Arise, Lorie

Do you have faith? Do you believe in impossible things? Do you believe in Deities?  Hi, good day/good evening. I am Lorie Ferdz. Yes, I have a simple name. No second name. They call me, Lor or sometimes Rie. I am just a simple woman. I am tall and have fair skin. I look fit but not skinny. I spent my weekdays at my apartment and office, and during Sundays, I went to church. Yes, I do believe in Deities. They can do impossible things for us. As long as, you have a good and pure heart while praying to them. And I believe that they always heard our prayers to them. Then, just wait for their answers, but sometimes they do not. Anyways, I am a patient woman. And I am very hopeful that one day, the Deity will answer my prayers.  My typical day starts at 5 am. Drinking coffee with a biscuit or bread then prepare to go to the office. At 5 pm, I am already leaving from office to go home, to my apartment. I rented an apartment near to my office because my hometown in a city is too far and the traffic from there is horrible. So my travel time from my apartment to the office is just 30 minutes. I saved a lot of time and money with my transport expenses. Once to twice a month, I visit my family in our hometown.  I don't have any problem with them because my parents have still jobs. I am the second child of the family. My big brother has a job also. They taught me at a young age to become independent already. When I started to go on my way already, we just communicate through the use of social media.  I am just an office lady. I work in a great company, non-toxic working environment, and officemates. And I am blessed with my boss because he is very understanding and humble. All in all, I have no problem in the office. But, I am not happy with my job, the things that I did every day. This is not my dream. These are not the things that make me happy. Yes, my salary can help me with my bills, needs, wants and at the same time, I can provide something to my family. But I have no motivation to wake up every day. And this is what I prayed always to Deity. I prayed that I want to become more than this. I am tired of facing my laptop or my desktop every day. I want my whole body to function and move. Before I get to college, I dreamt to become a model. An international model. Either a model of beauty products, clothes, accessories, makeups, or a runaway model. I am very interested in watching vlogs of the models, runway shows, and other videos related to modeling. They say I have a good face and skin because I treat myself by buying skincare products hahaha and I consistently use it. My height can be considered because I am 5'9. But I think being a runaway model is not for me, because I am not that skinny. I just started working out lately. From birth, I was lucky to grown up to be health-conscious. My family lives a healthy lifestyle. We love to eat veggies, fruits and fish. We eat meats but occasionally only.  If a runaway model is not for me, I hope that there will be an option in the modeling world for me. As time goes by, I finished a degree in college and landed an office-based job. I am already in 2 years in our company. I know I said, I am a patient woman. But now, I realized that I feel so empty and I am thinking that, what if today, I am working in a modeling agency, reading emails and invitations from big fashion companies in the world to ask me to do a photoshoot with their brands. I don't want to become a popular "It Girl" in the fashion world. I just want to face on a camera, do a pose and wear beautiful clothes. And of course, getting a high salary with great benefits like traveling to different countries. You know, getting paid plus enjoying your job. I like this kind of job not just because of the salary and benefits, but also to feel confident about myself. Not to gain popularity but to have an extreme feeling of motivation in loving myself. I really hope that this is my current job. For now, this is just all my dreams.