Can't Hate You

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Elijah

"You know that it's not true." I began and she raised a brow. I still wasn't sure if I was loving her or not. I had feelings for her that was true.. but I couldn't give her any promises.. I was a difficult person and she was already hurt enough.. but I needed more time. Things between us already went so fast in such a short time...

She looked confused.

"You know that I like you." I was really afraid of doing something wrong. Even saying these things got me on the edge...

"Elijah you don't have to say that, please don't do that because of what I've said." she shook her head like she would want t hear anything but not this and leaned back. Then she began to play with the hair tie in her hand. It seemed like that kept her calm.

"I'm not only saying this because I have to. I'm saying this because I really do."

She looked at me.

"Forget about everything that I said to Josh because that's not how I meant it...«

She smiled but it was a painful smile. She still wasn't believing me. She just wanted to close this chapter but I did not.

"Are you saying this now because I helped you with the bank or do you have another reason..?" I sighed. "I don't need a reason to say that. Or wait.."

"You're the most attractive, patient, cute, badass and dirtiest girl I've ever seen but also the most pure, fragile, careful, caring, love-wanting person ever..." I continued and smiled softly.

"I know that you'll get everything you want. You're strong. The strongest girl I've ever seen because every other girl would've ran straight outta that door right there in the second she head about the gang."

I kept going. "You have goals.. real goals.. not like these.. and you don't need anybody to reach them..".

She leaned in. "But there's one thing that I'll never get... one goal that I'll never reach."

Now I was the one who raised a brow in confusion.

"What?" I asked seeing that painful but cute smile on her face again.

"You."

My jaw dropped because I honestly didn't expect it to be me after this all..

"I'll always be too young for you. Even if I turn eighteen..you'll be twenty six.. I'll always be too childish.. and you'll never want something serious with me or love me because you said it by yourself in the restaurant... there's no love for you.. you're egocentric.. mean.. and all the other things you surely still remember."

I pressured my lips. I didn't lie about what I said back then... but I had other plans at that time.. plans that weren't including her..

"You'll never be too young for me. No matter how old I am going to be. and unfortunately thats how I am.. but I know you're so stubborn that you'll deal with me.. no matter what."

She looked down and I could see that tiny smile which made my heart skip a beat...

I grabbed her chin and turned her face around to me. "Look at me babygirl. We don't have to be a couple.. we don't need to love each other or be afraid of our ages. We don't need to name this all. We just can live our life like it is right now and see how it goes."

She looked me into my eyes and I could see how they were sparkling again.. but she was still worrying and doubting.. it was probably going to stay like that because trust issues were complicated as f**k.

"I may be mean to you and break your heart over again and again but you'll always know that I don't mean it like that, whenever I hug you.."

I had to say these things and there was so much more to say because I remembered how scares she was when I was about to jump from the rooftop earlier. That showed me how much she cared and how much I meant to her even tho I've been so bad to her all the time.. and she deserved to be loved.. even if it was going total me a while..

Melissa

I wanted that so much. I wanted to stop worrying and deal with him so much.. He was talking like an adult. I fell in love with him.. that was so clear.. but I didn't admit it or say it into his face because it wasn't time yet.. he didn't love me yet but he as trying because I actually meant something to him and the fact that I could show him that he meant something to me was a great feeling. I also didn't want to admit it to myself yet.. because I didn't want to rush thing only to be really heartbroken and alone at the end again...

But I was sure that it was love.. because I've never felt something like this before. Not with Matt.. not with my family.. or anybody else. Not for a celebrity or school crush.. for nobody.. it was rare.. it was going to happen only once in a life time and this moment.. was rare..

I just smiled.

"Tell me if you want to talk about anything. If there's anything you want to say.. this is probably the right moment because its one of those rare ones in which I'm not n asshole." he said and that made me laugh. It felt like he could read my thoughts..

He grabbed my hand and interlocked it with his. "If you need to get something of your chest..."

I looked at our hands and smiled. I could feel my whole body tensing. the goosebumps that I got weren't normal.. I held my breath and my heart skipped a beat.. it was something special for me..

"Thank you." I said really quietly almost whispering. His smirk was confusing me but also making me more comfortable in this uncomfortable silence.. he held my hand tighter. "Well I know something that you should get off your chest..."

I was curious about what that could be.

"What?"

"Your bra." he said and I laughed very loud covering my mouth with my other hand and looking at him eyes widened..

"Oh my god! You just ruined the moment!" I said upset but still laughing. He joined me but got serious again way faster than me. He stopped laughing and looked at me. I stopped too trying to figure out what was going on now and looked at him.

Elijah

I got distracted by her laugh. Her perfect laugh which I heard for the first time and which made me doubt all the bad things on this planet. It felt like she put me under a spell.. that I didn't want to get rid off..

Making her laugh could be my new job.

I clenched my jaw and looked at her lips. I shouldn't but I couldn't control myself.

"Is everything..-" I kissed her out of nowhere before she could continue her sentence, so hard that I fell on her. I was on top of her and all I wanted was her at that moment.

As I stopped I looked at her she was smiling like she went crazy. Then she covered her face with her hands because she was embarrassed and chuckled. I can't explain what I felt in that moment.. the way my heart was beating was so new for me.. I felt like the most powerful man on earth..

"Babe.. I want to see your face.." I whispered and she put her hands down and asked "Why are our arguments ending like this every time?". She was right. That was weird. They were really ending like this every time. Fortune.

"Because..." I kissed her neck.

"I won't.." I left another hickey.

"Give up until.." I kissed the way up to her ear.

"I finally f**k you until you can't walk..." I whispered into her ear and I could feel her shivering.

"Obviously you still have some dirty plans.. Tell me more about it.." she said skeptically but smiling and I had so many things in my had to do worse but I needed to hold myself back

I licked my lips and slid my hand under her shirt. I loved how warm her body was.. always..

"I want you to moan 'daddy' as loud as you can when I push myself into you... just so you already know." I said grinding on and she closed her eyes.

"I want to make you wet with only showing up in front of you." I kissed her neck again and she buried her face in mine.

"I want you to be naked every time I come back home..."

"Ugh.. daddy.."

"That's what I want to hear.."

Then I slid my hand out off her shirt and under her jeans..

»I already told you that I can make you c*m without..« she held onto my arms and gasped. She let out a little scream when I slid two fingers inside of her... I knew she was a virgin who didn't know how any of this felt like and I just wanted to prepare her because knowing that I was going to be her first, made me crazy..

She was already out of breath...

"I'm almost."« I kissed her to make her shut up.

I felt her nails digging into my arm so I went faster..

"Bro, I..Uh.." I heard Josh's voice and I stopped. With everything. I pulled my hand out off her Jeans and screamed "FUCK... I SWEAR I'M GOING TO KILL YOU ONE DAY!". He was my bro and I as never keeping anything from him or being embarrassed but he really had the most shitty timing ever like even worse than Miranda or Sam.

Why couldn't I just make out with this girl and make her c*m without getting interrupted? What was their problem? Couldn't they just f**k off for at least one second? I needed to be alone with her.

"Sorry for interrupting you.. but we need you. Just for five minutes."

I got off her and sighed.

"I'm sorry babygirl..." I said slowly getting off her.. she slowly stood up as well and wrapped her arms around me. Then she gave me a little kiss and whispered into my ear.. "It's okay daddy.. you already gave me a taste.. I'll wait.."

I smirked and left.