Can't Hate You

Lovely candy

Sun

We were walking near to the beach. It was a large place with a view of the ocean that was a little further away.. I still felt uncomfortable but something in me turned the anxiety into curiosity.. of course I was still anxious... but running away wasn't going to help. That's why I was so upset.. I couldn't understand anything but I was going to wait for him to explain.

Since he was way taller than me I looked up, not moving my head but I knew that he noticed it. As he looked at me, I looked down again. I didn't want to get affected by his eyes again because it happened to me too often.

Dean

Telling her that I already knew everything about her, her family, friends and everything else about her life would've been really really dumb.. I needed to do it in my own way.. That's why I needed to tell her about me instead of asking questions that I knew the answers to. She needed to fall in love with me and I knew that was it going to be very easy.

The way she was acting already told me that she was crushing. I mean who wouldn't be crushing on such a god like me? It took me two days.. she was so simple.. just like every other girl.. but so different at the same time...

Actually she was very cute. Like really cute.. and hot.. she was that kind of girl who had a pure heart and who wasn't worth to hurt.. but I wasn't allowed to fall in love with her. That built a wall around my heart immediately. I didn't really have any feelings so it was hard to say what was going on with me. I just did what I needed to do... And I heard about how special she was.. I wanted to know if these things were true...

And her brother.. god damn I hated him so much.. that annoying b***h always walked around like he is a model or the son of Jesus. I thought I was narcissistic but that boy got on my nerves so damn much.

Just because he was the son of Elijah Dalton... if he would've only known whose son I was..

Sun

As we found a bench we sat down on it. I looked up. The thunders and lightnings were getting harder and stronger with every minute. I wasn't sure if it was clever to sit here instead of going to a warm place. I was sitting really close to him. The bench was a little short.. and I didn't dare to move away... I was afraid to move an inch.

It was getting really cold.

"Are you hungry?" he asked out of nowhere and I looked at him. I wasn't hungry and even if I would've been, I wouldn't have gotten a bite down my throat because of this all.. so I shook my head and looked at the ocean.. so many waves.. they were so strong that they were able to make everyone who would come close to them disappear..

He sighed..

"Are you cold?" he asked me.

"I thought I was going to get to know you." I said looking at him because I wanted him to get to the point. I wanted him to get to the point because I wanted this to be over as fast as possible..

The wind blew trough my hair.

He smiled. "Okay. Just ask me something." he said like he didn't know what he wanted to talk about first. I didn't know what to ask. He looked at the ocean as well and god.. his side profile.. that jaw.. he was distracting me.. I needed to think of something. I had so much that I was asking myself about him but I couldn't even open my mouth.

I got distracted for a while until he looked at me. I came back to reality. "Uh.."

I squeezes my hair behind my ear.

"Why are you here? Like why did you came to this school?" I asked my first question and it seemed really dumb. I was able to ask him anything first and I came with this. I just wanted to make the situation a little bit better and a little less awkward..

He laughed and I sighed and crossed my arms in front of my chest. I hated it when he laughed, no matter how beautiful it sounded. I always felt like he wasn't taking me serious. It made me feel stupid.. He just couldn't be serious.

I leaned back and as he started talking I looked at him.

"Because of my dad. He's working a lot and has to be flexible. We've moved many times. I had to switch schools many times... and now we' landed here and we're probably going to stay.." his soft smile almost made my heart melt but I slapped myself on the inner.

"Oh okay.." was all I could say. It explained why he was so confident about this all he's already been through it many times. He took a deep breath. "Next." he said and I bit my lip, trying to be brave enough to ask.

"Why am I here? Why did you choose me?"

He looked at me. Only at me. He focused onto my eyes and looked right through my eyes into my soul.. it was scary.

"Because you're different than the other girls in that class.. in that school.. and I wanted to make sure that you're mine before anyone else's.."

His soft voice and the honest smile made my jaw drop and my heart beat faster. I couldn't believe my ears. Was he really saying this? I was so confused and felt so much at once... that still didn't mean that I wasn't mad at him or could tolerate what he's done.

"But.. you told me I am just like every other girl and that-.." he interrupted me. "I said that because I wanted to annoy you.. because to be honest, you're pretty cute when you're angry.."

I looked down at my sleeves and tried to hide my smile but I couldn't because I was blushing at the same time and didn't know what to do... Actually I wasn't sure what else to ask.. I needed to let this all sink first and understand..

Moon

I was sitting in my car not moving an inch, with me forehead against the wheel. If I was going to call dad he was going to kill me immediately and call the whole team to find her. He was going to exaggerate and make a huge thing out of it.

If I was going to look for her by myself it was probably going to take hours to find her. I needed to handle it on my own but I also needed help without telling anybody about it..

God damn what a shitty situation it was. I punched against the wheel..

Melissa

Ethan was staying home for the whole day. That was so good and it made me extremely happy because I missed spending time with him. We never have the chance to do things that we used to do because we're always so busy..

But this time we were cuddling in front of the fireplace without getting bothered.. without thinking of anything bad... He stroke my head just like he did back then when I leaned my head against his chest or buried my face in his neck.. it still felt good.. it still felt amazing..

Feeling his arms and hands around me and on my whole body...

"I missed that.." he whispered into my ear and I melted. I chuckled. "I missed that too.. but I missed your body more." I pulled him closer by his sweater and leaned my forehead against his.. The look he gave me.. made me crazy. He held my face in his hands very roughly and started to kiss my neck.. I knew he was craving me and that set my whole body on fire.

"I still love you like I did on the first day.."

I closed my eyes and enjoyed his words..

"But you didn't love me on the first day.." I said laughing softly while he was still kissing my neck.

"Baby... I did.. but I never let you know." his words made my head spin. I looked at him and he looked at me with his smirk.. "What do you mean..?" I asked a little confused. His warm hand on my face made me weak. I could barely concentrate. "The night.. I met you.. I saw you before I got you on that bridge.. I was watching you in the club while you were dancing..." I got goosebumps and my jaw dropped softly..

"And from that moment on, I realized that I wanted you.. I wanted to make you mine immediately before anybody else would have the chance to do it.."

Why didn't he tell me that before? I never knew that he's been in the club at the same time. I thought he found me on coincidence..

I started smiling.. I fell in love with him again.. just like I did it everyday.

"So you were the one who protected me of that creep.." I was never going to forget that night.

"No. that was Josh. I told him to not leave you alone so he could tell me were you are and I could get in my car to follow you before you could leave or be on your own."

I looked at him eyes widened..

His hands went down on my waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips against his. "You make me fall in love with you more and more everyday.". My heart was beating all over my body. I was living for these calm moments.

He smiled and licked his lips...

Sun

It got colder with every minute.. I hated Moon for this even tho he was right.. I was almost shaking. I was about to freeze and so close to ask Dean if we could go back to his car but that was probably going to give him the wrong message.

As I caught him looking at me he smiled and in that moment I realized how small I actually was next to him.. how tiny and small.. just like a baby. So fragile and soft while he was so huge, rough, tall and strong.. maybe that was why he called me baby all the time.

I tried to smile as well but it was really hard. I still couldn't smile no matter how much I wanted it. It just didn't feel right. I didn't feel ready because I was scared. I was scared of this whole situation and what I should think about it or him. He answered me a few more questions and he was still an asshole but he wasn't that bad either..

I looked away and saw a man with a lot of cotton candy on petioles in his hands. He was selling it and I couldn't hold myself back. Cotton candy was my weakness...

Out of reflex I reached my hand out at him to get his attention while I was still looking at that man. My hand landed on his stomach.. let me say on his abs..

"Dean look!" I said hysterically out of excitement. "What?" he asked still totally calm and I stood up. "Cotton Candy!" I said looking at him and smiling like a little child. I just couldn't hold myself back whenever I saw cotton candy and he was looking at me like he couldn't understand what was going on.

I stood up immediately and so did he. "So?" he asked. I looked at him eyes widened but I was so happy that I kept smiling. I couldn't even mind him or the situation I was in, in that moment. "I want some!" I said, turned around and ran towards that man without any warning. He was rushing because of the storm but I got him.

Dean

She told me that I was crazy but she was the one who lost herself when she saw cotton candy. I knew this about her too and it was.. almost too cute.. especially when she smiled like that.. and when her big eyes were filled with happiness. It felt like someone punched me right into my stomach. That was such a weird feeling but I wasn't going to let her affect me.

Unfortunately I wasn't sure if it would be possible to not fall in love with her.

Just as I wanted to go after her, my phone ran. It was my dad.. I answered the call.

"Dean! My favorite son!" he said.. he was happy..

I froze but my blood started boiling. I clenched my jaw and just stood there trying to not throw the phone on the ground.. I started breathing faster and faster with every second.. every time he needed me I was his favorite son.. I was doing all of this just for him even tho I didn't want to but he couldn't understand.. even I couldn't understand it.

"How is it going with our little sunshine?" he asked me and I could hear how soft he was.. I literally could see his smile in front of me and I wanted to kill him for that. I wanted to punch him.. he was getting soft for her but not for the son he raised..

"Very good.. it was easier than I thought." I said totally numb..

"Oh really? Tell me more!" he sounded really curious.. that.. damn. I took a deep breath. "She's very weak and too positive, sensible to not fall for me.." I looked at her and tried to not breathe that fast.. she looked so happy. Her face was shining.. "Good Job.. that makes you a little bit better than your brother!" I closed my eyes and clenched my jaw. He was making a competition out of it but all I wanted was to get away from them both..

He was always doing that.. just because he was better than me.. in everything. He never loved me and I did everything to get his love and attention, his appreciation but he was never caring about me like he did about my brother. He never appreciated what I was doing for him so I gave up and started doing it for myself. I was doing whatever he wanted so he would leave me alone. He was already hating me enough..

"Now go and make that girl addicted to you! Make her happy. Don't hurt her!" he said. It was like he was joking withe me. I opened my eyes. Sun was already coming back again with two cotton candy things... I wasn't even sure what their name was. I never ate cotton candy. I hated it because it was so sweet, pink, lovely and soft. It reminded me of everything good and cute and that made me angry. It was sticky and annoying.

"I will." I said and hung up. She came back laughing although we were going to have the heaviest storm ever. She was too happy to mind it... Even I didn't realize it because I was so focused on her.

She reached one towards me and I slowly took it out of her hand, looking at her with a raised brow, totally suspicious..

"Why are looking so weirdly?!" she asked me slowly ripping out a piece of it and eating it.

I wasn't sure what to say so I just told her the truth. "I.. I don't know I just.. never ate that before.." I was irritated. Her jaw dropped and she looked at me eyes widened like I told her something unbelievable. It was nothing special..

"Are you serious or messing with me again?" she asked rolling her eyes..

"I'm serious. I mean my childhood wasn't as pink as yours or as that cotton candy in your hand."

We slowly sat back, don't looking at each other.

"Things like these didn't exist in my or my dads world.. but I always myself how these pink clouds taste like.."

She looked sad. I thought she was going to cry. She was really sensible and getting emotional really really fast. She was so caring and she had such a big heart.. I felt like I was going to cry with her if she was going to shed a tear.. that wasn't good.. but I knew that there was more behind this all than I wanted..

What was wrong with me?