Chapter One Hundred and One
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My heart was beating hard against my chest as I tried to figure out where all of this was going to be leading. I wish I was not such an expert at doing such things. I wish it was not so easy for me to start anticipating, to start imagining how things were going to end up with him before I get a signal to where things are headed.
Because right now I was just trying to look at his face and see what he was thinking, but I was really not getting much. I should have known better than to even attempt to do so because you was always the case with him. It was always the case that I will never ever know what he's actually thinking every single time that I look at him.
Even if I tried to read him as hard as it was, maybe I had to be happy with that. Ma
