Fated to the White Wolf: Book 2 The Lotus Pack series

Chapter 5

***Carter’s POV***

I felt a hand on my check and jumped out of the memory. I looked at Charlie and took in a deep breath, trying to slow down my racing heart. I looked down at my hands again.

“I haven’t talked to anyone about this, not even Tobias, because he was always busy with his Alpha training and I didn’t want to bother him with my life. Ivy knows about it but only because her powers showed her and I told her not to tell anyone, but I think she told Tobias about it because he asked me about it the other day-”

“Carter, stop your spiraling again, just breathe and when you are ready I am here to listen.” I grabbed hold of his hand and looked into his eyes. I took in a deep breath and continued.

“When I first started middle school, I found out that I was gay. I was so excited because I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I tried to like girls and I even went out with one, but it never felt right, then when I finally found out why, it was like the world had lighted up, it wasn’t so dark and lonely anymore. I was walking to the Packhouse with Tobias from school that afternoon and the Alpha court up to us saying that my father needed to talk to me about something. He told me that night I was to be the next Beta of the Pack. I was so happy that I told my father then that I was gay and that I was in love with a boy from school. He didn’t take it well. After my mother had die he was never the same. He drank a lot, and he became angry at the world. When I told him, he turned around and said that no son of his is allowed to like boys, that if I wanted to be the next Beta of this Pack, I had to stop these heinous fantasies.” I looked over at Charlie, and he looked like he could kill someone. I let go of his hand thinking he was mad at me and looked away from him.

“How could your own father say that?” he growled and grabbed hold of my hand, he squeezed it.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to growl. That just broke my heart. How could a parent say that to their child?”

“It gets worse. Are, are you sure you want me to tell you this?”

“Yes, I would like to know. Maybe talking about it will help you.”

“Okey, but I did warn you.” I said with raised eyebrows. He rolls his eyes and I chuckle at him. I sighed and continued.

“I told him that it wasn’t a fantasy and that it was true. He got even angrier at me for saying that and punched me in the face, I fell to the floor, and he kicked me over and over in the stomach and the head. I hadn’t realized that he had been drinking all day until he picked me up by the scruff of my neck and I could smell it on his breath. When i came home he had a bottle open in his hand but i though he had just opened that but i was wrong. I didn’t like it when he drunk, and I would usually stay with Tobias when he did so I didn’t get hurt. Anyway, he threw me into my room and beat me all night. The next day he wouldn’t let me leave the house until I got the idea of liking boys out of my head. I didn’t leave the house for 6 months. He eventually took me down to the basement and chained me to the wall with sliver. He said that until I got the notion of liking boys out of my head, then he would beat it out of me. Night and day he would come down and ask me if I still had those feelings. I would tell him that I still liked boys, and he would continue to hit me until I passed out.”

“Why didn’t you just tell him that you didn’t think that anymore, then you could have gotten out of there?” Charlie asked with tears in his eyes.

“I wasn’t going to lie anymore, I was finally happy that I figured out what was going on with me, I wasn’t going to let anyone take it away from me.” Charlie nodded and lent his head on my chest.

“The last time I saw him he came down to the basement with a whip in his hand and asked me the same question. I hadn’t changed my mind, he growled and started whipping me across the legs with it and said that this is what it feels like to like boys and that I will never be his son again. I held my breath, so I wouldn’t scream and when he had finished, he took a steal rod and hit me over the head. I woke up three days later just outside the Pack boarder, I had a few broken ribs, and my wrists were red and roar from the chains. I thought about becoming a rogue and living my life free from my father and what my life would be like without having all the Pack reasonabilities, but I couldn’t leave Tobias, not because I liked him like that, but because he was my brother and I couldn’t run away from my reasonabilities. So I ran to the one place that I had always felt safe, the lake. I stayed there for a week until I healed. Tobias showed up one day and saw me floating in the middle of the lake. He swam over to me and asked where I had been. I was going to tell him, but I didn’t want to burden him with my life, I just said that we had been away and only go back yesterday, I also told him that I found out I was gay. I braced myself. I didn’t know what he was going to do, I was so scared that he was going to act like my father had that I was preparing myself for a life of a rogue. I looked at him when he didn’t say anything, and he had a massive smile on his face. It warmed my heart, he wrapped me in a hug and said that it was great and that he was so excited. As he did that we started to sink under the water. We let go of each other and laughed, we swam back over to the sore. He asked if I had a crush on anyone and I told him about Brody. He was so excited and he wanted to know everything. I stayed with him that night and the next day I went back home. I wanted to confront my father and ask him why he treated me like that, but he wasn’t home, so I grabbed my stuff and I moved into the Packhouse. I was so confused, why did he beat me for liking a boy and not be excited or happy for me like Tobias was. About five years ago there was a rogue attack in the village, and he died. I was angry at him for so long for treating me that way and I never understood why,” I said, and I looked over at Charlie. He had tears running down his face. I pulled him to me.

“I’m okey Charlie, it’s in the past. I know I am still struggling with it, but it is getting easier.” I soothed him. We laid down and he cuddled into me tighter.

“I’m so sorry that happened to you. How did no one notice what was happening?” Charlie sat up and looked into my eyes.

“I don’t know, maybe he said something to the Alpha, that I was being home school, or he was training me for the Beta role. I don’t know, I will probably never know.” He pulled me into a tight hug and I breathed in his scent.

“Come on let’s get some sleep, I have to get up early tomorrow.” Charlie growled and I chuckled at him, he placed his head on my chest and I wrapped my arms tightly around him.

“I love you Carter and nothing is going to change that.” I kissed the top of his head and we fell asleep.

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I felt Charlie move beside me and I jumped awake. I looked over at the clock, it was 10:30am. I grumbled and laid my head back on the pillow. Carter, are you awake yet? Tobias mind-linked me. F*ck off. I grumbled back to him. Come on mate, that’s not very nice, I let you sleep in, but we really need to get moving. I sighed. Come on, get up and get ready. We have a meeting in an hour. Yes boss. I said sarcastically, he chuckled and closed the link, I looked over to Charlie. He was still asleep. I really didn’t want to wake him up, but I knew that he would be pissed if I didn’t say goodbye. I lent over and kissed the top of his head, he stirred and looked up at me.

“Good morning love.” I said to him. He smiled at me. He stretched and turned on his side to face me.

“What time is it?”

“It’s 10:30 in the morning.” Charlie gasped and sat up.

“Tobias is going to kill you.”

“Charlie calm down, he let us sleep in, but I have to get ready, we have a meeting in an hour.” I smiled and got out of bed. I took a quick shower and changed into my work suit. I stepped out of the bathroom and saw Charlie sitting on the bed in his training gear.

“Wow, you need to wear a suit more often.” He said, fanning his face. I chuckled and walked over to him, I grabbed hold of his hand and we headed downstairs. I noticed Charlie starting to get anxious through the bond and I turned to face him.

“Hey, everything will be fine. Why don’t we go for a run when I get back? How does that sound?”

“I think that can be arranged.” He said, smiling up at me. I lent down and gave him a kiss goodbye, he continued to walk outside for the Pack run. I looked at my watch and saw that it was almost 11. I sighed and I heard someone walking down the stairs. I turned around and saw Ivy walking down. She looked pissed.

“Good morning Luna, your look as beautiful as always.” I said, chuckling at her. She smiled, then pulled the finger at me and laughed. She continued to walk out of the Packhouse to start the Pack run. I opened the mind-link to Tobias. You owe me one for missing out on training this morning. Charlie was not happy that I was leaving after what happened three weeks ago. I’m sorry Carter, but this has to be done. Don’t worry, I’m sure he will forgive you. He chuckled at me. You better be down by the car in five minutes or so help me Moon Goddess, I will kick your bubble butt to the other side of the Packlands. I grumbled at him. Sir Yes sir. I rolled my eyes and blocked him. I waited in the foyer and five minutes later he was walking down the stairs with a big smile on his face. When he walked over to me I whacked him over the head.

“Hey, what the hell was that for?” He grumbled, rubbing the back of his head.

“That’s from Charlie.” I chuckled, just then Rose walked out of the kitchen and handed us both a travel mug filled with coffee and a muffin each.

“Now you boys behave yourselves and be back before dinner.” She said.

“Yes mum.” We teased her, we headed out to the SUV. I got into the driver’s side and turned the car on while Tobias got into the passenger side and got out his phone. I drove us out of the Packhouse. Just as we were about to cross the border, I got a loud panicked mind-linked and slammed on the breaks.

ROGUES!