REJECTED TWICE, DESIRED NOW

CHAPTER 02

ELEANOR

“I can ignore it. This bond pull between us,” he continued. It already felt like my chest was burning inside. I only hoped the latter wasn't the case.

“I never had a choice in regards to anything in my life. I didn’t choose to be an Alpha, neither did I want my father dead to the point of having to leave my pack.

And for the first time ever, I was able to have that feeling of knowing what I wanted. I chose your sister, Alison. I fell in love with her without anyone pressuring me. So I won't allow how I feel to

change just because my wolf or the Goddess wants me to.

At least I get to be with the one I love and chose, not because a mere bond is forcing me to.”

I stared at him in disbelief. I was shocked and hurt at his words. I didn't know whether to term it as a nonchalant attitude or that he really loved my Sister. “Could this be what I am thinking right now? Are you rejecting our mate bond?”

He took a deep breath. “Look, Eleanor, I don’t mean to hurt your feelings at all. I have spent time already with your sister, I got to know her and fell in love all on my own.

If I accept being with you, then it’s not by choice anymore. I refuse to let anyone control anything else in my life. I’m really sorry but that’s just how it must be.”

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. “What do you mean by anyone, this is just fate and what the Moon goddess has said to be.”

“My point exactly, let the fate be damned, I would direct my fate the way I want it to be,” He replied back, not feeling any remorse or even batting an eyelid.

“But If you reject me now, What about me? Do you know how long I’ve waited

to meet my mate and finally embrace my wolf? And here you are, telling me that I can never have that because you want to direct your life in your own way.” I tried to hold up the tears that had already welled up in my eyes.

“You should know that you are not the only one who has suffered a great deal in the hands of fate, so being rebellious now is just being so self centered.

Why must I be the one who has to

pay for your decision? All I did was to wait patiently for my mate to come, mark me as his but right now, he is standing in front of me giving me a personal reason as to why he can't accept our mate bond.

But does it matter to you? Definitely not!” I yelled out, just enough for him to know how pained I was

“Listen, Eleanor. I—”

“No, you listen. I’m really sorry you had to go through all that. I can help soothe the pain you’ve been through and support you through the roles that are forced on you. From what I have learnt so far, no one will be able to understand you as much as your mate will. So please don't do this.” I pleaded.

“I really can’t, Eleanor. I’ve already chosen the future I want, and it is with your sister,” he replied boldly.

“What about our bond?” I questioned. I could already feel my wolf howling inside trying to get through and right then, I knew nothing could have saved me from the pain I was about to go through.

“It doesn't matter, as for my wolf, I will find a way to pacify it until I completely mate with Alison. Once I mark her, he will be easier to control, and as time goes on, our bond will be weakened, so you have nothing to worry about.” He said, in a casual tone, like it was a regular thing to do.

“Let's say that's the case, but you forget one important thing. Or probably it’s not so

important to you since you won’t be affected but what happens to the

rejected mate, Noah?

No, what will happen to me? You know I don't have a choice in the rejection and my wolf will weaken. At least, you will have your love for my sister to help get you through the weakened bond, but I won’t be able to find another mate since we are

only given one in our lifetime.” I lashed out in anger.

Even though the bond will be weakened, I will have to see you together and be reminded of my rejection day after day. Is that really what you want for me? I know you feel something for me. Are you sure

this is what you want?”

“I can't go back on my words, I definitely know what I want,” he whispered.

I tried pleading one more time. But who the hell begs for her mate not to serve her a rejection statement. I felt so humiliated but I was also desperate.

“What about children, Noah? Alison is human. You won’t be able to have any wolf pup with her. How do you intend on building your alpha line?”

“I’ll sort that out when the need for it arises.” He replied immediately. I guess that was it for me. If I would keep trying to convince an already cold hearted guy to accept me. What then does that make me?

“I’m really sorry, Eleanor. I just can’t be with you.” There was a tone of sadness in his voice.

“It’s not that you can’t be with me, you chose not to,” I whispered in

defeat.

“You get to choose for yourself thereby forcing me into a constant pain of rejection,” I said as I held my gaze on his.

I thought I saw an expression of indecisiveness and regret, but it was suddenly replaced by a look of determination. I quickly looked away as the tears started to fall.

“Alright then.” I turned back to face him. “I, Eleanor Smith of the Blood Moon pack, accept your rejection.

Not because of your selfish reasons but because I only want yours and my sister’s happiness ; that’s what mates are supposed to do: Care for one

another, and put each other first.

I will take the role of enduring the pain of my future for you and trust me when I say, "I hope it haunts you every night and every morning you wake.”

And having said that, I shifted into my white wolf, and ran deeper into the darkness of the woods.

* * * *

I Shook my head, returning back from the unwanted memories. Ever since then, I only changed slightly, I still wear my

dark wavy brown hair, my contact lenses over my light blue eyes. I guess the only difference was my attitude.

The carefree cheerful girl was no longer there and was only filled with emptiness that hid the constant pain.

Right now, all I needed was to go far away from all the heartaches and reminders.