Sorrow behind the Smile !

Growing up wasn't easy like people think it was i know now i look like i have all figured out but the truth is i haven't well let me tell you about my self. i am mellisa adams i am 25 years of age i have 2 sisters that are staying with ny father as for my mom she died giving birth to me , apparently they say i look like her even thou father prohibited me touching her pictures because i am the daughter of the tree those where his words , and i have made peace with the fact that he hates me , his such a strict man when it comes to me but to his two daughters he would even bow to them if he has to and i dont mind at all i guess i took my moms spirit am very out going an happy soul . well i moved out home when i finished grade 12 that when dad found out i was gay and he was so livid but i stood on my ground that i wont change who i am he would beat the hell out of me but that didnt change who i was , it made me wanna do more to my self i had dreams places to see so i decided to go an i never looked back i went to varsity thinking life will be easy but guess what it wasn't i had to deal with people calling me a forgat and that would hurt i would run to the toilet an cry , i remember one day one some guys came to my res as i was staying alone and they r***d me . it was hard dealing with all that without any support but i got a friend an she supported me through out the varsity life we were so wild to the point where i started doing things i never thought i would since i was working on the weekends i had money and bursary was giving me 5000 a month and i was earning like really good money but still i wanted to change how i looked . i always felt like i am traped on a man's body while i should be a girl so i had this idea of being a transgender i know it hectic but that what i wanted an lucky me i had a friend who supported me through out , we started googling getting more information an the process was so expensive and i told my self i will do what a girl got to do . one day we went to the club in sandton that where i met this old guy who was buying us free boose an we clicked but he was married so he was bisexual an i didnt mind i had my own motives that i will milk him dry , we got along just fine and he would sleep with me from time to time and he will give me money like real money per month he would give me 10 000 all i had to do was to be available whenever he needed me and i didnt mind i was , life was a bliss i moved to the flat with Yolanda my friend , jacob was paying the rent and food and yes girlfriend allowance. still my motives were the one leading me to do all this i told my self i wont stop the guys was minister of finance and my bank balance was whacky high so why not continue aslong i will be what i want. i made sure to pass all my models at varsity from time to time i would miss my sisters asmuch as they also didn't like me but they were my sisters but i didnt want to bother them i lived my life, sadly the wife called me an told me to stay out of the marriage am ruining her life Jacob didn't even wanna touch her and i felt bad i ended things with him , it was hard since i had fallen for him but i though if my mom were in her shoes i would freak so it ended like that with Jacob. Yolanda my friend told me about selling your sperms an i did a follow up and i thought why not do it also i did i got really money i didn't know people would do such and i would ask my self why not guys do this cause it easy like ABC but than again it none of my business i aimed to change this contain of a body an reveal the Melissa in me , and all was going accordingly i went through with the procedure and everything went well i was no longer Ally but i was officially Mellissa mind you no one knew all this except my friend who happend to got in the accident when she was fetching me she died without meeting Melissa but i told my self i will live for her an me and i wont need any friends cause she was moredan that . It got hard at varsity as they were mocking me but i felt hella fine with all the procedure i did i was the hotty of the school with little of attitude that screams am not available yall dont meet my standard and yes i finished varsity and i graduated without my family knowing only Yolandas mom was the since she knew the whole story she showed the support . From there i started my company called Shalom clothing yes it was for branded clothes an weaves it was making waves like never before.