MY ABBA & other stories

Call me Ada. I am the first child with 3 younger siblings (2 boys and a girl). You know the description of a perfect child very obedient, hardworking, respectful, you name it. That describes me 99.9%. My mom goes out with full confidence to hustle for daily bread because she knows I will take care of the house and my siblings. Should I say am the rock of the family? Daddy tells me about all his first steps and ask for what I think. Mom complain to me whenever they have little husband and wife drama . I felt very important and that encourage me to do more for my family so that we will be the best family ever heard of. Fast forward to after my secondary school, scored very high in JAMB and gained admission into UNIPORT . I am not the best student but at least I never smelt failure. First semester in Biochemistry department was going great. I tried my best and my results were great so second semester came so fast, I didn't have even have time to know what life outside lectures look like not until I met Amanda. She was full of energy, smart and chaotic but that doesn't change the fact that she was more intelligent than I am. We got along so well and I was trying to reach her vibes. On a Thursday evening we were playing truth or dare and she asked me have you ever partied hard emphasizing on the hard, I proudly said no expecting an applaud but I heard a disgusting jesssssss! from her and she asked then what makes you a university student if you don't create memories and have experience?. I thought, well nothing was wrong with just a night in the crowd and loud music maybe one or two drinks so I told her maybe I will give it a try when I have an opportunity and she said There's a huge party coming up tomorrow by 9pm and I will love us to go together. Now this is it, I wanted to turn it down but I didn't have the nerves to. It was Friday already and I appeared in front of Amanda's door wearing my most expensive dress my mom got me and knocked gently. Amanda opened the door and her face expression left me wondering if I had a masquerade attire on and she said come in so we can find what you will wear. She gave me a pink Sparkling dress, it was so beautiful but my panties will be on camera if my phone fall. Well it's just tonight I thought to myself. The environment was top notch, the loud music was expecting but vibe was way too much for me but I came with a crazy friend so it wasn't hard to blend . I had so much fun and I knew I was missing something but I had no idea that it was this good. So, every Friday I was the first to ask if there's anything for the girls. I still have time to read my books and attend lectures but partying became my skin. On a Sunday morning I felt so sick, I had a high fever and my n*****s were painful so I went to the clinic not because of the fever but because I couldn't endure the pain when changing my bra so the took my blood sample for test and asked me to return on Monday. On Monday morning I was feeling so weak but I managed to get there but after receiving the result i couldn't move my legs, my pregnancy test result showed positive how?. I only party and I don't even have a boyfriend how come am pregnant. I asked for a crosscheck and the lady looked me in the eyes and said "you are pregnant dear congratulations" . I quickly ran to Amanda's room. Amanda my enemies are playing music for me, I said . She looked at me so confused asking what happened and I explained to her and she said why are you so careless so you didn't take any drug or at least use protection that night. I felt ice on my head but I was sweating profusely. What are you saying I asked.. I asked you if you wanted to spice up your fun that night and you said yes then I added the white tablet in your drink in your presence . we had fun then you got so cosy with a rich dude and I gave you some space. My eyes opened wild on their own and my life flashed before me. 4 months later till carrying my cross and refusing to go home to my parent the worst package unfolded, I went for antenatal and my midwife gave a news that made me regret existing. She said " Ma from your lab results I will advice you register in a big hospital because we don't handle Labour for HIV positive patients because of lack of adequate facilities". From the long sentence all I heard was HIV positive WHAT!!!!!! . Why me?. What have I brought upon myself? . What do I tell my people?. I actually stopped attending lectures and have been using my school fees and all the money my parent sent to take care of myself and get few things for my baby but now my world has crashed. What if my child is already a carrier? Help me tell the young ones, if you can't end it well please don't start it