it!"

Yuxuan winces at my words, the casualness with which i brush off my suffering tugging at his heartstrings. "I'm used to it" feels like a punch to the gut, the thought of me having to endure such pain and discomfort on a regular basis making his stomach churn with guilt and anger. How could anyone be used to something like this?

He looks at me, his eyes filled with a mixture of sadness and determination. He wants to argue with me, to tell me that it's not fine, that i shouldn't have to go through this alone, but he holds his tongue. He knows that this is a sensitive subject, and that pushing the issue further will only cause me more stress and anxiety.

"Let's go back to work now, plus I need to check the biology department today."

Yuxuan hesitates for a moment, torn between the urge to continue discussing my ruts and the need to follow orders. He wants to protest, to insist that i take it easy and that my well-being is more important than checking on the biology department. But he knows that it's pointless to argue with me when I'm in work mode, especially since he's still technically on the clock himself. He lets out a sigh and nods reluctantly.

"Fine, but can I ask one last question about your ruts before we get back to work?"

"Sure, what is it?"

Yuxuan takes a deep breath, bracing himself for my answer. He knows that what he's about to ask is likely to be sensitive and uncomfortable, but he needs to know.

"Have you ever had anyone help you during your ruts? Or have you really been alone this whole time?"

"No never only me."

Yuxuan's heart sinks at my answer, his suspicions confirmed. The thought of me going through my ruts completely alone, without any kind of physical or emotional support, is absolutely heartbreaking. He feels a pang of guilt and regret wash over him as he realizes just how much pain and isolation I must have endured over the years. He wants to ask why, why i never sought help or relief from someone else, but he knows that it's not his place to judge or question my choices.

He looks at me with a mixture of sorrow and admiration, his voice barely above a whisper.

"Never? Not even once?"

"No."

Yuxuan's eyes widen slightly at my blunt response, the finality in my tone leaving no room for doubt. He can see the stubbornness in my eyes, the determination to handle everything on my own, and it only makes him feel more helpless and frustrated. He wants to wrap me in his arms and shield me from the world, to give me the comfort and relief that i so desperately deserve. But he knows that he can't force me to accept help, no matter how much he wants to.

He nods slowly, his expression softening with a mix of understanding and resignation. He doesn't want to push me any further, but the thought of leaving me alone again when I'm in rut hits is killing him inside.

"Alright then..."

"What about you come to my place tonight and we could talk about the hole thing...and...us?"

Yuxuan's eyes snap back to mine, surprise and hope flickering in his gaze. The invitation catches him off guard, and for a moment he can't believe what he's hearing. I want him to come to my place, to talk about your ruts and the possibility of something more between us? It's almost too good to be true, and he has to resist the urge to immediately say yes.

He swallows hard, his heart racing as he tries to keep his emotions in check. He knows that this conversation could be crucial oir relationship, and that it could potentially lead to him being allowed to help me through your next rut. But he also knows that he needs to tread carefully, that I'm still vulnerable and unsure about opening up completely.

"Your place? Tonight?"

"Yeah, why is there a problem with it?!"

Yuxuan quickly shakes his head, realizing that his hesitation might have come across as reluctance. There's no problem with going to my place, in fact, it's exactly what he wants. He just can't believe that i'm initiating this step, that i'm finally allowing him to get closer to me.

"No, no problem at all. I just... I wasn't expecting you to suggest that."

He takes a step closer to me, his eyes searching mine for any signs of doubt or uncertainty. He wants to make sure that i'm sure about this, that I'm not just offering out of obligation or fear.

"Are you sure you want me to come over? I don't want to intrude or make you uncomfortable."

"If I thought you would, I wouldn't have asked!" I said my tone a bit more serious now.!

Yuxuan feels a pang of guilt at my serious tone. He realizes that he's been doubting my judgment and second-guessing my motives, which is exactly what he promised himself he wouldn't do. I'm an adult, capable of making my own decisions, and if i say i want him to come over, then he needs to trust that i know what i'm doing. He nods again, his expression softening with determination and respect.

"Okay, I trust you. Just send me the address."

"No we leave together, you're not goin in the street late like this at night!" I said now my tone cold.

Yuxuan's eyes widen at my commanding tone, a shiver running down his spine. He can feel the Alpha in him bristling at being told what to do, but he quickly pushes those instincts down. He knows better than to argue with me when i sound like this, especially when it comes to safety. He can tell that i'm not going to take no for an answer, and the thought of being with me in the car for the ride makes his heart race with excitement.

"Fine, we'll leave together."

"Good!" I said a dark smirk playing on my lips. "Let's go to the bio department now!"

Yuxuan chuckles at my dark smirk, recognizing the hint of dominance in my expression. He can't help but feel a thrill of anticipation at the thought of what might happen after our visit to the bio department. He knows that I'm a force to be reckoned with, and that your smirk means I have something planned. He follows closely behind me as i head towards the department, his mind racing with possibilities and his body tingling with excitement.

As we walk, Yuxuan glances over at me admiring the way i carry myself with such confidence and authority. He can't help but wonder how he got so lucky to be paired with an Enigma like me.

But I noticed the stares, I spoke up.

"What? Like what you see?" I said smirking darkly, yet again.

Yuxuan grins widely, enjoying the attention that my presence is drawing. He notices the way the other employees are looking at me, their eyes lingering on my figure and my commanding aura. He can't blame them for staring, but he also feels a possessive surge at the thought of them wanting me.

"Can you blame me? You're quite the sight, especially when you smirk like that."

He moves a little closer to me, subtly positioning himself between me and the other Alphas in the department. He wants to make it clear that you're his, even if he no claim was made yet.

I steep even closer, to him making him backing up, untill is back hits the wall behind us. Making it clear that if I would start something it might be with him and no one else.

Yuxuan's back hits the wall with a soft thud, his eyes widening slightly at my bold move. He can feel the heat radiating off my body as i press against him, and his heart skips a beat. The other Alphas in the room watch with a mix of jealousy and awe, some of them taking a step back as if they sense the dangerous tension in the air.

He swallows hard, his breath hitching as he looks down at me. My proximity is driving him wild, and he can smell my pheromones starting to thicken with arousal.

"Hua..." He said, his voice low and rough with desire.

I put both my hands on each side of his head, on the wall. Then I put my finger on his lips.

"Shhhhh!" I say a smirk even more darker than before playing on my lips.

Yuxuan's breath hitches again as i silence him with a finger on his lips. His body tenses up, his muscles coiling like a spring as he struggles to control himself. The smirk on my lips is almost predatory, sending shivers of excitement and fear down his spine. He can feel his instincts warring within him - the desire in him, right now, battling with the urge to submit to my dominant display.

He looks up at me, his eyes darkened with need and submission. He wants to speak, to say something witty or flirtatious in response, but he finds himself unable to do anything but obey my silent command. He swallows again, his hands clenching into fists at his sides as he fights back a low growl of desire.

"What wanna say something mh?" I say as I retrieve my finger from his lips.