Trapped in a Fake Relationship (Glee Fanfiction)

Chapter 29

Sam and I are in the Breadstix I guess that the whole of breadstix is booked for this Left Behind Club.

Sam and I are sitting down on the sofa table with the others glee club and some food also drinks.

"I dont understand this." I said to Sam.

"You will understand, baby." Sam says to me.

"Okay, everybody, listen up. Y'all are sinners, and you better get right with God toot sweet, because Jesus just logged onto Orbitz and booked himself a plane ticket back to Earth. See, he's got an awesome dad named God who's throwing him a bitchin' party called Armageddon, where he's gonna get to kick off his sandals dance a little bit, judge the crap out of everybody." Kitty says to us.

"Hi. I have a question." I raise my hand. "What the hell are you talking about?" I frown at her.

"Um, the Rapture. When the end times come, the true believers in Christ will be lifted up, body and soul, into heaven, leaving everyone else to duke it out." Kitty answer.

"What about those of us who are still on the fence about all of this?" A japanese girl asks.

"Who is she?" I ask Sam.

"Dottie Kazatori." Sam says to me.

"My assistant." Tina grins at me.

I just frown and actually I dont know what is this left behind club. I dont understand with this. This is weird and sucks.

"I don't know what there is to be on the fence about, Dottie. I just heard there's an elderly Japanese woman who fell down in the bathroom. She doesn't speak English, and she needs your help." Kitty grins at Dottie.

"I'll be right back." Dottie start running out from the breadstix.

"Okay, everybody, let's go. Move it, move it, move it!" Kitty says to us.

I frown at them and everyone seems like put their clothes and place it on the seat of where they been seat.

"What is this?" I ask Sam.

"Fake Rapture." Sam answer. "Come on." Sam takes my hand.

He walks lead me and went out from that breadstix. I just dont understand with this. This is stupid.

Dottie walks back to Breadstix and scream out with scared face.

"I can't find any Japanese ladies.

Hello? Where did everyone go? Oh, my God. We've been left behind. We've been left behind. We've been left behind!" Dottie scream out and been freaked out.

We then go back enter the breadstix and I saw her been freaking out like seriously and this is not funny at all.

"That's what it feels like to be left behind, Dottie Kazatori." Kitty says to Dottie.

"Kitty! This has gone way too far, okay? Dottie seems pretty damaged." That guy named Jake says.

"Sam, we better go home. This club is stupid and this isnt right for you." I said to Sam and take his hand.

"That's how exactly to be left behind." Sam says.

"Sam, come on. This is stupid and I cant believe that you want to join this." I take Sam's hand and walks lead him to get out from Breadstix.

"That wasnt stupid. I know how it feels to be left behind. When you didnt answer my calls and gone away." Sam says to me.

I just being quiet and half-smiled at him. "I think I better go." I simply said to him and walk off.

Tears slowly fall down to my face as I'm still walking. It was not only hard for him but also hard for me. I have to deal with everything and I'm tired when he blame me like this.

"Babe, babe. I'm sorry okay. I-I dont mean to say that to you." Sam stops my way.

"I'm tired. I wanna go home." I said without looking at him and keep walking.

"I know I shouldnt say that. Just please. Stay with me." Sam takes my hand and makes me stop.

I didnt say anything and let my head down as I'm still crying. Sam pulls my hand and hugs me. He rubs my back and strokes my hair.

"I know that was my fault and it was hard for me too." I'm crying.

"I'm sorry okay. I dont mean to blame you with everything. It's just hard for me." Sam rubs my back.

"I guess, I just wanna be alone right now." I said to Sam and pushes his body away slowly.

"No, I wont let you go home alone. Just please I dont wanna fight with you." Sam takes my hand.

"We dont fight. It's just I want to have a quality time with myself. We still can meet tomorrow." I half-smiled at Sam and pushes his hand away slowly.

"Baby!" Sam called me.

I didnt turn back and keep walking in this cold wind blowing. I put my hand inside my leather jacket pocket and let my head down with tears slowly fall down to my face.

I keep walking on the street from Breadstix to my house. I dont care with this cool wind. The thing is I just wanna go home right now and figure out what best for my relationship with Sam even I dont know what the best thing is.

I'm just afraid that if I have to break up with him. I mean, after all this time only him who can make me laugh and feel better since Puck gone. And he is so much different with Puck.

Yeah when Puck and I were dating, I never cry like this and this is first time I've been crying over a guy. And that guy is Sam.

I keep walking until I get into my home. I wipe my tears away and hangin my coat behind the front door.

"Honey, you already have dinner?" Mom asks me.

"I did." I simply said and walks upstairs.

I walk to the upstairs and get into my room. Finn is busy with his music sheets and I just jump to my bed and cover my face with my pillow as I'm start crying.

"E, you okay?" Finn asks me.

I didnt answer him and still crying. I guess I have to tell Sam everything and end this up. This is hurt for both of us.

"E, what's wrong with you?" Finn sit down on the edge of my bed and move my body.

I wipe my tears and sit down on my bed while hugging my pillow. "I cant stay with acting anymore." I'm sobbing.

"Why?" Finn asks me.

"I guess that long distance relationship wont work for us. We went to The Left Behind Club and Sam said that that was he felt when I left him behind." I'm crying.

"You didnt left behind. You-You just been busy." Finn frowns at me.

"Finn, I didnt tell you the truth. That day when Sam came to New York. I was with Sean. I asked him to fixed my sink until we both kissed and we stop because I heard the door bell ring and Sam came." I'm crying.

"You what? Emily, that's not you. You wont cheat." Finn says.

"I cant deny that Sean was the one who makes me feel comfort and happy to be in New York. He was the one who makes me feel like I'm not alone. I was busy and I also know that Sam has an affair with Brittany, Finn." I'm crying out loud.

"How could you know that?"

"That night. I fighted with Sam. He place his phone right on a side table next to me until his phone buzzing I saw all his chats with Brittany and they were like have flirtationship and kind of comforting each other. I know that those things all my fault and I dont know what to do but I guess we cant be longer together." I'm sobbing.

Finn just look sad at me. He pulls my body closer to him and he suddenly hug me really tight. "I'm here. Everything is gonna be okay. Stop crying. I know how it feels." Finn rubs my back.

I'm still crying in Finn's hug. I know that I cant continue this. If I still continue this. It will hurt either Sam or I. I cant do this.

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I'm sitting down on a table in empty classroom. Yes, I'm in McKinley right now and I want to meet Sam here and tell him everything.

I've been thinking about this for a long night and I guess I'm ready for this.

"I know what song I'm gonna do for my Grease auditions. I will play as Kenickie and I'll be singing Grease Lightning because you know that song is my ringtone." Sam walks in and grins at me. "You want to see me here?" Sam says and sit down in front of me.

"I will back to New York tomorrow morning." I said to him and let my head down.

"But tomorrow is not the weekend. The weekend is still have five more days and you said that you wanna go back home this Sunday." Sam says to me.

"I know that. It's just I cant be any longer stand in Lima." I said to Sam.

"But why, baby?" Sam frowns at me.

"I have this." I said to him and take a guitar.

"You cant play that." Sam frowns at me.

"I can. A little bit. When Puck and I been together he usually taught me how and this is the only one song that I can play." I said to Sam and start playing the guitar.

Emily:

You were in college working part-time waitin' tables

Left a small town, never looked back

I was a flight risk with a fear of fallin'

Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?

As we're lying on the couch?"

The moment I can see it

Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sitting there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together,

And there's a drawer of my things at your place

You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded,

You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay,

We got nothing figured out,

When it was hard to take,

Yes, yes, this is what I thought about

Do you remember, we were sitting there, by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight

Two-thirty AM

When everything was slipping right out of our hands

I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the "Goodbye"

'cause that's all I've ever known

Then you took me by surprise

You said, "I'll never leave you alone"

You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water

And every time I look at you, it's like the first time

I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter

She is the best thing that's ever been mine" Whoa

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?

We're gonna make it now

And I can see it

I can see it now

"Wow. But why you never tell me that you can play a guitar?" Sam raises his eyebrows at me.

"Only a bit besides that I dont wanna bring my past back when I was with Puck." I half-smiled at Sam.

"But I dont understand why you sang that song to me?" Sam asks me.

I let out a sigh and take his hand. "I set you free."

"Are you-are you breaking up with me? Are you insane?" Sam frowns at me.

Tears slowly fall down to my face. "Sam, this is the thing that I've been afraid of. I always afraid that our long distance relationship wouldnt work out and this is happening right now. We cant stay longer together because it will hurt both of us deeper." I'm crying.

"Is it because of that guy?" Sam asks me.

"No. no one else, Sam. It's just we cant do this. I know there is something wrong between us and you also knows that and feel that but as long as we are pretending like this we will hurt ourselves and our partner." I'm sobbing.

"We can do this and please stop lying to me, Emily." Sam holds my hand.

I close my eyes and brave myself looking at him. "I cant stay longer and pretending that everything is okay. We both knows that there is something wrong with us, Sam. I just cant stay to lying to myself. I cant keep lying to myself that right before you came, Sean and I kissed." I'm crying.

"You and him kissed? How-how could you do that to me?" Sam's sobbing.

"I feel guilty with that and I shouldnt do that I know that. But he was there and he was the one who makes me feel like I'm not alone and lonely. Sam, just stop lying to yourself. Just stop laying to yourself that you also have an affair with Brittany." I'm crying.

"Because she was there when I needed you. When I needed all your support, when I needed someone who can makes me laugh so hard. You werent there. I even barely to talk to you." Sam says to me.

"See? This long distance relationship didnt work for us. I dont want to if both of us end this with cheating each other. You are meant a lot to me, Sam. You were the first guy who looked at me for the way I am. You were the one who make me feel like I'm worth with your love, you were my first and I never regret to give my virginity to you, my precious thing. It's just I cant stay with this. I will always love you, no matter what but I cant hold you anymore or it will make you more sick." I'm crying.

"You know what? The thing that I've been afraid of is happening right now." Sam says to me.

"I'm sorry, I dont wanna hurt you more. I just really love you." I'm sobbing and hold Sam's hand.

"I really love you, Emily." Sam says to me.

I cup his cheeks and kisses him softly as he kisses me back. We pull our lips each other. I push Sam's hand away slowly then went out from this empty classroom and wipe my tears away.

Sam's POV

"See? This long distance relationship didnt work for us. I dont want to if both of us end this with cheating each other. You are meant a lot to me, Sam. You were the first guy who looked at me for the way I am. You were the one who make me feel like I'm worth with your love, you were my first and I never regret to give my virginity to you, my precious thing. It's just I cant stay with this. I will always love you, no matter what but I cant hold you anymore or it will make you more sick." Emily's crying.

"You know what? The thing that I've been afraid of is happening right now." I said to her.

"I'm sorry, I dont wanna hurt you more. I just really love you." Emily sobs and holds my hand.

"I really love you, Emily." I look at her.

She just cup my cheeks then kisses me softly so I kiss her back. We then pull our lips each other and she pushes my hand away slowly and walk off.

Something that I've been afraid of is happening right now. That day when we have our fake relationship and she wanna break up, I have my reason why I dont wanna do that but today is totally different.

But she was right. If we still holding each other like this. It will hurt both of us but I cant easily let her go. She is special to me. Like really special and she was different.

I can feel that my eyes is watering right now as I'm holding my tears. She is the only one who can make me cry. Even she made me cry like this. She was different than any of those my ex girlfriend.

"Sam, you alright?" Blaine walks in.

"Long distance relationship never work out. I should listen to you at first." I said to Blaine.

"You broke up with Emily?" Blaine frowns at me.

"Kind of. She was with someone else there. There was a guy with her and I know there is affair between them besides that even though tecnology is here but I guess that it cant guarantee your relationship." I half-smiled at Blaine.

"I'm so sorry for that." Blaine rubs my back.

"It's just she was very special. No one can make me cry like this except her. She is amazing."

"You will get through this okay." Blaine says to me.

"Thank you." I half-smiled at Blaine.

"It's okay." Blaine half-smiled back at me.

I just can being quiet and sit down on this table and wondering Emily could go back and tell me that it was a joke. A joke that hasnt be funny at all.

I never cant stop loving her I guess.

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Emily's POV

Been staying in Lima was a bad thing, I guess. Now I'm back to New York and forget all those thing that happened these days.

I'm officially not Sam Evans's girlfriend anymore now and actually I'm still sad about this.

I changed my plan and I went back to New York last night. It was sick to spend a lot of time in Lima right now. All I want just moved out and never going back.

I'm in one of Juilliard dance studio right now. Practicing my ballet with a music. I dont care if its almost midnight whatsoever. I just need a distraction and this is my way.

I'm just sick with this. Breaking up it's such hard thing to do. I mean breaking up with Sam especially. But this is for the best and I'm gonna do it my way.

Suddenly my music stops playing. I turn my face and Sean turns off the tape and cross his hands on his chest and raises his eyebrows at me.

"It's almost midnight and I cant sleep before you go back to your apartment and stop make me worried." Sean says to me.

"Why do you care about that?" I simply said and clear the sweat from my face with my face towel.

"I care about you okay. Come on, Emily go back to your room. This is not right." Sean says and shows me his hand.

"I just need to find a distraction." I packed my stuff into my bagpack.

"I know because you broke up with that Sam guy right?"

I turn my face at Sean and frowns at him. "How could you know that?"

"I know that you are type of girl who doesnt like to lie to her boyfriend and you must be told him about we kissed." Sean says.

"He has an affair with my bestfriend." I said with my head down.

Sean suddenly hugs me really tight. "Just crying out loud if you want but promise me that after this you have to stop crying."

Tears slowly fall down to my face. And turns out into a crying out loud. Sean still hugging me and rubs my back and my hair.

"I know those all my fault. I-I become so busy and I barely answer his calls. He cant stop blame me and went to Lima was a bad thing. I shouldnt do that or go back home." I'm crying out loud.

"I'm here and you have to stop crying because of this. This is your choice, Emily and you have to be brave to face that." Sean pushes my body away slowly and wipe my tears away.

"I just need a distraction right now and dancing is the one that can distract me from this." I'm crying.

"I know that, I know. Just stop crying and forget it and this is the last time you've been crying because of this okay." Sean wipe my tears away.

I wipe my tears away and half-smiled at him. "Thank you."

"It's okay. Come on. We better go back to our apartment before we locked here." Sean smiles at me and takes my hand.

"Thank you so much." I smile at Sean.

"It's okay." Sean strokes my hair and take my bagpack then walk off.

I wipe my tears away and fix my hair for a while then make a little run to Sean and walk next to him.

"How could you find me here?" I ask him.

"I was about to bring you dinner so I came to your apartment but no one there. The simple thing is I was waiting for you but you didnt show up so I went here. I cant sleep and stop worrying about you before I found you." Sean says to me.

I sigh. "I'm sorry."

"No, that's not your fault, Emily." Sean smiles at me.

"I guess I spend all my day today in dance studio." I said to him.

"Everyone has their own distraction. If dance is your distraction, cartoon is mine." Sean grins at me.

"I'm waiting for the new animated movie." I grin back at him.

"Trolls!" We suddenly say it together then laughs.

"We should watch that movie together one day." Sean says to me.

"Sounds cool. But you have to know that I love popcorns so much so I cant watch the movie without that." I said to Sean.

"I cant handle that." Sean simply nods. "It's just.. I cant stop this feeling." Sean singing.

I roll my eyes and laugh then take his hand to dance with me. "And under the lights when everything goes nowhere to hide when I'm getting you close. When we move, well, you already know So just imagine, just imagine, just imagine. Nothing I can see but you when you dance, dance, dance

feeling good, good, creeping up on you

So just dance, dance, dance, come on. All those things I shouldn't do but you dance, dance, dance and ain't nobody leaving soon, so keep dancing." I'm singing as we are dancing together.

We stop dancing as I get into Sean's body like really close and he hold my hips as I put my hand around his shoulder. We look at each other and he press my body closer to him.

I never realize that he is such a cute, sweet, and hot one. I never realize that after all this time only him who can make me laugh and smile happily.

"We better go back home before it's too late and we both still have college tomorrow." I said to Sean and left his body.

"I'm sorry." Sean says to me.

"I love this midnight sky." I said as looking at the sky.

"Yeah the stars is beautiful just like you." Sean simply said.

I turn my face at him and he just looking at the sky. Sean suddenly turns his face back at me. I turn my face away and pretend like I didnt stare at him.

We keep walking until we got into our apartment building and standing in front of our room.

"I wont get into my room before you get into yours first." Sean says to me.

I take my bagpack from his hand and smile at him. "Thanks for worrying about me."

"It's okay. I just wanna sleep tonight but I cant sleep before I know that you are inside that room." Sean grins at me.

"Good night, Sean." I smile at him and take my key.

"Emily?"

"Yes?" I turn my face at him.

"What are you doing Friday Night?" Sean raises his eyebrows at me.

"Why?"

"Would you mind to go out with me?" Sean giggles.

"Sure. I'd love to." I smile at him. "Well, good night."

"Good night." He smiles back at me and get into his apartment door.

I just smile and get in then lock my door. I place my bagpack on the ground then jump into my bed. At least I have to promise that I will never cry because of Sam anymore.