His Fateful Choice

About the bees

It has been a week since I was discharged from the hospital. Physically, it was like before the incident. Mentally not so much. But that wasn’t our main focus right now. No, what Bill said that night in the hospital made one thing very clear. Even if Josh still didn’t reject me, it could happen any day now.  He will eventually realize that there was a bond formed between us, when he and his little Luna cannot conceive a child. And I need to be physically fit. Not like police-officer-fit, but werewolf fit, because only the strongest of them are able to survive it. In I really liked to live. So I needed to start to train as soon as possible.

Not to mention that it’s more than possible he could repeat his love making session at any time. I have honestly say it got me curious though. He has been with Gemma for more than a year now and this was the first time it happened to me. Does it mean last week was the first time he touched her? Or was it so earth shattering that even my dull senses felt it? My stomach clenched uncomfortably at the thought. Stupid mate.

“Lost in thought again?” came from behind me. I knew it was Bill. I was currently in his apartment since he insisted, I shouldn’t stay at my place alone.

“Yeah, I was just thinking about him.”

“I know.”

“How?”

“You had this distinctive look on your face, I don’t even know how to describe it. It was as you really wanted murder someone but at the same time as if you already missed them. It was creepy.” Said Bill, obviously trying to lighten my mood.

“Why do you think, I didn’t feel it before?”

“What do you mean before?”

“Well, he met Gemma when he was eighteen and he will be twenty in what? A week? So why didn’t I feel anything before when they, you know…” I left my question unfinished, hoping that my blushing face would tell Bill everything he needed to know.

But unfortunately, a tactful Bill is one of those mythical miracles that no one has ever seen. So I was not that surprised when I heard him say this.

“No, I have no idea what you mean.”

“Ugh, yes you do! You just enjoy torturing me too much. So let mi finish my question for you. Why do you think I didn’t feel anything, when they were together?”

“When they were together?” roared Bill with laughter “That’s the best you can do? Babe you are an adult. Try it with me. s*x. S.E.X.”

“Please could you stop?” I said, my face flushed.

“No, because when you finally decide to try it, I want every juicy detail. No “were together” bullshit. I want the good pounding, he thrusting, the licking…”

“LAAAALALAAAAA” I shouted with fingers in my ears. I know I probably looked childish, but it was all I could do. It was not like I was waiting for marriage. It was more like I was waiting for the right time and the right time person. He didn’t necessarily need to be “the one”, I just trusted my gut that when the time came, I would know.

But that’s all I trusted my gut with. There were dozens other things I was nervous about. Would I even know what to do? How to do it? Would I make fool of myself? My last and only erotic encounter was with Josh and let’s be honest, lover boy did most of the work there.

So, every thought about s*x inevitably brought colour to my cheeks. A fact very well known to a certain friend of mine.

When I saw that Bill’s lips stopped moving, I pulled my fingers from my ears.

“You finished?” we both asked.

Bill smirked at me and then said “Yes. But you are still a baby. But to your question. What makes you think there were some “befores”? Because I don’t think there were any. From what I read, once your bodies formed the bond, you would feel the pain, even if you were at the other end of the world. Now why they didn’t have s*x before, that’s an interesting question. My guess would be they wanted to wait for the appointment ceremony. It’s something similar to our weddings, right? You said he will be twenty soon, so the ceremony should be around the corner. So, either they just couldn’t wait anymore, or they wanted to practice a little you know?” he wiggled his eyebrows at me, obviously not noticing my foul mood.

“Em I’m sorry, I didn’t realize…” he said immediately.

I got up abruptly. “Why are you sorry? He is the one who should be sorry. While I almost died in that club, he just couldn’t wait to f**k his girlfriend.”

“Nice one pumpkin! I mean I agree, he is an ass. And being angry will only help you in this situation.” Bill cheered with glint of mischief in his eyes and continued “What do you plan to do?”

“I know I never planned to return there, but I just want to see him with her. I want to see them together with my own eyes and not just through my memories now that I know what I know. I want, no, I need to see him during the appointment ceremony. I need to see if he even tiny bit regrets not claiming me. It might be self-destructing, but I just need to see. Plus, we both know I need to train. As a werewolf, even if only in your human form. And my pack has one of the best training grounds there are. So, I think I want to go back. What do you think?”

“You know me Em, I live for drama, but are you sure about it? I mean, how would you even do it? Do you think, they will let you go through the main gate after the stunt you pulled at Gemma? And let’s not forget we don’t know, who else knows about your mate’s little secret. He claimed in front of your whole pack, that Gemma is his mate, and she knows it. What if she knows who his true mate is? What if she will feel threatened by you. No animal is more dangerous than that driven into a corner. Remember that.” He reasoned with me.

“I know and thank you.”

“For what?” he raised his eyebrow.

“For caring about me. And I realize everything you said is true. But I thought about it a little bit and I think I have a plan.”