The Trying Road to Happiness

The Party

*************2 Years Later****************

I finished putting up the last of the inventory and said goodbye to my coworker Alexis. Ever since that night 2 years ago I have gotten on my feet. I have a studio apartment, a job, and friends. Right now I'm leaving my work and heading home to do my homework. Along with all the other things I did in my last year of high school, I changed my name. With who my family is, I don't want them looking for me or for anyone to know who I am. No that they would come looking for me but i didn’t want to take any chances. Now my name is Danni Jones, an ordinary girl on her way to normal and for once in my life I'm content. I still have my problems but I deal with them the best way I can. I have to take anxiety med, antidepressants, antipsychotics

 ( those just make it so i won’t have a rage fit for no reason), and adderall. I know an 18 year old takes a lot of meds but if it helps me function in the sense of a normal human being then so be it. My friends are cool, they like me but they don’t have all my problems. They aren’t very open, but I know more about them than they do me. They know who I am and the basics which is enough and all I'm willing to talk about. Tonight I'm going to a party with my friend Tribby. She's very well known around the town and surrounding areas. She asked me to go because she knows that i can have a good time and not be stupid about it. So when I got home I took a shower, shaved, and got dressed. I put on my fishnet tights, black ripped shorts, a flowy black t-shirt, a flannel on top of that, and my doc martens. I went and straightened my hair and put a beanie on after that. I brought along a few essentials but other than that I was ready. When I got there I found Tribby and we went hard. We were dancing, drinking, and having the times of our life, just like we do at every party we go to. We were faded, courtesy of the things I brought and I was having a great time. When we stopped, I went to get water. That's when I saw someone I didn't recognize. He must have known, I thought as I went to get a bottle of water. Someone came up behind me and pinned me to the door of the fridge, “What do you want Tyler? Get off of me!” I screamed. I flew my head back hitting him in the nose and left the party. When I got outside it hit me like a ton of bricks, I forgot to take my anti-anxiety meds. I’m usually fine if nothing happens to me that would make me think of the past. They don’t mix with alcohol anyways, I grabbed my heart, it raced feeling like it was gonna beat out of my chest. I ran into the first that was nearby and I crouched down next to a big tree. I wasn’t able to breath, it felt like all life was getting sucked out of me, life a vacuum cleaner sucks up dirt. I was crying i couldn’t see, after a while it passed, i felt like death and all i wanted to do was sleep. I wanted to calm down so i smoked a roll on my way home. I haven’t seen Tyler since last year. He was the first guy I was with, when I said I wasn't ready he forced himself on me. I fought but I was too weak. He played the sweet and innocent card but at the end of the day he only wanted one thing from me that I can never get back. Ever since then I took a fighting class and got really good at it. I’ve worked really hard to get where I am today and I don't plan on letting someone like Tyler mess it up for me. Although i am wondering who that guy was at the party. When I got home I changed into a pair of sweatpants and a sports bra and went to sleep. When I got up I took my pills, took shower, and got dressed. I put on a pair of black ripped skinny jeans, a black v-neck and a flannel on top of that, I needed to make sure I covered up my tattoos. We’re technically not supposed to have them, but i digress.  I slid on my old school, and decided to change some of my earrings. I straightened my hair, put on my beanie and grabbed my bag and went on my way. My usual routine is to stop at my favorite coffee shop and then walk the rest of the way to school. When i got there all i heard was the buzz going around school about the new kid. I went to my locker and saw my friends surrounding it. “Hey guys whats up?” I asked. “Did you see the new kid?” They asked. “Ya, why?” I asked skeptically. “He’s so hot” They said almost in a squeal. “Whatever floats your boat guys” I said with a smirk walking to my first period class. I sat in the back, like I always do and took out my sketch book. My first period was study hall so more than likely I'm gonna be drawing the whole time. I rested my head on my hand and continued a drawing that I was making yesterday. It was a picture of a girl looking into a mirror but she could see her reflection. I stopped when I heard a voice I didn't recognize, it was the kid from the party. It was an understatement to say he was hot, He had a jawline so sharp it could cut me. CUT ME! He had deep blue eyes and dark brown hair. He was very muscular, at least I think he was, he was wearing a sweatshirt with black fitted jeans and a pair of converse. He was so hot, he had this smile that could light up the room and his eyes were so deep and pure. I stopped my staring before he noticed and went back to drawing. “ Do you mind if i sit next to you?” He asked, smiling at me. “Be my guest.” I said in a monotone pointing at the seat next to me. I didn’t pay him much attention. I just went back to my drawing. It was hard to concentrate though with the smell of his callone dancing on my nose. “Woah, did you draw that?” He asked, looking amazed. “Yep,” Was all I said before going back to shading. “I’m Blake by the way, I'm new.” He said with his hand stretched out. “I know you still have the new guy smell,” I kidded, taking his hand in mine. “I’m Danni.” I said. He chuckled and went back to looking at the front of the class while I continued to draw. He seemed nice, most people around here think that i’m gonna lash out or get into a fight with them, sure i have an RBF and i know how to fight and nobody knows my past but i like it that way. Most people are just scared of me, which I don’t really give off the welcoming vibe but I know that I'm a good person who has a crappy life. I’m honestly kind of surprised he even talked to me, he didn’t stare at my piercings, or my hair, or my tattoos. He seemed to see behind the tough exeter. Not that i was trying to look tough, this is who i am and if people don’t like it, well i don’t care. When the class period ended I got up as quickly as I could and made my way to my second period class. When i got there i was expecting to be at my own table, and not be bothered, but alas the universe has different plans. “I guess we meet again.” He said with a smile. I looked over at him and said “I guess so.” every single class. EVERY SINGLE CLASS!!! This boy was in all my classes. How the hell is that even possible. I can’t seem to get away from him. It’s not that i don’t like him, i do, he just seems like a person i don’t want to be around. He’s nice and pure, meanwhile I'm dark and tained. I’m not a perfect person but he seems like he is, everybody goes through their problems but he seemed to have dealt with them, or didn’t have them at all. I find it fascinating, in a way, most of the people i know are normal, and don’t have the problems i do. I don’t know what it is about him but i can’t get too close to him. Not to sound clique, but i'm not good for him, he’s too good to have me around him. After my stay  at school I went back to my apartment. I grabbed my i.d badge for work and went on my way. I work on a hot topic, I know typical but everyone there is so nice plus I get a discount and I don't have to change my clothes. When i got there i said hi to Alexis and did what i needed to do. Since it was Friday I had to close. It was a busy day today. I'm tired, and I have homework to do. I wanted to get everything done tonight so i went to a fast food place, got some food and a couple of energy drinks and went to work. I was watching family guy and letting loose, eating my for and drinking my drinks i went and got started on my homework. When I woke up the next morning I was still on my couch. I had papers spread out all over the palace and I was sore. When looking through the papers I saw that I had it all done so I packed up my bag, cleaned off the couch and the table and went to get ready for work. Today I wore fishnets with shorts over them, a flowy v-neck with a little alien in the corner of the shirt, I put a flannel on and straightened my hair and put on my beanie. I grabbed my keys, my wallet, and my phone and made my way to work. I slid on a pair of sunglasses and went on my way to get my coffee and go to work.