Break the Distance

Chapter 53

Wednesday 19th of October, 2016

Wellington, New Zealand

Richelle Smith

I think I did a pretty good job getting through already 3 days. Luckily today was a short day, but it was still a day. Right now Katie and I are in the mall. She needs a dress for an upcoming wedding she has to go to, and I offered to go with her to find one.

We're in this shop were they've so many beautiful dresses. I wish I had the money to buy a dress. Not for a special occasion, just to put on and feel pretty in. Is that weird?

Anyways, I'm waiting for Katie who's putting on another dress. She already tried at least 20 dresses, but she keeps seeing other pretty ones. She's really particular on her clothes, so it makes it hard to choose. Honestly I don't blame her, those dresses are all beautiful.

Katie walks out of a change room with a short dark blue dress on. It's a beautiful dress and it looks amazing on Katie. She looks happy in the mirror. "It's beautiful," she says. "I like this one better than all the others," I say as Katie turns around.

"Then I think this is the dress I'm going to wear to my nephews wedding," she says excited. After a while of staring happily at herself in the mirror, she Suddenly walks to a few dresses and picks a red one. "I thought you were going for the dark blue one," I laugh. "Yes I am," Katie says, she doesn't laugh. I look confused. "So?" I say.

"Here," she says presses the red dress in my hands. "What?" I say still super confused. "Try it on," Katie says. "Why would I?" I say. Katie knows I don't have the money to buy a dress, why is she making me putting it on.

"Please," Katie begs, "just for fun."

Honestly I like the idea of putting the dress on. It's really nice dress and it will be nice to feel pretty, even though it will be short.

"Okay," I say and walk into one of the change rooms.

I don't want to admit that I like the dress. I put it on and it looks so amazing. With a smile plastered on my face I walk out of the change room to Katie. "You look amazing!" she says. My smile widens even though I didn't think that was possible. I look at myself in the mirror and turn around a few times.

Right now I feel so pretty. I haven't felt like this in a long time, and it feels great.

"You HAVE to buy it!" Katie says excited. "No," I say shaking my head a little. My smile disappears as snow in the sun and I walk back to the change room. "What," Katie says following me into the change room. "Katie you know I don't have the money," I say looking at her.

"You can borrow some of mine," she offers. "No thanks," I say, "I won't be able to pay you back."

Katie sighs. "But you've to wear something nice when you meet Noah," she says. I roll my eyes to her. "Don't start about Noah again please," I say, "I'm trying to get over him." "No no," Katie says worried grabbing my shoulders, "don't get over him! I found a way for you to meet him."

I sigh again. I'm lost. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I was trying to get over him, but it seems like Katie doesn't want me to get over him which is really, really confusing me.

"Katie can I please change back into my own clothes," I say, "and then please explain what the hell you're talking about." Katie agrees a little disappointed and walks out of the change room. I change back in my normal clothes and after that I walk out of the change room too.

Katie paid for her dress in the meantime, so we walk out of the store to a little café where we sit down to drink something. After we both ordered something to drink Katie starts to explain. "I've a plan," she says excited, "my little sisters have a tns fanpage, they know people from all around the world."

"So?" I say not knowing where this possibly can be going. Where is this going? "So what if we can fix a ticket for you for a show in the UK," Katie says and looks hopeful at me. "No," I say without hesitating, "let's not do that."

"What?" Katie says confused, "we can fix a ticket for you and we can fix that you can stay at someone's house." "It's a bad idea," I say, "plane tickets are freaking expensive, I've to go to school-" "Please," Katie cuts me off, "you have to meet him."

"And what if I go to a show in England," I say by now slightly freaking out, "what then? He's on tour, I maybe see him for an hour and then he has to keep going. And besides, I'm starting to think you want me to meet him more than I do myself."

Katie sighs. "Listen," she says, "I'm your best friend, and you're not doing the right thing in this situation. You've to fight for what you want. I don't understand why you don't understand. You've always been such a big inspiration for me. You never give up, even when things are complicated, confusing land hard. You never gave up before, why are you going to give up now? It's just money, if your dad had a job earlier, you would've had enough money by yourself."

I sigh. "I just don't think it's a smart move," I say. "I won't be able to pay you back any time soon." "I don't want any money back," Katie says, "see it as an early birthday present. Please think about it."

I think for a while. Thinking about it is the least I can do. I really appreciate Katie's help, but I'm afraid. Bad luck follows me everywhere, so something will probably go wrong and I don't want to know what can go wrong.

"Okay," I say and sigh, "I'll think about it."

Katie claps excited in her hands. "Great," she says, "please make the right decision."

I laugh in myself. What is the right decision? Both decisions seem the wrong ones right now.