The Trying Road to Happiness

The Encounter

When I got to the coffee shop to my dismay, Blake was there. I ran to where the bathrooms were and yanked my sunglasses off of my face. “s**t,” I whispered, pressed up against the wall in an attempt to not be seen. I slowly peered around the corner to see if he had gone, but of course luck was not on my side. As soon as I had my eyes on him he turned around. I tried to hide back behind the wall again but of course me being dumb he already saw me. “ Hey Danni, you like this place too?” He asked with a smile. I place my elbow on the wall trying to act natural “ Of course who doesn’t.” I said nonchalantly. “True,” he said. I stared at him for a moment. “Well I'm gonna go,” I said walking past him. “Wait, i want to ask you a question.” He said running in front of me. “What?” I asked. He took a deep breath “Do you wanna hang out sometime?” he said looking nervous. I giggled, just a little bit but it was enough for him to look curious. “ Sorry, I don't mean to laugh but you wanna hang out with me, the one no one talks to, the one that people hate,” I said in an amused voice. “Ya, what’s so funny about that?” He asked, looking at me confused. “ You obviously Haven't been here that long. Trust me, you don’t want to be around me, I'm not the type of person you want to be around.” I said with a duh tone. “I really do appreciate the offer, I really do, but take it from me, you don’t want to be around me,” I said in a more sarong tone. I walked past him to go to the counter but he grabbed my wrist stopping me “How do you know I don't want to be around you?” He asked looking straight into my eyes. With the most serious and caring voice I could, I said “Because nobody does.” I said and turned around to go get my coffee. When i said that he looked beyond concerned. I don’t really care, it’s the truth, nobody really likes me that much, not even my friends. When I got my coffee I went out, slipping my sunglasses on again and made my way to work. I didn’t say what i said to him to be mean, i said it because he shouldn’t have to deal with me. I’m a mess and I do some bad things and he seems good and pure and I don't want to ruin that. He is a good person, I am not. The only thing I could think about while at work was him. The look he gave me when i told him what i did. It doesn’t matter, I need to focus on work and i need to stop thinking about a boy who probably wouldn’t even like me if he knew me. Hours passed and it was time for me to go home. When i got there all i wanted to do was crash. I made myself some dinner and went to wash my face and go to bed. As soon as my head hit the pillow I was fast asleep. When I got up the next morning, I was heaving and panting. I must have had another nightmare, I thought to myself. Again today i had to go to work, it’s all i ever do anymore, but you gotta make a living somehow. I got ready and put on a pair of black ripped jeans, my favorite band shirt, a flannel, old schools, and I also changed my piercings. Today I decided to straighten my hair but curl the purple tips and of course I put my favorite beanie on my head. Today is like any other day, I go to work, come home, and eat dinner. The only thing i'm looking forward to is that sunday i don’t have to go to work. Because I like to keep busy, so I don’t smoke all the time, I go and volunteer at an animal shelter. Unlike most they take in all types of animals. They take in ones that were abandoned, or where just sick and needed a home. It’s the only place I like besides being by myself. I understand them, and they like me. I know it sounds weird but I don't really care, plus it’s another one of those things that i do that nobody knows about. When i came home later that night i instantly went to bed, it was a busy day and i was the only one behind the counter.