Chapter Eight
“No, it's OK”, I say to him and he just shakes his head, very eager.
“I'm taking you home. I really do not have much to do right now and just let me take you home”, he says. It just feels like there's something he's not exactly saying to me, but I really cannot say such a thing to him. I just do not want him to know where I live. I cannot let him know any more information because if he's able to guess exactly what it is that I do, then actually confirm it was going to be bad.
He was going to know that one of the people that work here and on a specific floor, I had ordered some services in the middle of work hours and I could not have that haunting me.
“No, I'm OK, really”. I say to him and he just shakes his head.
“All right, I'm going to take you home. You just wait right outside of my office and let me finish this one thing up. I'm taking you home no matter what you say. I'm not taking no for an answer”, he says before I finally agree, hesitantly. Yes. I really have no idea why I was agreeing to it in the first place, but actually it was only because he was very. Adamant
. And he was not going to let me get away with it. He was not going to let me. Just walk away without actually accepting his offer. And I just had to realize that that was going to be the case. So I just decided to walk out of the office and take a seat outside of the door, which is where he watched me. Precisely, there was a desk with his assistant, the ones I had bought with clothes, and as I waited there, she just continuously kept looking at me, eyeing me up and down.
With so much disgust towards me, I guess I was used to these kind of looks. I could not be surprised by them any longer. I had learned used to them since I started this job. It had not even been a full month yet, but I had already learned to build some kind of exoskeleton to protect my very sensitive self, my very sensitive vulnerable emotions that are prone to getting hurt very easily. So I tried my heart not to look at her, but she just kept in mind for my attention.
“ So what do you really want here?
You do know you do not stand even a stupid small chance with him, right?” She suddenly asks and I feel very shocked that she's been talking to me right now. I thought she did not want anything to do with me.
“ What? “ I ask her and she'll just rolls her eyes.
“Oh. Does she struggle to comprehend English now?” She asks and I really feel confused right now. I really have no idea why she's staring at me that she's staring at the way she continues to look at me like she's looking at a piece of trash that she really thinks is so smelly. It's just really making me uncomfortable in everything. I want to be in a situation that she's putting me in right now. Whatever you feel like,
I have another option but to actually try to remain calm. You heard what I said. I agree. We're trying to seduce him. I know they're trying to get into his parents, but he does not work like that. Do you know who Damien Ericsson is? He will seriously get hurt, She says to me and I nod my head. I do not mean to hurt anyone or do anything that you do not like happening in this building. He asked me to wait here. I say to her. She just shakes her head.
“ You know his fiance is going to be here in a second now. And when she walks in and finds you here, I don't even want to lie to you.
All hell, it's going to break loose. So if I was you, I would definitely get the hell out of here”. She's basically whispering at this moment because it's very clear to me that she does not want Damien to be hearing about this. He doesn't want him to get into fear with he doesn't want him to interfere with this, so she just continues to say all sorts of hurtful things until eventually I cannot take it anymore.
His fiance…..
I had no idea that he had a fiance and I really meant one thing that I could not there be here at all. If she was just as feisty as she was describing her, I could tell that she was very satisfied. When I decided to actually do what she wanted to do and walk out of the building, I decided to call a taxi and that was it. I really did not want to go and see, you know, again because I really knew what I was going to say.
I really knew that he was going to be very angry. I could really sense it and I had to expect it because it had happened in the one thing that he had told me to never let her anything have happened. And I really had no idea what to even save myself. A kind of excuse I was going to give, but I really was trying my hardest to ignore the fact that it was eating me in life.
Because until I had to deal with it, I could not let it. I could not let it couldn't see me entirely. I could not do that to myself. It would be too much, but it was not working me. Trying to distract myself while I was in the taxi was definitely not working. I suppose I had to be grateful for the fact that he may have bought me some clothes and I don't think or not which is the one that I was very currently, but it was definitely helpful when he decided to help me out. And right now I was dreading a lot of things. So I didn't have a wish to be back home. I was trading seeing you know, again and it was definitely looking too easy for me to be face to face with all my problems and everything that I had caused. But I had to do it eventually. I knew that for a fact.