My Best Friend's Daughter

I know it's wrong of me to think of her in that kind of way, but I can't help myself. I watched her grow up from the time she was born and up until now. Hell, I was even the first one to hold her when she was born. Yet I can't help the feelings that is growing inside of me. I want to talk to someone about this, but I don't have to many friends and the ones I do have talk way too much for my liking and it will get back to my best friend. Something I don't won't to happen, her friendship means more to me then my own happiness but how long will I be able to go without acting on my feelings. I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard my assistant calling my name. “Your next client is here.” I nodded my head letting her know she can send my client in. I got myself together and pushed away all my personal problems. Can't have my clients thinking I have lost my mind in here. There was a knock at the door and I told the person on the other side of it to come in. Once the client came in I gave my winning smile and stood up to shake her hand. “Welcome to Abigail's Law Firm. I'm Abigail Foster.” “Thank you, I was surprise when my friend told me about the Law Firm. I'm Angie Jones.” We both took our seats, me sitting behind the desk facing her. I offer her something to drink before we got started because I know how long this is going to take well that depends on what her case is and what happen. “So, tell me Ms. Jones why are you here?” “A month ago, I was out shopping with a friend and we went into one of the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner and while walking down one of the aisle I slipped and fell on something wet and come to find out one of the employees had cleaned that aisle. Normally I wouldn't be going through this much trouble to make someone pay but I lost something that was dare to me and I can never get it back. I lost my unborn child that day, and now the company is acting like it's not in the wrong for what happen, and I am even banned from going back into the store.” I listen to her case and we have a good case going on here but the only thing I need is some proof I wonder if she has any pictures and I would also need the hospital reports. Before I was even able to ask her for these things she begin to speak again. “I been trying to get so many lawyers to take my case and everyone keep asking for down payments and with the hospital bills, I am out of money and this is the last place I have to turn to.” “I'm sorry you’re going through all of this. Any lawyer would be crazy to not take your case. Here we don't ask for any money up front. We only get paid when you win your case and if you don't win you don't pay but I am sure you will win this case and might put this store out of business. We will sue for everything, but first do you have any proof of this.” She nodded her head and pulled out some papers in her bag. I went through them and everything I need is right here. Pictures of when she fell, hospital reports, police reports and even a statement from her friend who she was with. I smiled at her and told her that she has herself a lawyer. Normally I would pass the cases down to one of my lawyers in my law firm, but I want to see this case through myself. “I will write up your case and serve the papers to the store owner myself. I will also need your friend to come to me as well, so I can make sure her statement is the same as it is in the report because they will ask her to make a statement in court.” “Thank you so much for taking on my case. I know it won't bring my unborn back, but it will help me take care of the hospital bills and be able to pay you as well.” “Your more than welcome and I am sorry for your lost. I will see you next week before court.” We said our goodbyes and I made my assistant make sure she left the building okay. I don't need anyone suing me. Once my assistant was back I told her to cancel everything else for today. I need some time alone and honestly, I needed to see my therapist. She is the only one I can talk to without no one else finding out about my dark secret. I left my office letting my assistant know she is free for the next two days since I have to fly out to my parents tomorrow. I hate not being at work and I really hate going to my parents. They know I like women and they always try to fix me up with their friend’s daughter. One year I did go along with it and dated one, but it didn't end well. She was a free loader and I didn't need that in my life. I guess that's why I have a thing for Elizabeth. She is the first woman to have a law degree at the age of 20 and was top of her class. That is someone I would love to have by my side but how can I when her mom is my best friend. Don't think of me as some pervert because that's not what I am. I didn't start feeling this till about a year ago, at her 20th birthday and now she is about to be 21 in a few days. Flash back I had just made it to the party even though I didn't think I would make it since I was so busy with work but I had promise Elizabeth that I would make it to her party because she kept begging me to come and take a break from working. So here I am walking up to the house where everyone is outside and some inside. I walked inside to see if I can find Elizabeth or Jennifer. It took me a little while to find them, but I finally did. They were outside in the back dancing together having a mother and daughter dance. It looked so beautiful and Liz looked even more beautiful, she was wearing a short white dress with her hair pinned up into a nice bun and a crown to let everyone know that it was her day. I couldn't help but stare at her. It was like I was seeing her for the very first time. She must have felt me staring at her because she turned around and looked at me and gave me her beautiful smile. I could have swearing that my heart stop and started back up. I didn't understand why my heart was beating so fast while she was walking over to me. “You finally made it. I didn't think you was gone come which was making me feel sad on my special day.” I gave her a smile and nodded my head because I didn't trust my own voice. I'm lawyer for crying out loud I don't stutter, and I wasn't gone start. We just stood there looking at each other and I was the one who broke the staring contest we were having. “Here I picked this out for you I hope you like it.” I waited while she opened her gift and I noticed the biggest smile on her face. You would have thought she had found a pot of gold or something, that's how big her smile was on her face. “Thank you so much, I been dying to get my hands on one these for so long.” She pulled me into a tight hug and I was able to smell the body wash she use and even the shampoo she used. I felt like I was in heaven when I was in her arms. Maybe I should buy her all the new iPhone that comes out if she's going to hold me like this. End of flash back I finally had made it to my therapist office, lucky me she had an available appointment. I walked into her office and set down on the couch that was available for her clients. I wasn't too sure about talking about this with her but who else can I talk to that will give me advice about what to do with my feelings. I set here in her office waiting for her to come in. I do remember her saying that she was finishing up with her other appointment and wanted me to wait in her personal office. You see my therapist is also my baby sister Alice. She always knew when to be professional and when to be a brat. I have three other siblings, there is five of us total and Alice is everyone's favorite, but she is my little Al, and everyone know not to come between us or mess with her, even my parents know when not make her upset. I turned toward the door as I hear someone opening it from the other side. In walks Alice with a smile on her face. “Hi, Abbi what brings you here today.” “I'm having a problem, but I need you to promise me that you won't judge me for what I need help with.” “I promise I am all ears.” I nodded my head and begin telling her about the problem I am having. I am not sure what she is thinking as I am telling her all of this. I even told her about what happen at Elizabeth 20th birthday party. By the time I was done telling her the story I'm sure that my face was as red as a tomato. Just thinking about her makes my heart beat even faster, let alone sitting here talking about her to my sister. I am just hoping that it is a silly crush that I have going on. Maybe it's because I haven't been in a relationship for so long that my heart picked up on the first person that has been sweet, kind, loving, and oh so beautiful. “Okay I got it. You’re in love with your best friend's daughter but your trying your hardest to not act on your feelings but you are not even sure if Elizabeth feel the same way about you, but you don't even won't to know because it will be hard to handle. Am I right?” “Yes, that is what I just said. Alice, I don't know what to do about this. I'm trying my hardest to not even think about the feelings that are inside of me. And it doesn’t even help when Elizabeth always texting me in the morning with these sweet morning text.” “Maybe she does feel the same about you but is thinking the same as you. You just have it harder because you been friends with her mother for so long and I know you don't won't to mess that up. I can see that this alone is putting a lot of stress on you.” “Your right, it's been so long since I been this stress. I think I'll just head home and call it an early night. I haven't been sleeping that well.” I got up and hugged my sister before leaving out of her office. Maybe I'm just making a big deal out of nothing. I do some time over think things but again what if I am not over thinking things. I can truly lose the one person who been there for me since the day we met. I don't think my heart can take losing Jen. I drive to get something to eat before heading to the house. A house that is big and lonely. I'm sure Elizabeth will love living here. She always told me she wanted to live closer to the beach. She said she just wanted to be able to see the sunset every night before going to bed. That is one reason why I bought this house. For when her and Jen comes to spend the night. I pulled myself out of my thoughts when I see my house come into view. I pulled into the driveway and got out of the car. I walked into my house and set at the table and begin to eat the food I got on the way home. By the time I was down eating I was ready to get into bed, but I needed to shower first. I walked into my room and went into the bathroom and started the shower up. I place my clothes into the clothes hamper and stepped into the shower. I let out a sigh when the hot water touched my body. I can just feel the release of stress easing off my body. After my shower I set on my bed looking at TV but more of it looking at me while I was stuck in my own thoughts. Talking to her is just not something I can do. It's her daughter that I love with every part of me. I can't afford to lose her friendship, maybe I should just let this silly crush pass by. Before I was done with my own thoughts my phone start to ring. I looked at the screen and seen it was Jennifer calling. I looked at the phone because I wasn't sure if I should answer it or not. Before I was finally about to answer she hung up. Should I call her back, maybe I should just let it be. I'll call her back tomorrow. I place my phone on the night stand and laid down in the bed. I hate going to be alone. I wish I was in her arms. I went to bed with a smile on my face and with her on my mind.