BLACK SUN

What makes life livable? What reasons did man have for living? Some live for success, some live for love, and some enjoy the sweet pleasure of life. What about those who don't want to live? Every day, thousands of children and thousands of people were begging God to die, actually committing suicide sounded more logical, but because of the fear of God, most people did not dare to kill themselves. Others did not dare, and were afraid to do so. Actually, there were many reasons to live, but in order to live, it was necessary to be happy. In fact, everyone in the world was invisibly connected to each other, we were all in a huge cycle. It might sound like an exaggeration, but when you think about it, it all made a lot more sense. To give the simplest example, imagine a tiny baby, a baby left without love by his family, in fact, the reason why his family leaves him without love is because of the people around him, their boss or most often growing up in a loveless family. Like most, I grew up in a loveless family, my life was a mess. Due to my father's profession, we had lived abroad with foreign people that I did not know at all, for years, we were moving to a new country when I said that I made friends and got used to someone. Actually, this was also a great opportunity for me, I had friends in many parts of the world, I had a good command of many cultures and cuisine, and I knew many foreign languages ​​academically. My mother was a famous musician, she named me. In fact, he ended his music career at a very young age, gave more value to painting and was able to open himself to the world thanks to my father. Helen Zorlu was one of the world's foremost painters. I also had a twin, Echo.. he was literally everything to me, we grew up in that little world we built for ourselves apart from our mother and father. We had no one but each other, except for my grandfather, grandmother and uncles. Although Echo was a protective and loving child, she was very fond of my mother and father, of course, she couldn't even compare me to them. That's why, instead of following her own dreams, she studied Politics in a department she never wanted, with the urging of my father and mother, and after graduating from her department, she entered Law School at my mother's request. In his dreams, he always had a medical school, every time he expressed this wish, my parents opposed him and blocked him with excuses like 'You can't touch the dirty bodies of ridiculous people, are you going to deal with blood, it's sickening'. I hated Yankı's cruelty towards my mother and father. On the contrary, I was a headstrong and self-righteous type like my grandfather. I didn't care about my parents, I came to Turkey with my grandfather and lied to them by saying that I was going to go to law school. Unlike Yankı, I didn't care about them and chose a profession where the two of them would faint and cause a stir when they heard it. I went after my grandfather and uncles and entered the Military Academy, my parents did not even know about this because they did not care about us. I hated to look like my mom and dad, although Yankı and I were twins, we didn't look alike. With my blonde hair and blue eyes, I was similar to my mother, while Yankı was similar to my father with his auburn hair and hazel eyes, the only similarity we had was our full lips and eyes. Although my idea of ​​becoming a soldier surprised my grandfather and uncles and Yankı in the first place, they all respected my idea. I was physically capable, we stayed with my grandfather in the summer and he used to train us as commandos during that time. He would say that I have to defend myself especially because I am a woman and he would fall on me more. It would not be possible for every brave person to receive education from the cloud. Echo my grandparents were very helpful in keeping this little secret of mine, after graduating I told my mom and dad that I would devote myself to painting and travel the world. Of course, they did not object because they liked the fact that their daughters were cultured and intellectual. Even though my grandparents and uncles were against me on this issue, they were as confident as their names that I would do whatever I set my mind to. My grandfather always put obstacles in front of me so that I wouldn't risk my life and succeed with my own effort, but I passed all those trainings and came first. Now I was going to my post at the border with a burgundy beret. A new team... a new city... new people. Being used to this situation was a great advantage for me, I think, so I proceeded to the man waiting for me at the airport. It took about 17-18 hours to get here by car and it was a waste of time for me. Time was an important concept for me and I liked to use it well, I had my car brought here with a transportation company. It was too luxurious a vehicle for the city, but that was the only way I could break Cloud's stubbornness, the armored vehicle was supposed to protect me. I took the key from the man's hand and gave a small nod and headed to my car, too excited for the first day. I was no longer a regular officer, I was an officer in the special forces. I was too hungry, I still had a few hours to finish the housework.Before I arrived, the flat I would stay in was arranged by the headquarters, the renovation and project preparations in the house were started weeks ago and my belongings were placed. As I said... time was an important concept, I had to surrender to unity as soon as I had enough. I entered a small but cute cafe in the city center near the headquarters, it was warm inside. I went to a table near the window at the back and sat down, put my bag aside and put my leather jacket aside. My gun was in my bag, I ordered mixed toast and tea to the waiter who came to me and started to look around. This place looked like a small town, most of the people were closed and tan skinned, I had seen many nationalities in my life, I had met many people, I had made many friends. But none of them were like the ones I saw here, we housed many nationalities together. For example, it was as if the Black Sea region and the eastern region symbolized completely different nations.Three men, obviously not belonging to this land, were walking in my direction, one of them was dealing with the big man with brown hair, and the brunette one at the back was looking at something on his phone. He was more serious and frowning than the others, and when they sat at the table across from me, he took his brown eyes from his friend and looked at me. Her smile was frozen and she was looking at me with a crooked smile, I took my eyes off her and looked at the waitress who came up to me and waited for her to put her hands on the table. "Bon Appetit Sir." I nodded my head and fed him, well, I could hear the men at my cross table talking among themselves, but I couldn't understand. The eyes of the three of them were on me, as I was about to finish my tea and get up after I finished my toast, the brown haired boy came up to me and looked at me as if asking for permission. "Can I sit?" I looked at him with a slight frown, noticing the gun in his waistband. So he was also a soldier, and when I took my eyes off him and looked at his friends, they were both looking at us. The moldy one was grinning, while the dark-haired one looked very serious. "Sure, I was getting up too." I put on my jacket and took my bag. The boy was staring at me in amazement, while the other of his friends was laughing nasty, I noticed two 100 liras on the table. Apparently they made a bet. "No.. you misunderstood, I asked to meet you." I laughed sarcastically and turned back to the boy. "You are a soldier." I said while waiting for him to approve me, he put his hand on the back of his neck and grinned and proudly nodded to me. "Commissioned Officer Giray Kırca." He held out his hand to me, and I looked at him again as he mocked at his outstretched hand. "Lieutenant Lyre Challenging." I said in a serious tone, as his eyes widened with panic, he immediately turned to attention and looked at me shyly. "Commander.. I'm sorry, you don't . . . ” the others came to join us, the surprise on their faces made me laugh. "Be honest.. what did you see me like that?" the dark-haired one and the other one had passed to the ready just like him. “Beautiful and delicate.. I'm sorry, sir, I…” I laughed and touched his shoulder. "It's okay, you don't know me and we're in civilian life." relieved a little, I turned to the others. "Relax please, I don't like formality in civilian life." They both smiled slightly. "Excuse me, Commander, he's a little tactless. Lieutenant Hakan Ilgaz." I nodded at him with a slight smile, and the built one looked at me a little hesitantly. "Lieutenant Mert Yilmaz." I nodded to him and pointed to the coins on the table. "Now that you have won the claim, you will pay the bill, gentlemen. And take all the socks from the girl in the back alley with the change. After all, we also made a contribution." They all smiled and nodded at me. "Commander.. I think you're going to the headquarters, we'll let you go if you want. You won't be able to find a taxi in this cold weather." Giray looked like he was trying to make amends, I shook my head. "Thanks for the thought, Giray, but I had my car brought, see you at headquarters." They all nodded to me and went back to their tables. They were making fun of Hakan and Mert Giray, when I left the cafe, the cold air hit my face. I walked towards my car with fast steps, got in my car and drove to the headquarters, I did not neglect to call my grandfather on the way. His mind was always on me, if he could, he would return to the profession and stay on my head. I had barely persuaded my uncles to follow me anyway, so I couldn't deal with my grandfather. I parked my car in the headquarters' parking lot, got out of the car, and made my way to the colonel's room, where the cold gloomy air had taken hold of it even more.Soldiers around me were glaring at me, seeing women in the military was like finding water in the desert. I was used to this situation by now, so I walked towards Colonel Yiğit Türkmen's room without paying much attention to the looks on me. There was the meeting room and the colonel's room on this floor, there was also a soldier on the floor, the loud voice echoing in the corridor was coming from the colonel's room. I stood in front of the colonel's room, my brows slightly furrowed, and someone was fighting insid. "Is this a piece of cake, Commander? They sent her just to entertain a little girl, should I endanger the operation and my soldiers?" I leaned against the wall and crossed my legs, my brows slightly furrowed, my boots not too thick. My height was 1.75, my legs were long and I didn't like to wear heels. Of course, I had to wear it while attending my mother's and father's invitations just so as not to upset Yankı. "The girl you call a girl, Kara, who has completed her education with degrees, put your prejudices aside. The special forces did not send her here for nothing, stop questioning the decisions of your bases." they were talking about me, my brows furrowing when the door suddenly opened. A really handsome man, 1.90 m tall, with black hair, green eyes, and really... I fixed my posture and did not take my eyes off him stubbornly, I knew that the valiant colonel was old. This man was the team commander who definitely underestimated me, and he did not take his eyes off me as stubbornly as I did.All these years, I had come here by scraping with my nails, my grandfather and uncles pulled my nails one by one and tried to prevent me, but I never gave up and became more ambitious. If I am here today, it is because of my own efforts, it was a heavy accusation that he said I came here with a torpedo. The middle-aged man behind the man smiled slightly when he saw me. "Lieutenant Lyre Challenging." The man who was looking at me at the door stepped aside and Yiğit allowed me to see the colonel more clearly. I got ready and said hello. "You command, sir." The man next to me was laughing sarcastically, while my nervousness increased even more, Yigit colonel gave a sign with his hand for me to get comfortable. "I was waiting for you too, meet your team commander. First Lieutenant Bora Çelebi." Putting my scowl on my face again, I turned slightly to him and nodded to him, shaking his head angrily, Yigit looked at the colonel. "You are the same in rank, but you are in command, under his command." I didn't say anything even though it pissed me off, the ego pile seemed to exclude me just because I was a woman. Because he saw me as a weak link, Bora was trying to intimidate me as the lieutenant's mocking grin widened. "You've settled into your house, and the renovations have been completed. Frankly, I wasn't expecting this much." said the valiant colonel, it was my turn to chuckle. Bora, I looked at the first lieutenant, implying. "Because I'm staying for a long time..." I turned to the valiant colonel again. "..I wanted everything to be perfect, sir." he laughed like me and Bora looked at the first lieutenant. "I like your attitude, you're determined and confident." The man next to me looked at me as he tensed in anger. "Don't be so sure, first lieutenant, you'll see after 2 days you'll run away from here without looking back. It'll be a lot of effort." While clenching my fist, Bora turned to the first lieutenant. "I have never run away, my first lieutenant, running away is the work of cowards. It is not in my vocabulary. He turned to me and bent slightly. "We'll see, first lieutenant, this is not just a playground. No one will hold your hand and save you, and someone's orders will not save you when you are in trouble. This is the field and only I give the orders here." While he was about to take a step towards him, Yigit's cough interrupted this friction between us. I would make him regret what he said. "The lyre has had it harder than any of you Bora, stop underestimating him." Putting his hand in his pocket, he nodded to the colonel and headed for the door. He looked at me as I passed by. "Don't look at him, he's a control freak." I nodded and signed the files that the colonel showed me, Yiğit took me to the rest room after he showed me the headquarters. There were sounds of laughter coming from inside, they were all ready when we opened the door and entered. Bora the first lieutenant and the others were here, the whole team was here. "Comfortable soldier, meet Lir first lieutenant, he's on your team now." they all looked at me, we were already acquainted. Bora's eyes were on me too, and he was looking at me from head to toe. After the Yigit colonel left, Giray looked at me shyly. "Commander, I'm sorry again, I'm not actually that much of a flirtatious person, but friends, fire up..." Hakan and Mert were glaring at Giray. "Damn it, it's okay, they put a gun to my head." Hakan had nudged Mert with his arm. I laughed lightly as Bora sat comfortably in the single chair. "It's okay, relax." they all breathed a sigh of relief, Giray gestured for me to sit on the single seat. "Wouldn't you please, sir?" It seems that Giray seemed like he was going to cringe at me for a while, so I sat on the seat he showed me and leaned back. I was tired, I couldn't sleep since last night... not from excitement or anything. My Dede and Yankı had been eating my head for hours, Hakan Mert and Giray sat side by side. While Hakan was resting his eyes, Giray and Mert were looking at me curiously. "Commander, it's a shame to ask, how did you come here with your delicate appearance? I mean, don't get me wrong, you're beautiful, women like you would be more fond of your beauty, you could easily model something." Bora and Hakan glared at Giray's tactless speech. "Sanane, one of the commander's decisions." he said, warning Mert Giray. Since it was the first day, there was tension from all of them, I looked at him to get the answer from Mr. "Let's say I don't like to run away from the real face of life, money, fame, beauty.. there is no guarantee for these. There is no guarantee for my life, can you guarantee that we will get out tomorrow?" he shook his head. "I don't like to be quiet, I'm here to do my best so that innocent children can sleep peacefully." They were all looking at me seriously. "If you were interested in social responsibility projects then you would do nothing but endanger us all here." I frowned and looked at Bora first lieutenant. I don't know why he was so biased, but his attitude really bothered me. "How are you so sure, lieutenant?" he put his foot on his leg. "Your uncle is your grandfather, colonel, which explains how you got here so easily." I laughed sarcastically. "It's easier to think like that, of course, but you think very straight. Who would want to throw their nephew and grandson into the lap of death? Yes, there are more than one colonel in my family, but this situation brought me difficulties, not ease, I was tested not once, but twice, and now he will deal with these unnecessary prejudices of yours. I'm not. While they were all grinning, Bora's first lieutenant closed his eyes, apparently he was tired like me. "We'll see him tomorrow, first lieutenant, you'd better be at headquarters early tomorrow morning." I rolled my eyes and looked at my watch. "Really, sir.. that armored car.. I mean, if I work for 30 years, I can't buy such a car." said Giray, still unable to keep his mouth shut, and Bora laughed sarcastically. "Were people like you called fearless cowards?" While they were all laughing, I looked at Bora's first lieutenant. "Sorry, you're not the only control freak. No one wants to send their grandchild unsafe into the heart of war, unfortunately I was compelled." Gray smiled excitedly. "Is your grandfather a famous colonel? Because it's really expensive armor." My nerves were getting tense, Bora's sarcastic smile widened. "I think it's a tradition for you, don't be so afraid. We know how to keep secrets." I ran my tongue over my upper teeth and smiled. "I'm very curious about the expression on your face when you regret what you said, first lieutenant, my only job is not to serve in the military." I returned to Giray to answer his question. "I'm selling my paintings." The three of them looked at me in surprise, Bora didn't even break his composure. "How so, sir, is it artifact smuggling or something?" Giray hit Mert on the head. "Don't be ridiculous, she's an artist." Marty laughed sarcastically. "I mean, sir, how much are they going to pay for two or three scribbles? 500 - 600 papers at the most." I mockingly endorsed it. Actually, he was telling the truth in one way, my paintings were between 500 - 600 thousand liras, but most of them went to the needy. The clock was ticking, the housework must have been finished, I got up and took my bag from the sofa. "See you guys tomorrow." While the three of them sent me off, Bora didn't even break his mood, I was going to give the arrogant guy a lesson. It was getting dark as I was walking towards my car, the house was not far from the headquarters, thank God. When I came to a building that was not very old, I got out of the car and looked at the building, it had a small garden in front of it. My flat was on the top floor of a 4-storey building. I took the box with my personal belongings from the trunk of the car and opened the outer door with the key I got from Yigit's commander. When I got to the top floor, the smell of newly made paint made me smile, I liked this smell for some reason. There were two flats on each floor and there was someone living in the opposite house, I guess I should meet my neighbors as soon as possible. Although only soldiers lived in this building, I think it would have been okay if I hadn't met since they were all men. Maybe I could meet the spouses of the married ones, I opened the door of the house, took off my shoes and went inside. When I put the box in my hand aside, I entered the living room just opposite the door, the gray paint of the concrete color dominated every corner of the house. The floors were furnished with light-colored wood laminate flooring, the whole house was predominantly black furniture.The kitchen was combined with the living room, and between the kitchen and the living room was a large island counter, with extension lamps above the island counter. Everything was just as I wanted, there were hall trees stretching my height in front of the window. I loved growing plants at home, I walked out of the living room towards the bedroom, a large full-length mirror glass wardrobe and a large bed. My paintings also took their places in every corner of the house. It wasn't much different from my other house, I didn't like the change and I liked that my house looked the same. There was also a guest room inside, my grandfather, uncle Yankı or others could make a sudden raid and I always had to be prepared for it. I got rid of my clothes and took a hot shower and got rid of the road fatigue a little bit, as the smell of paint started to give me a headache, I added my favorite bergamot essential oil to the diffuser in the living room and started it to disperse the smell. I was not in the mood to cook at the moment, I wanted to sleep and rest as soon as possible. I went to my bedroom and got into my bed and fell into the arms of a peaceful sleep.