Third Times The Charm

Was this the fear he felt when he decided to go down on his knees and ask me to spend the rest of his life with him? The fear of not knowing if the other person was on the same page with the same feelings, or if everything will change because of this choice you have made. It felt like my heart jumped with every light change as the elevator went up towards the top, my throat started closing as I wonder if I was going overboard with what I was wearing. It was one of those sexy wedding dresses one would dress up for a party, my makeup was done very lightly and my hair curled and held at the back with a flower clip. The flowers I was holding held a box on top, inside was his ring that I hid away since I was eighteen years old. The chime of the elevator woke me up as the doors slid open, the floor was very quiet for a monday morning. I stepped out to find the reception table empty, for once I felt a bit relieved at not seeing Julie sitting there all beautiful like a painting being displayed. Shaking out my hands I headed towards his office when I heard his voice coming from the boardroom, my ears went silent as I stares at the doors that was closes between us. Was this some sign that was sent to me? Shaking my head I tried to calm down my nerves, I really have become superstitious because of my work. I took a deep breath and opened the door just as the room became silent, it felt you could hear a needle drop at that very moment. Everyone's attention was on me even Julie that was sitting next to Carter, they all looked taken aback except for Carter that looked at me with that cold expression. What did you even expect Elsine, you stepped into his office wearing almost nothing and planned to ask him to marry you? Taking another breath I walked towards him, ignoring everyone except for those cold golden eyes that could stare into my soul and see what I never wanted anyone else to see. I stopped in front of him, giving what I hoped was a bright smile and not that nervous one for a few minutes before going down on one knee and opening the ring box. "Carter Mc Nelly, I have been in love with you from the age of five. I was an i***t when I said no when I was eighteen and twenty-one, I had to live with the regret and ran away until you pulled me back to reality. You were right, I'm a very superstitious person and I have no idea if you could ever love me but I do know that they say the third times the charm. So I would not want to live in regret anymore and would like to spend the rest of my life with you. Would you like to spend that time only with me?" I couldn't stop my voice that broke on the end, or my body that shook wildly with nerves. I lost count for how long I was down on my knees, waiting for an answer that never came. He just stared at me with a frown now between his eyes and his lip that was pulled thin in displeasure, my heart sunk as I realise that I was truly to late. How could I even expect him to say yes when I was the reason his life was in danger. So without wasting another minute I stood up from my place, giving him wat I hope was a magnificent smile that was hiding every single pain away. "I hope that you'll have a fantastic life." I told him, giving him my farewell. I walked out with my shoulders held high, trying to remember when the next flight will be to use as my escape. There should be a burial ground in Cuba that a boy found, Andrew was so excited when he talked about it. I closed the box as I waited patiently for the elevator to open up, cringing when I couldn't stop that sniff from escaping and the tears that followed. The doors opened and I took a step into what looks like will be a very lonely life, leaning against the wall I closed my eyes and waited for the doors to close. They were sliding shut when suddenly it was pushed open, I opened my eyes to give this idiotic person the talk of his life when my voice got stuck in my throat. I just couldn't believe it, maybe just maybe there was a bit of hope and it was that bit of hope that had my heart beating wildly as the doors slid shut and trapped me inside with an unknown future.