A Night to Regret

Chapter 7: Nervous inside

Chapter 7: Nervous inside

I placed Oasis inside the passenger seat then I entered in the driver seat to start the engine of my car and left the restaurant. My heart was pounding so fast and I felt relieved when we were too far away from that place. I don't know what to feel right now upon seeing Mr. Stefopolous.

What was really happening to me lately?

I breathe in and breathe out. Calm down, Sky. Calm down.

"I don't like him, Mommy."

I looked at Oasis when he spoke. His arms were crossing over his chest and he was pouting his lips. I took a deep breath. He didn't like Mr. Stefopolous.

I didn't get a chance to speak because my system couldn't get over about Mr. Stefopolous. I just focused my attention on my driving. What I was feeling right now made me so uncomfortable.

This was my first time feeling such a tense and anxious towards a guy.

Never in my entire life feeling those emotions. Even though I was still studying in Brazil and had lots of suitors, never ever I had felt that kind of emotion. It was very rare that I felt that.

But what I was feeling towards Mr. Stefopolous was different. It confused me. It scares and excites me at the same time. I felt myself being attracted to that guy. I was confused to myself every time I looked at him, my body heated into something I didn't know. It was like I'm having s*x with him.

I castigated myself. Where on earth did I get the idea of having s*x with him? I kinda felt myself flushing. Why am I thinking like this? Why am I having this kind of open-mindedness?

"Mom!"

I flinched when Oasis screamed. I instantly glanced at him worriedly. "What is it, honey? Is something wrong?"

He wagged his head. "Nothing. You're not responding back at me and you're too focused on your driving. So, I get your attention if you're listening to me, Mommy," he said innocently.

I suppressed a smile at him and reached his head to mess his hair. "Mommy is just thinking something else that's why your Mommy wasn't listening."

"Why? What are you thinking, Mommy?"

"Hmm..." I pretended to think. Should I bring the topic? Perhaps he must know because I promised him that I won't conceal anything about my thoughts. We promised that we won't hide anything.

I focused my attention on my driving. "Ahm... I wonder how did the commotion start, Oasis. Why are you mad at him?" Okay. Lies. But it just came out from my mouth and besides, I want to know Oasis' side about him.

"It just happened that I saw him shouting and saying bad words towards those guys he was accompanied with. Didn't you tell me, Mommy, that is bad to say bad words? So, I became mad at him." Then he creased his forehead.

"Son, I already told you, you shouldn't chime in whenever adults are talking. You're lucky Mr. Stefopolous didn't get mad at you." My heart instantly palpitated briskly when I mentioned'Mr. Stefopolous'. Why do I always feeling that way? I sighed.

"Mommy, do you know him?"

"Yes. I met him at the party we went to last night."

"Do you think he's nice?"

I paused for a moment. I didn't know what to say. Nice? Do I think he's nice? He's gorgeous, that's what all I could say about him.

To take away my uneasiness, I shrugged. "I don't know, honey." I eyed him and he was looking at me innocently. I gently grabbed his head so that I could kiss his hair then I turned my attention back to my driving. "We're here," I announced.

Excitedly, Oasis emerged in my car and went inside the house. I couldn't help but grin. I'm sure he will tell his experience to his grandma and grandpa.

That's how my son does.

He always told different stories, whether it is a happy story, sad story, annoying story, and everything. Many people really liked my son. My son is smart and knows how to appreciate simple things. He was also energetic and rarely getting tired. Though it is because he is still a kid. He loves Math and Science.

Oasis used to surf on the internet and I sometimes caught him studying about Math and Science e.g. solid, liquid, and gas matter, living things and non-living things, and life cycle of the animals and etc.. Also, he loves to draw stick figures and used to show his cute charms. I found him cute whenever he does things like that.

I wonder where he inherited those kinds of attitudes.

Mama told me that when I was in the same age of Oasis, I used to not smile that much. I wasn't enjoying playing outside. I wasn't used to socializing with other kids and elder people. I used to be alone, in short for that thought.

So, I think he inherited those attitudes from his unknown father.

Speaking of his father, I wonder who he is.

My parents told me that only my eyes were the ones Oasis had inherited. And the rest was his father's.

Oasis was once asked me the whereabouts of his father and I didn't know what to answer about it. How could I say that I don't even know him and barely know his face when we both had s*x. I was too drunk at that time. That's why I couldn't even remember his face. That is also why I couldn't give my son a proper answer.

I remembered I once told him when he asked where his father was. I was rendered speechless but I told him what he should expect. "Uhh... Your Daddy is in his work. He is on abroad to work and will go home to unite with us once he finishes his job. He is just earning money for your better future."

With what I said, I managed to convince my son with my white lie.

How I wished I meet him in the near future. But I don't want that to happen. What if's was always in my mind.

What if the father of my child has already a family? I don't want to disturb their peaceful living as a happy family. It's just that what happened was only... accidental?

I don't think of finding who the father of my child was a good idea.

What if he takes my child once I know that he's still single?

I don't want that kind of happening! I never wished something like that to happen!

I rather die than to have him my son.

But I know that this is a small world. There might be a chance that I already met Oasis' father or maybe it wasn't. But whoever he was, I hope he has no plan on taking my son.

I couldn't define what his appearance was. What I knew was he awakened my body, that was all I could feel and remember. Perhaps that guy I had s*x with, he already forgot that he had a one-night stand with me. He had no idea that he got me pregnant. I wished I couldn't meet him and never he will meet my son. If I ever meet him at an unexpected moment, I hope just a mere memory that I remember him. He looks like my son. So maybe I could figure him, I think.

When I entered the house, I met my parents and my son sitting at the settee. My parents were busy listening to my son's story. Father gave me a glance and a smile. I returned it back before I left them for a moment to go upstairs to go to my room. I need to change my clothes right away. I'll change his clothes later. I'm sure that he still wants to be with his grandparents.

I heard my phone beeped. I fished out my phone to check the text I just received. I read the message. I creased my forehead when one of my team members texted.

From: Charlie

Ms. Hitherway, we will meet the CEO & President of C&D Enterprises tomorrow morning at 9:00 a.m. sharp. All our teams.

Huh? What a surprise! It was the first time that the CEO and President of C&D Enterprises want to see us. I replied, 'Okay'. I leaned in the wall. I was confused that I just felt nervous and excited all of a sudden. Just what on earth is happening to you, Sky? You did not drink a cup of coffee then why are you feeling this way?

Why do I have a feeling that tomorrow will have full of surprises?