Can't Hate You

Gunshot

Melissa

During the next days things were a little bit different... he was colder.. he was working more.. and less at home.. whenever he saw me he only kissed my forehead and kept working. I could understand that. He was really busy and I knew what a complicated person he was so I gave him some time hoping he wasn't mad at me or something.

I was sitting in the backyard again-as usual because it was my favorite spot- watching a movie on my laptop. It was a funny movie but I couldn't laugh without him. I was only thinking about him instead of paying attention... if he was annoyed.. overworking himself.. or anything else..

I was totally addicted to him. The tiniest thought of him made me smile and I realized that I got used to him way too fast..

Suddenly I heard his voice and stood up immediately. I ran to the entrance as fast as I could. He was standing on the front door and as he saw me coming he smiled. I hugged him really tightly. He left an hour ago and I didn't expect him to be back so quickly so I was really happy.

"I... forgot something.. I need to go back.." he said, crashing all my dreams and my happiness. I was very sad so I backed off slowly. "It's okay.." I said trying to smile.

Elijah

I had a lot of things to do with the boys. We needed to plan every single thing and collect every single detail to kill these hoes. This was almost making me almost crazy. I had to be cold. It hurt. She was my babygirl... the distance was hurting more than I thought. Three days were left to her birthday and I had a lots of surprises for her but first I needed to clear this all because otherwise I wouldn't be able to concentrate on her..

I needed some stuff and a few clothes for the mission from the city where Josh was already waiting for me. I needed to go back but I didn't want to.. I wanted to stay with her... I could see how sad she was. She looked at the ground but I lifted her chin with my fingers and made her look at me..

"Babygirl. Don't be sad.. you can help me." she tried to smile. I didn't want her to feel locked into this mansion like she would be in prison.

I interlocked her hand with mine and walked upstairs with her. She sat down on my bed and watched me checking my clothes and getting some credit cards. She didn't say a word.. Josh told me that I should take her with me wherever I go but it wasn't possible.. our home was the safest place but I knew she was getting moody in here..

I looked at her and she was still really quiet.

"Hey.. you know I'm not the type of boyfriend who's always kind and tells you how beautiful you are and how much I love you but.."

She sighed. "But..?"

I smiled and walked towards her. "You're beautiful and I love you.."

I could see that smile on her face.. and this time it was honest.. that smiled showed me every time.. that no matter what I would do or how bad I would mess up.. that she would always have my back and love me no matter what a stubborn jerk I would be. That she really loved me and cared.

She stood up. I approached her and put the hair which fell into her face behind her ear.

"I need to get some things from the city. But I'll be right back.." she hugged me. "I'm missing you.."

That hurt. Because I couldn't tell her about anything... I didn't wanted her to be sad or worry. Scaring her would be unnecessary to this point. I was going to handle that without telling her anything.. "Do you want to come with me?" I asked her and her eyes lit up...

Melissa

We were driving down to the city. I was looking out of the window as he grabbed my hand and kissed it. I smiled at him. We didn't talk a word until we arrived. It seemed like we both were strained and I couldn't tell why.. He turned the engine off and said "Just wait here okay? I promise I'll be back in ten minutes." I leaned back and nodded smiling. It was okay that I couldn't follow him with every step. Being there was already enough.. He got off the car and I knew exactly that he was planning a new mission.

Of course I was curious but I didn't wanted to ask him. He didn't have to tell me everything and after the first mission I went in, I wasn't planning to enter or interfere into another one. I was drowning in my own thoughts. I thought about him. I was falling for him more and more with every second..

I loved him so much my heart started racing every time I saw him. Even his voice had this affect on me. I closed my eyes. I was so quiet because I couldn't get a word out when he was so perfect.. Sometimes when he ran his hand through his head or looked at me in his special way... I was about to melt but felt my heart racing faster at the same time.

He looked at me like he could see nothing else. Like he was focusing just on me. He wasn't good in showing love. He really wasn't the boyfriend who told me how much he loved me or who made me presents or who was all cuddly, cute and kind. He was the opposite because he was alway mocking me, making me angry, being mean or acting like he wouldn't care at all.. but when he looked at me I knew that he didn't need to say a word to show me what he was feeling towards me. I literally couldn't wait until my birthday. I was keen on him and I wanted him. I smiled and opened my eyes.

As soon as I did that I saw someone in front of me on a motorcycle. Actually two people.. all black.. I couldn't look through their helmets. I thought they would be a part of Elijah.. They were looking straight at me. They were definitely male..

I raised a brow and then I just saw how one of them suddenly raised a gun at me. I screamed and bent down immediately covering my head and all I could hear were the bullets going trough the windshield. I stopped breathing for several minutes.

I waited until it stopped and when it did... I slowly got up and I was shaking not even realizing what happened... I was panicking and already crying. I know I probably should've kept my head down and covered but I couldn't in that moment. I was confused and overwhelmed. I wanted to scream but my voice seemed to disappear.. I couldn't understand what was happening but I wanted to get out..

My vision blurred for a second an it seemed like they left..

Elijah

I was talking to Josh on a rooftop as I heard several gunshots. My heart stopped for a second.

I held my breath and froze.

"Melissa..." Josh looked at me eyes widened. "MELISSA!" I screamed and started running. I swear I never ran that fast and I was ready to burn everything down if something happened to her.

Melissa

I was paralyzed and my heart was aching. I thought I would die. My whole body was shaking. I wasn't really breathing so it made it all even worse... that anxiety attack got me really good in the wrong moment..

I wasn't hurt anywhere but there was broken glass everywhere and I almost died. Who were they ad what did they want from me? Who could do something like that to a girl who's sitting alone in a car?

"ELIJAH!!" I finally screamed and tried to open the door slowly but unfortunately they didn't leave.. one of them got off the motorcycle and was coming towards me with an iron rod..

I screamed so loud and held my breath.. "ELIJAH!"

And the only things I could feel were the pieces of broken glass on my body and in my skin of my bare legs after he shattered the window with the iron rod.. I screamed and covered my head again crying and praying that this only would be a dream because I couldn't stand the pain anymore.

He destroyed his whole car and my heart stopped for more than a second. I couldn't even move anymore because the anxiety got me really good so I stayed in that position until he there something into the car.. first I thought it was a grenade which almost made me freak out but there was only some gas coming out of it.. before I could realize what it was my vision started to blur while I felt the blood running from different spots of my body..

Elijah

I saw how destroyed my car was.. That made my f*****g heart almost jump out of my body... All I was caring about was her. f**k the car. I ran straight to her side and my stomach dropped. She was unconscious and bleeding. My blood was boiling and I was overwhelmed for a second but I had to get her out off it. That was me. I couldn't think with my brain. I was always thinking with my head and handling..

I opened the door.

»Moon..?« her voice was cracking and she was so broken... seeing her like this got me made like crazy mad. I tried to help her but she just winced and screamed. "It hurts.." she said, giving me a sign to stop. I could see that she was struggling with breathing which made me really nervous. I was too because seeing her like that changed me in that second.

She was everything. How could I live if anything would happen to her? How could I let that happen? Usually I never got affected by anything easily because feelings were noting to me but seeing her like this showed me that I should never take her for granted and that she was so fragile.. it showed me how fast she could disappear with a simple mistake of mine..

I totally went crazy like a beast. In that moment I swore myself that I would f**k the person up who did this to her.. I was going to make them regret hey were born.. I was going to torture them and make beg me to kill them. How could they.. scaring her.. making her bleed.. attacking her when she was alone.. crossed my line.. but it was my fault. I shouldn't have let her alone. Especially so easily knowing that a specific bastard was trying to get her. How stupid of me. I was never going to forgive me.. I was so angry.. mostly at myself.

"I..I..can't.." she was shaking and gasping not able to talk or breathe..

"You can. Come on sun. I'll be careful..."

She held onto my arm.

"I..I think I'm going to.. throw up.."

She covered her mouth with her hand trying to hold it back..

"Let it out."

She threw up into the car and I held her hair back. After she let everything out I rushed over to my side and got a water bottle. I helped her to drink but she was still shaking seemed like she was losing her energy. The problem was that I couldn't call a cab because I couldn't tell anybody where I was living or what just happened so I called josh since he wasn't far away.

"Bring me your car and hurry." I hang up without wasting anytime. I told him to stay upstairs in case it could be a trap but unfortunately it wasn't...