Chapter 20
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"Puck!!" I call him.
Puck shut his locker and turn his way avoiding me. It's been two days he mad at me and give me his silent treatment.
I stop his way and standing in front of him. "I'm sorry."
"I have a class now." He simply said and walk away.
"Since when you attend the class?" I raise my eyebrows and stop him.
"Since I'm disappointed with you." Puck says and walks off.
I'm still standing in the hallways and looking at him disappeared. I can accept when someone says he mad at me but when it turns into disappointed. It really hurts me and make me sad.
"You okay?" Finn standing in front of me.
"Yeah." I simply nod and walk away.
Finn catches my hand and stops me. "You're not. Is Puck still mad at you?"
I nod slowly and let my head down. "He doesnt even let me talk."
"I will talk to him." Finn suddenly hug me.
I push his body away slowly. "I dont want to make everything getting worse."
"Why dont you just leave him?"
"Finn, I cant. I love Puck." I shake my head.
"Then what about me?" Finn hold my sleeve.
I dont answer him and let my head down. I dont know what to answer his question. It's so complicated now and I dont even know what to do.
"I will talk to Puck and make him understand. I'm sorry." Finn says to me and walk off.
I cant leave Puck and I dont wanna leave him but I miss Finn. I know this is too selfish, like really selfish. What kind of girl I am huh?
Puck's POV
"Dude, we need to talk." Finn stops my way.
"About what?" I raise my eyebrows.
"Please forgive Madison. I will try my best to stay away from her if you wanna forgive her. Please. It was accidentally and I was the one who kissed her first."
"You know that I did my best to be a good guy for her? And look at what you both done to me!" I glare at him and walk away.
Honestly, I'm tired to ignore her like this. I miss her and I miss her kisses but these things really make me sick.
"What's up Puckerman's girlfriend?" Karofsky and Azimio laughs then throw a blueberry slushies to Madison's face.
"Hey you i***t gay!" I yell and come to them.
"Trying to defending your girlfriend, Puck?" Karofsky mocked at me and laughs.
We might fighted and I ignore her but I love her and I wont let anyone hurt her. I throw up my fist and about to punch them until Madison catches my hand.
"Dont!" Madison shake her head.
Karofsky and Azimio keep laughing until they both walks off. I look around and the hallways in full of crowded.
"What are you guys looking at? Go away!" I yell at them. The crowded disappeared. I open my varsity jacket and place it on her shoulder. "I'll help you to clean up." I said to her and bring her away from the crowded.
I know that she is crying. I though she will be the only one member of glee club who wont get slushie but today they got her.
I put my hand around her shoulder and I bring her to the empty boys locker room and glad it's empty.
"I'm sorry." She's sobbing with her head down.
"Why are you so stupid? I was about to punch them and why dont you let me?" I ask as I clean her face.
"I dont want you to get into trouble anymore, Puck!"
"But they hurt you!" I protest. She start crying again. I let out a sigh and pull her body closer to be and hug her. "Dont cry. I'm here, baby. I was stupid to ignore you."
"You forgive me, now?" She asks me.
I nod. "I cant live without your sexy lips." I smirk at her.
"Disgusting." She laughs. "I never know that this blueberry slushie taste good."
"And this is my favorite one. I really wanna lick all of your face." I smirk at her and kiss her lips with the taste of blueberry slushies.
"You really love blueberry huh?" She raise her eyebrows.
"I love your lips with blueberry slushied." I smirk at her.
"Well, I'm not supposed to be here actually so get out." She takes my hand.
"Babe, we can make out here since this room is empty." I smirk at her.
"Your place after school." She simply said and walk lead me.
"Wow I cant wait for that." I laugh.
"I'm happy you're not mad at me anymore." She smiles at me and hold my elbow.
"Disgusting." I roll my eyes.
"I hate you."
"You wanna know the truth? I hate you more."
"Fine!"
"Fine!"
"Puck!" She yells.
"Haha just kidding." I laugh. "Come on, walk you to the class." I said to her and take her hand.
Finn's POV
I saw Madison and Puck walk in the hallways together and smiling at each other. When I'm here is like a wind that they didnt notice.
Finn:
I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer
Than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been runnin' round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find
And ever as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer
Than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars forever
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
Even if I have to crawl upon your floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore
Ooh-ohh, ooh-ohh
"Wow, Finn. That was incredible." Mr. Schue clapping with the others following exclude Madison.
She look at me with her guilty eyes. But I already promise that I will try my best to stay away from her and just waiting for her back.
I sit down in the front seat until and turn my face at her who keep starring at me. I dont know whether I should smile or give her a sad look so I just half-smiled at her and she half-smiled back at me.
Madison's POV
Finn dedicated a song for me? Dont run away, Madison. Finn is only expressing himself and this song is really popular. Oh come on.
I turn my face at him and looking at him until he turn his face at me and half-smiled at me so I did the same things to him.
This Sunday, his mom and Kurt's dad will getting married and I will be the bridesmaid. I wanna refuse but I cant because Carole is like my second mom.
"Sing!" Mr. Schue says as he wrotes the words sing on the white board. "For this week assignment all of you have to sing a song with the word sing inside of the song." Mr. Schue says.
"Mr. Schue, it's kind hard to find a song with sing word inside." Kurt raise his hand.
"Not really hard if you wanna work hard, Kurt." Mr. Schue says. "And the best song will be our setlist for regionals."
"Wow cool." Puck says.
"Alright starting tomorrow I want you to sing a song with sing as the assignment." Mr. Schue says.
"Dont forget this Sunday, my dad and Finn's mom will get married. You guys have to come and see me and Madison as the bridesmaid." Kurt stands up and grins at us.
"Why you and Madison?" Mercedes frowns.
"That's Carole order since I will be the who organize the wedding." Kurt proudly says.
"You didnt tell me." Puck whisper from my back.
"How the hell I can tell you when you ignore me?" I answered.
The bell rings.
"Dont forget starting tomorrow guys." Mr. Schue says.
I take my bagpack and went out from the choir room.
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One more day and this week will end up and I cant wait for that. I dont know why but now school days is not my favorite thing since Puck and Finn make me confuse.
My mom told me that we cant love two person at the same time and we have to choose one of them and by this I guess I should end up my relationship with Puck because I dont wanna hurt him.
I mean, I love Puck and Finn's question is hangin around my head 'What about me?' I cant lie I love Finn too. Oh God, this is so complicated.
Nowadays I rarely see Finn and Puck together because they fight a lot because of me but after this I will make their friendship get back.
"Okay so who wanna show what you've got today?" Mr. Schue asks.
"Can I?" I raise my hand.
"Sure, Madison." Mr. Schue says then sit down in the back seat.
"Alright so this is a song from My Chemical Romance. Yeah I love them, it's called SING!" I smile to the others.
"I know that song." Finn suddenly says.
"Okay sing with me." I said and nodded to the band.
Madison:
Sing it out
Boy, you've got to see what tomorrow brings
Finn:
Sing it out
Girl, you've got to be what tomorrow needs
Madison:
For every time that they want to count you out
Finn:
And use your voice (Madison: Uhhh!)
Every single time
Finn and Madison:
You open up your mouth
Finn and Madison with New Directions:
Sing it for the boys
Sing it for the girls; Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it 'til you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world, sing it for the world
Madison:
Aaaah
Finn and Madison:
Sing it out!
Finn:
Boy they're gonna sell what tomorrow means
Madison:
Oohuh
Finn and Madison:
Sing it out!
Madison:
Boy before they kill what tomorrow brings
Finn:
You've got to, make a choice if the music drowns you out (Madison: Music drowns you out)
And raise your voice every single time
They
Finn with New Directions:
Try and shut your mouth
Finn and Madison with New Directions:
Sing it for the boys
Sing it for the girls; Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it 'til you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world, sing it for the world
Madison:
Hooo-ho
Madison with New Directions:
Cleaned-up, corporation progress
Dying in the process
Children that can talk about it
Living on the webways,
People moving sideways
Sell it ‘til your last days
Buy yourself the motivation
Generation nothing, nothing but a dead scene
Product of a white dream
I am not the singer that you wanted, but a dancer
I refuse to answer, talk about the past, sir
Wrote it for the ones who want to get away
Finn:
Keep running!
Finn and Madison with New Directions:
Sing it for the boys
Sing it for the girls; Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it 'til you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world, sing it for the world
Madison:
We’ve got to see what tomorrow brings
Finn and Madison with New Directions:
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world
Madison:
Boy you've got to be what tomorrow needs
Finn and Madison with New Directions:
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world
We ended up our song with clapping and cheering. Finn and I hi-five and hugging at each other.
"Mr. Schue this song is cool for regionals." Rachel says excitedly.
"Yeah totally." Mercedes nods as agree.
"Alright we got one song for regionals is this song! Thank to Madison and Finn." Mr. Schue chuckles.
Finn and I just giggle and hi-five at each other. Until I turn my face at Puck and he half-smile at us. I cant do this anymore. I need to fix everything.
The bell rings.
"Come on, girls we have cheerio." I said to Quinn, Santana, and Brittany then walk off with my bagpack.
"You seems so weird today." Santana frowns at me.
"Like what?" I raise my eyebrows.
"You cheating with Finn?" Santana asks.
"Oh damn! No! I'm not. We are not." I shake my head.
"But you seem avoid Puck today." Santana says.
"I didnt." I shake my head again.
"It's impossible for a girl like Madison cheating. And if she was cheating with Finn. She wouldnt avoid Puck." Quinn says.
"Exactly." I nod as agree.
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After Cheerio Practice
"You seems weird, Mad." Quinn says to me as we walk together.
"I want to break up with Puck." I sigh.
"Wait what? Did he cheat behind your back or something?" Quinn frowns at me.
I shake my head. "He didnt but I want to set him free besides you cant love two person at the same time so I think this is the best choice."
"Then you will get back together with Finn?" Quinn raises her eyebrows.
"No. I want to be single lady and I want to do anything I want so no one of them getting hurt."
"You hurt yourself."
"This is the best choice that I can do, Q." I sigh.
"No matter what you do and what you choose, I'll support that no matter what." Quinn smiles at me.
"You're the best." I smile back at her. "So how is you and Rachel?" I giggle.
"There is nothing between us." Quinn simply said.
"You guys have each other eyes during the glee club, I can see that." I chuckle.
"Haha Puck is already waiting for you there. Good luck!" Quinn smiles at me and walk off.
"See you!" I wave her a goodbye and turn my way.
I see Puck is standing in front of my locker with his bag so I come over to him.
"For how long you've been waiting for me?" I ask him.
"About ten minutes. I know you've been gossip about something with Quinn and your girls." Puck says as we walk together.
"Yeah about Brittany and Artie how come they can be close." I said and put my hand into my cheerios jacket pocket.
"Wow Artie can get into cheerios? That's cool." Puck says.
"Yeah I know that." I giggle.
"You seems not okay. Is there something wrong?" Puck turn his face at me and put his hand around my shoulder.
"I'm fine." I smile at him.
God, help me. I dont know how to say this to him. But if I dont tell him I will feel more guilty and it will hurt them more.
We then enter his car. Puck start driving and I'm still pretend like everything is okay. I dont know I should cry or not. I dont know he will be happy after this or not. I just hope that he wont do stupid things.
Fifteen minutes and we finally arrived in front of my house. I keep sit down on the passenger seat and didnt move or anything.
"Babe, you okay?" Puck asks me.
I turn my face at him and let out a sigh. "I set you free. We made this but I dont think that I just ruined your friendship with Finn and nowadays I barely see you and Finn together and I dont want to break your friendship with him."
"Wait, you breaking up with me? Are you insane?" Puck frowns at me.
I take his hand and hold his hand. "Puck, I love you but I just cant.."
"Because you also love Finn, right?"
I dont answer him but I turn my head down. I dont know what to say to him. I cant deny that I love him and I love Finn.
"Answer me, Mad."
"I just cant. I'm sick seeing you and Finn fight like everyday then glare at each other. I set you free so you can flirt with any of those cheerios or hot girls in school without worry about me. Puck, I did this because I dont wanna hurt you both."
"You cheating with Finn?" Puck frowns at me.
"Of course not. Puck, please listen to me. I love you so much. I did this because I dont wanna hurt you anymore." I cup his cheeks.
"You plan to get back together with Finn after this?"
I shake my head. "I dont want to date you nor Finn. I dont want to hurt both of you. Please I love you so much, Puck. You still can love me, we can still flirt or anything but I dont have any rights to mad at you when you flirt or date someone else. That's the different."
"You know that I really love you, right? I might never say it before but now I said to you." Puck says to me.
I half smiled at him and push my face closer to him and kisses him softly with cupping his cheek and he kisses me back. We pull our lips each other and he turn his face away and sighs.
"I'm sorry. I love you so much." I said to him and went out from his car.
I enter my house and see Puck start drive away. It might be hurt for me and him but this is the best choice so no one of them get hurt and fight because of me anymore.
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