Starting Over.

#14 Going on a bender

Damon’s POV.

“Whatever.” Was all I said before I hurried out of her bedroom and out the front door slamming it behind me, I rushed down the stairs and hopped on my bike, turning on the engine and speeding of. In no time I was home and I slammed the door close behind me. 

“f**k!” I exclaimed. I’m such an i***t! She was right I had no right bringing up what happened back then.. I don’t know what the hell came over me, we were having a really good afternoon and evening, talking, flirting and fucking.. but when I saw Malia getting ready and looking good to go out some other guys I got angry.. we’ve been hanging out a lot over the past week by hanging out I of course mean hooking up. And in my mind I feel like I have some kind of claim on her.. I know that’s not fair.

We agreed to be honest, and I’m still hooking up with other woman, so I’m a total hypocrite I know! But I just don’t like the thought of any other guy touching her, and I was sure that those fuckers from her gym wouldn’t hesitate to touch her.. just thought bringing back the anger. 

Shit I need a drink all this s**t is doing my head in. I decided to go down to the bar. 

After a couple of beers and some shots I took out my phone and found Malia under my contacts giving her a call I really should apologize for being an out on line ass... voicemail.. I decided to sent her a text. 

Damon: baby girl I’m sorry for being a first class asshole. Plz call me. Xx. 

I waited a while staring at my phone... no reply. Ordering another beer and two shots. The bar was packed tonight so I sat at the bar, easy access to the liquor, also Theo is working the bar, so I don’t look as pathetic being here alone. All bar goers were taking care of for the moment Theo came up to me. 

“Dude, what the got into you? You look like crap.” He said. 

“Wow thanks..” I said sarcastically.. “Malia, that’s what happened.” I added no point in lying to him. 

“What happened? You guys get in a fight or something?” He asked with a look of sympathy in his eyes, surely that’s for her and not me.. and he’d be right, I’m the one in the wrong here. 

“I f****d up, I got possessive and said some s**t I shouldn’t have.” I answered, “brought up the whole Trent thing.. and before you rip my head off, I know I’m an asshole.” I added beating him to it. He looked at me stern for a moment before exhaling a sigh.. 

“You better fix that s**t Damon, I told you not to hurt her.. she might seem like she’s moved on, but that sort of s**t stays with you, you know?” He said pointing out the obvious.. 

“I know dude, I tried calling her.. she won’t pick up.” I said shrugging. 

“Try harder.. I have to get back to work.. fix this.” He said turning away to tend to the thirsty customers. 

I looked at my phone again, still nothing from Malia. I tried calling again.. no answer, voicemail once again.. I downed my shots and took a big swig of my beer.

I decided to sent one more text. 

Damon: Malia! Come on.. this is getting ridiculous.. stop ignoring me.. xx. 

Could this night be any badder? 

To answer that question the answer is yes! I see Diana walk up to where I’m sitting.. s**t I haven’t returned any of her texts since the night I cancelled on her to go see Malia, and honestly I’ve been enjoying myself with almost every night since, so any other girls have been put on hold. 

“Hey stranger. I thought you died or something.” She said clearly trying to hide the fact that she was mad.. not doing a very good job. 

“Hi Diana.. no not dead, just busy.” I said not really caring, I’m not in the mood for her neediness right now.. I’ve seen her a few times she’s good in the sack, but needy as f**k, every time I see her, she thinks she can make me her boyfriend, and that is NOT happening, not now not ever.. not with her... 

“Come on handsome, I can make you feel better.” She said batting her eyelashes at me.. I could feel someone watching me, I looked up seeing Theo looking at us clearly not amused.. he probably thinks that I’m gonna leave with Diana and not fixing things with Malia.. but I have to.. fix it I mean, it’s really getting to me that she’s ignoring me.. and I probably have to admit that I don’t wanna loose her.. 

“I bet that you think you can..” I sighed, “or maybe you should get a grip and realize that this.. us.. is not happening.. stop being so desperate going after a guy that has been ignoring you for a week..” I added.. she looked shocked and hurt by my words.. ok maybe that was taking it too far.. I didn’t need to be mean.. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair, I really am an asshole huh?

“Look I’m sorry ok? That wasn’t fair of me..  I’m in a bad s**t mood right now.. But honey you should go find someone worth your while, that’s not me.. somebody who appreciate you for you and not for what you can do for or to them.. I really hope you find that.. you are a beautiful and smart woman, any guy would be lucky to be with you.” I said putting my hand on her shoulder and giving her as much of a smile as I could muster at the moment. She looked at me in silence for a moment before she returned with a smile. 

“Bye Damon.. I really hope you find what you are looking for.. whatever that is.” She said and then she walked off. If I didn’t feel like an asshole already, I would have now.. 

I need more shots. 

“Damon go home! You are drunk of your ass.” Theo said politely showing me to the door.. apparently I was disturbing the other costumers by being a depressed drunk.. I stumbled out on the pavement on my way home, but decided I should give Malia a last call.. and as predicted it went to voicemail, deciding to leave a message this time.. 

“Ma-Malia! You need to stop ignoring me. I’m an idiot.. I can’t apologize if you dodge my calls and won’t get back to me.. I know your out with those asshole, and you’re probably too distracted to even giving me a second thought, but... but.. Argh! I can’t stand the thought of.... never mind!.... you know what? I’m coming over.. I need to see you..” I rambled out heading in the other direction, going to hers.. 

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I’ve pushed the button for her apartment on the intercom so many times now, that I’m sure she’s not home yet.. I should probably just go home, but I need to see her, so I’m just gonna wait.

It didn’t take long before a cab rolled up and Malia got out followed by some creepy dude, ok he might not be creepy, either way I don’t like him.. 

I watched as she turned around to face him they were talking.. now I was feeling kind of creepy standing here watching her.

The guy got closer to her and next thing they were kissing.. WTF! So here I am feeling like a total d**k for hurting her, and then she is just kissing some f*****g guy!! 

The guy let her go and got back in the cab driving off. I went forward to where Malia is. She turned and looked genuinely shocked to see me..

“S..So he’s the reason you have been ignoring me all night!” I said more as a statement than a question really, I’m angry.. but honestly I’m probably jealous. I f*****g hate this feeling. The girls I’m usually with, have s*x with others and I don’t mind, that just means that they know it’s only sex.. but not with Malia, I don’t want her to be with anybody else.. 

“What are you even doing here Damon.” She said annoyed. “Are you drunk?” She added probably noticing that I’m swaying a little as i’m standing. 

“That’s not the point, don’t try and change the subject.. I came here to apologize... and then I find you with another guy.” I said sternly “I thought you were better than that.” I added before I could stop myself.. I have no right saying that to her, but I’m angry OK? I see anger just the same flash in her eyes. 

“Who the f**k do you think you are, Damon? You are not my boyfriend.. you have no right judging me..” she said between clench teeth. I f****d it up even more.. how is that even possible..