Don't let her go.

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Mark I let her take three steps before I moved. Three was all I could manage before the thought of letting her disappear back into the ER—back into whatever weight she carried alone—felt wrong in a way I couldn’t rationalize. This wasn’t impulse the way the hallway had been. This was decision. “Dr. Harper,” I said, not loud, not sharp. Just enough to reach her. She paused. Turned. I lifted a hand slightly, an unconscious signal meant to reassure more than stop. “Melody,” I corrected, softer. “I’m sorry—if you really need to go, I won’t keep you. I just… give me a second.” She studied me, guarded again, that familiar professional composure sliding back into place. But she didn’t leave. I stepped closer, careful to keep distance. I wasn’t trying to corner her. I just needed her to hear me. “I know you said you’re fine,” I began, choosing every word with intention. “And I’m not here to ask you to explain anything you don’t want to. But I want you to know—I saw the pain. Just for a moment. And I don’t think it was nothing.” Her jaw tightened almost imperceptibly. “I’m not asking you to carry it out loud,” I continued. “Some things deserve privacy. But I also know what it looks like when someone has learned to survive by holding everything in.” That got her attention. “I’ve seen a lot of pain,” I said. “And I’ve seen what can grow around it, if someone isn’t forced to hold it alone. I’m not offering solutions. Or expectations. Just… presence.” Silence stretched between us. Not uncomfortable. Not easy either. “I don’t usually do this,” I added quietly. “But I’d regret it if I didn’t ask.” I reached into my coat and pulled out my phone, not handing it to her yet—just making the offer visible, not intrusive. “Coffee was nice,” I said. “If you’d ever want to do dinner—no pressure, no stories required, no assumptions—I’d like that. Or we could just exchange numbers. In case you ever need an ear. Or a distraction.” I met her eyes, steady. Honest. “No expectations,” I repeated. “Just a choice.” I waited. Not pushing. Not filling the space. Just standing there, hoping that for once in her life, someone asking her to stay didn’t feel like a trap. I didn’t rush her. That was the thing I was most aware of in that moment—of keeping myself still, open, nonthreatening. I had spent my life knowing when to apply pressure and when to remove it entirely. This was not a moment for force. This was a moment for patience. I watched her breathe. It was subtle, but I saw it—the way her shoulders lowered just a fraction, the way the tension in her jaw eased enough to signal that she was no longer preparing to deflect, only deciding. Her eyes flicked to the phone in my hand, then back to my face. She searched me, not for charm or reassurance, but for risk. I didn’t give her any. Finally, she reached out. Her fingers brushed mine as she took the phone, and I felt the shift immediately—not electricity, not some dramatic spark, but something quieter and heavier. Trust, even provisional, has weight to it. She typed her number in quickly, efficiently, the way she did everything else. Then she handed the phone back without ceremony. “Call it,” she said. I didn’t smile. I didn’t comment. I just did as she asked. Her phone vibrated in her hand a second later. She glanced down at the screen, my name lighting it up, and nodded once. “Now you have mine,” she said. Something about the simplicity of it lodged in my chest. She hesitated, then spoke again, as if the words surprised her on their way out. “I was… actually planning on going out after my shift anyway.” “Yeah?” I said, careful not to sound like I was leaping at the opening. She nodded, eyes drifting briefly toward the hallway that led back to the ER. “I usually go alone. It’s kind of… a thing I do. Every year.” Every year. The words landed with quiet force. I didn’t ask what for. I didn’t need to. Some patterns announce themselves clearly if you’re paying attention. Annual rituals aren’t casual. They’re anchors. Markers in time. Ways of surviving dates that would otherwise hollow you out. I filed it away without comment, without judgment—but I didn’t miss it. “And I don’t usually invite anyone,” she added, almost reflexively, as if she needed to defend the admission. “So… no promises.” “I wouldn’t expect any,” I said honestly. She studied me again, then nodded. “I’ll text you the place if I’m up for company. Depends how my shift ends.” I heard what she didn’t say. Depends on how much damage today does. “That’s fair,” I said. “Either way.” She slipped her phone into her pocket, already retreating emotionally even as she stayed physically present. I respected it. Some people needed space the way others needed air. “I should really go,” she said. “I know,” I replied. She turned, took a step, then paused. Not looking back this time—but not moving forward either. “Thank you,” she said quietly. “For not pushing.” I didn’t answer right away. Then, “Thank you for not disappearing.” That earned me a glance over her shoulder. Something unreadable passed across her face—surprise, maybe. Or recognition. Then she was gone. I stood there longer than I meant to, phone warm in my hand, the echo of her presence lingering like a held breath. I knew better than to assign meaning too quickly. I knew better than to hope. But I also knew this: People don’t make room on days like that unless it costs them something. And the fact that she’d left the door cracked—even slightly—meant more than she probably realized. I checked the time, then headed back toward the maternity wing, my nephew waiting at the center of a joy I could finally feel fully again. And somewhere between that joy and the quiet weight Melody carried, I understood something clearly for the first time in a long while— Some encounters aren’t meant to fix anything. They’re meant to remind you that even on the hardest days, connection is still possible. I walked back into the maternity room, and the moment I stepped through the door, I knew Tony and Sarah had been waiting. Their eyes were fixed on me, sharp and expectant, like they’d been tracking every movement I made since I left. Tony leaned forward slightly, a grin tugging at the corner of his mouth. “We knew you were going after her,” he said, voice teasing but laced with curiosity. “Heard you page for her at the ER front desk. Smart move.” Sarah nodded, hands clasped lightly in front of her. “We wanted to be here for you, Mark. We know you, and… well, if this is the first woman we’ve actually seen you show a hint of interest in, we don’t want you to scare her off.” I let out a short laugh, shaking my head. “You two are ridiculous.” But beneath the humor, there was a layer of gratitude. They weren’t judging me—they were rooting for me. And maybe that mattered more than I realized. Tony leaned back, crossing his arms. “So? What happened? Spill.” I leaned against the edge of the crib, letting the words come out slowly. “We went for coffee. Walked to a little spot near the atrium. It was… quiet. Comfortable, for once. Not pressuring. She let me buy the drinks and a croissant.” I paused, watching their reactions. “And then?” Sarah prompted softly. “She gave me her number,” I said. The words felt almost surreal even as I said them. “She called her phone while I held mine, so now I have hers. And she told me…” I swallowed slightly, recalling the careful way she had phrased it. “…she was planning on going out after her shift, alone, which she does every year. I don’t think either of you are going to miss what that means.” Tony’s grin softened. He nodded slowly, understanding. “Anniversary of some kind. That’s… significant. She comes back every year. Not casual, not something she takes lightly.” “She also said she might text me the details of the place if she’s up for company,” I added. “It depends on how her shift ends. That’s not her norm, but she left the option open.” Sarah exhaled softly, a small, approving smile on her lips. “See? That’s progress. She’s letting you in, just a little. And you didn’t push. That’s good.” Tony leaned forward again, elbows on his knees. “Exactly. This is your shot, Mark. Don’t mess it up. You’ve got a woman willing to let you in—maybe for the first time—and we’re not going to let you ruin it out of nerves or hesitation.” I let their words sink in, feeling a strange mixture of comfort and responsibility. They weren’t just teasing or meddling—they were grounding me. And as I thought about Melody, the way she had let me see even a fragment of herself, I realized that showing up, listening, and being patient was already more than enough for now. “Thanks,” I said finally. “For… believing I could do this. For being here.” Tony smirked. “We’ve got your back, big brother. Always.” Sarah nodded in agreement. “Now go. Don’t overthink it. She’s waiting for you. Just be… present.” I nodded, a small, steadying smile tugging at my lips. For the first time that day, I felt ready to see her again—not as a stranger in a hallway, not as someone weighed down by past pain—but as a chance at something uncharted, something real.
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