Childhood Friendship (Glee Fanfiction)

Chapter 18

My weekend with my old friends been so good. We went to cinema and watched movie. But we watched horror movie and I cant leave my hand of from Finn's.

And I've been thinking about the things he said. He want to show the love to me and until now I'm still cant see it but I'm sure he will show it to me.

Then about the things he told me. Yeah, I've been thinking about what he said. I shouldnt let Finn kissed me when the fact I'm dating Sam. But I cant get through that. The way Finn kissed me is always different and I always love that.

Now I'm standing next to Sam's locker and looking at Finn who walk in the hallways and playing with his football ball amd laughing with the jocks. Meanwhile Sam is busy with his locker stuff.

Even when I'm with Sam, I cant stop thinking about Finn. I cant get him out of my mind. Is it what some people called love?

Emily:

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on

Where do I go?

I guess second best

Is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best?

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now, now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

'Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay... stay.

"Hey come on." Sam shows his hand to me.

"I'm forget that I have to meet the directors for the callbacks. See you!" I wave Sam's goodbye and run away.

I just dont know what to do. I guess that I should end up my relationship with Sam. I dont know what I feel. I'm lost. I dont have anyone to talk. I want to talk with Rachel about this but she is Finn's ex-girlfriend and I dont wanna hurt her. I usually tell Finn everything but now I cant tell this thing to him.

I walk in the hallways and enter Ms. Pillsburry office for the callback but coach Beiste and Artie isnt coming yet.

"Hey you came faster, Madison." Ms. Pillsburry smiles at me.

"Can I get a concelor first? I need someone to talk like really and I cant tell this to Finn." I sigh.

"Well, let's have a seat." Ms. Pillsbury says and points to the sit in front of her table. "And tell me your problem."

"I'm dating Sam but I let Finn kissed me. On Friday night, I was alone in my bedroom and finishing the costume then Finn came and we kissed. After that he asked me why I let him did that when I shouldnt. I answered because his lips is really soft and we just having a sweet bestfriend kisses..."

"Oh my gosh, you cheated on Sam." Ms. Pillsbury says.

"Finn said so. But I consider my kisses with Finn as 'Sweet best friend kisses' and the big big problem is I cant get Finn out of my mind." I sigh.

"Do you love Sam?" Ms. Pillsbury asks me.

"I dont even know what love is." I shrug.

"Love is when someone put yourself as his number one and himself as the second one. He let himself get hurt to see you happy. He will do anything to make you smile. That's love. Just like what Finn did to you. He let himself hurt when he told you that shouldnt kissed him because you have Sam." Ms. Pillsburry says to me.

"Finn loves me?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Probably. We dont know what's on his heart, Madison. You just need to make a decision. Sam or Finn. But if you love two person at the same time, choose the second one because if you love the first, you wont fall for the second." Ms. Pillsbury smiles at me.

"Thank you so much, Ms. Pillsburry." I smile back at her.

"It's okay." She nodded and smiles at me.

I just being quiet and hold my hand. I dont know who should I choose but I cant get Finn out of my mind and I know what I did to Sam was wrong.

"Where is coach Beiste and Artie." Ms. Pillsburry mumbles and look at her watch.

I turn my face at my watch and I see coach Beiste already late for about fifteen minutes and I dont know where they were.

"Shall I search them in boys locker room?" I ask Ms. Pillsburry.

"You're not allowed to enter boys locker room, Madison." Ms. Pillsburry says to me. "Just wait for them." Ms. Pillsburry half-smiled at me.

"Alright." I nodded and keep looking at my watch.

"Sorry kids, we're late. There was a trouble in boys locker room." Coach Beiste and Artie walks in.

"What happened, coach?" Ms. Pillsburry asks.

"Finn and Sam fighted and Mike said it's been twice. I just dont understand what is the thing they been fighting of." Coach Beiste sighs and sit down on a seat next to me.

It must be because of me again. Sam might think that I ran for Finn and since Sam cant beat me so he blamed everything to Finn.

Finn's POV

I'm standing in front of my locker in boys locker room and looking at Madison's little picture that I placed here to motivated me.

"I told you many times to stay away from my girlfriend!"

Sam suddenly push me up against the locker and punch me. "What the hell are you talking about?!" I punch him back.

We then start fighting to each other and nobody separated us. I hate what he is doing to me. I just wont let anyone else be with Madison.

"Enough! What the hell are you guys doing?!" Coach Beiste yelled and separated our body.

"I told you to stay away from her!" Sam yelled at me.

"Oh really? Dude, she doesnt even know she loves you or not!" I yelled back.

Sam turn around and about to punch me again but coach Beiste take his body and hold him. "If you both fight again, I will bring this to principal Figgins!" Coach Beiste yelled at us.

"It's been twice, coach." Mike frowns.

"Now everybody out!" Coach Beiste yelled to us.

"This is sucks!!" I yelled and kick the towel rack and walk off from the boys locker room.

I walk in the hallways and turn my way to boys toilet. I got bruise on my eyes again and my fist swollen. I just dont understand what the hell is wrong with Sam.

I know Sam and Madison is might be fighted and Sam always throw his anger at me because he might think that I was the trouble maker. Well I wasnt but I wont give up to get Madison back. No, I have to steal her from Sam. Madison is mine.

Madison's POV

"I'm so happy that you guys wanna come for this callbacks and we have something important to tell." Ms. Pillsburry says.

"By the audition that you both have a strong voice and same strong confidence so we'd like to held Maria-off." I said to Rachel and Mercedes as they both sitting in front of us.

"Let me get this straight. You can’t make up your minds, so we have to try out again?" Mercedes frowns at us.

"In the biz, it’s called a callback. With such an iconic role as Maria, it can’t appear as if they’re just giving me the part." Rachel says.

"We’d like you both to come back on Tuesday for the ultimate Maria-off." Artie says.

"Done. I can’t speak for Mercedes, but I’ll be singing the timeless Maria classic 'I Feel Pretty'." Rachel proudly.

"No. No." I shake my head.

"Actually, that’s too easy, Rachel. We’ve picked a song that we think has the potential to show off both of your talents, in unexpected ways." Ms. Pillsburry says.

"Out Here On My Own from the seminal behind-the-scenes musical, Fame." Artie says and give the music sheets to them.

"I know it." Rachel simply said.

"I lived it." Mercedes simply said.

The bell rings. Mercedes and Rachel stand up from their seat and walk off. I need to focus but I cant. I need to find out why Rachel and Finn broke up.

"Excuse me, I gotta go." I said to them and went out from Ms. Pillsburry's office. I look around in the hallways until I see Rachel just turn around and about to walk away. "Rachel!" I shout and run to her.

"What? You guys already decided that I got the part?" Rachel grins at me.

"No. I dont wanna say things about that. I wanna ask about someone." I said to Rachel.

"Who?" Rachel raises her eyebrows.

"Finn." I simply said. "You didnt tell me what is your real reason why you break up with him okay. And I'm confused right now."

"Okay first of all. I already told you that I broke up with him because I wanna reach my dream. Nothing else." Rachel says to me.

"Dont lie to me. Please tell me the truth." I begged.

"He is into you. You're his one true love and I dont wanna force him to date me to make me happy. I let him go. You deserve someone like him and-and he deserves someone like you. For now, I just wanna focus on my dream and no distraction. I'm fine. Dont worry about me. Just think about your love okay." Rachel smiles at me and walk off.

"I dont even know what is love, Rachel." I mumbled and lean against the locker.

It's just really hard for me. But now I guess I know what should I do. I have to talk to Sam. Right now.

Suddenly my phone is vibrating again. I look at the screen and Sam texted me that he wanna talk to me. I let out a sigh and put my phone to my pocket and start walking.

I keep walking in the hallways then turn my way to empty Science classroom and Sam is there andcompress his eyes with ice bag.

"You fighted again with Finn?" I walk in and take that ice bag and compress his eyes.

"You came here to blame me because I beated your beloved best friend? He beated me up." Sam says to me.

"Sam, I'm really sorry. I was having a meeting with musical drama and coach Beiste just walked in and told me." I said to Sam.

"Have you ever think about me once? I cant stop thinking about you. I miss you every day even I saw you every day." Sam says.

"I'm sorry. I know I've been busier these days." I said sadly and let my head down.

"Mad, do you love me?"

I just being quiet and keep my head down. I dont know how to answer this. I dont know what I feel.

"Answer me." Sam cup my cheek and make my face turns at him.

"I-I-I dont even know what love is. I dont why people can fall in love at each other. I dont even know what I felt." I said to him.

"Finn was right. You didnt even know you love me or not. You know what? You never say you love me too when I say I love you. I dont even feel like I have a girlfriend." Sam says to me.

I just let my head down and look at the ground. Yeah I know that I hurt Sam and I dont know what to do.

"I-I-I let Finn kissed me."

"What?!" Sam yelled.

"I'm sorry, Sam. I'm really sorry." I'm crying.

"You know what? What the other people said was right. You're stupid! How to hell you could let Finn kissed you when you know that you date me? Huh! You're really stupid!" Sam yelled angrily at me.

"I'm sorry! I'm lost!" I'm crying and yelled back at him.

"Dude, back off!" A voice behind us.

I turn my face and Finn walks in enter this classroom. I'm still crying and I just dont want them to fight or anything.

"Can you just leave, Finn?" I'm sobbing.

"No. He doesnt need to because I'm leaving I think I'm done with you. I though you were different but you are same like the others girl. Even you more stupid than Brittany." Sam shakes his head and walk out from this classroom.

I know it would end up like this. Finn already remind me since the first time and I know I shouldnt let Finn kissed me when I'm dating Sam. But now it's over.

I'm still crying and sit down on this empty table. I'm not crying because of I broke up with Sam but it's because the way he called me stupid like that. It's hurt me.

"He need to apologize by calling you stupid." Finn says and walk away.

"Finn!" I stand up from my seat and run away to get Finn.

I look around until I see Finn holds Sam's collar shirt in the hallways and glares at him. "You called her stupid? You can break up with her like that and you can mad at me or punch me because I kissed her but called her stupid? I wont forgive you!"

"Enough!" I yelled and crying.

Finn leaves Sam's shirt slowly and turn his face at me. "You know what, dude? Everyone in this earth knows if you let another guy kissed you, it's cheated. And she didnt know about that? How stupid she is." Sam glares at Finn.

"Take your words back!" Finn yelled and about to punch Sam again.

"I said enough!" I yelled to stop him.

"I'm done with both of you!" Sam glares at Finn and I then walk away.

"What are you looking at? Go away!" Finn yelled as the crowded around us.

I'm still standing with my head down and crying. This is really embarassing and hurts. I cant believe that this is really happening.

Suddenly a warm big body hug me and comfort me. "I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I shouldnt kiss you or even let him call you stupid. You're not like that, Maddy. You're perfect." Finn rubs my back.

"I deserved that. I hurt him." I'm crying.

"No, you're not." Finn still hugging me. "Come on, I'll drive you home." Finn says to me.

I just nodded and leave his body. Why my relationship never end up well? Why it always ended up like this? I'm really bad at the relationship.

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"Just stop thinking what Sam said. You're not stupid. You're just too innocent. Remember when you told me that the one who know you is yourself? Sam didnt know about you. Just screw him." Finn says to me as I keep compressing his eyes with ice bag.

"I'm sorry because of me, your eyes full with bruise and your fist full with swollen. I'm really sorry." I said to Finn.

"That's okay. At least you finally can stop crying." Finn smiles at me.

"Thank you." I smile back at him. "It's just not even a year I'm in McKinley but I already made many enemies." I sigh.

"They just dont know you like I do. They didnt understand about you like I do." Finn says to me.

"Because you know me so bad. Even I guess you know what colour of my underware." I chuckle.

"Okay for that I dont know and I dont want to know. I'm not a naughty guy like that." Finn chuckles. "If I were Puck, well maybe. But this is me. Finn Hudson." Finn smiles at me.

"Yeah you are not him and you're not like that because I know that." I chuckle.

"You know me better than myself." Finn says to me.

I just give him a shyly smile then he smiles back at me until he cup my cheek and pull my face closer to him.

"I-I cant." I stop him.

"Why? I though you really love our sweet best friend kisses." Finn says to me.

"I really do. But I dont want to kiss anyone until I know what love is." I said to Finn and stand up from my seat. "These ice cube already melted. I will change another one. Stay here." I said to Finn and went out from his room.

I'm sorry, Finn. I dont want to kiss you because I dont even know what my hearts feel. It's really sucked me up and I'm tired with that.

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Now we are in auditorium for Maria-off between Rachel and Mercedes to get Maria part. I'm sitting down on the my seat with coach Beiste, Artie, and Ms. Pillsburry. We invite the glee club to see who their performance also their confidence in front of the audience.

"So, you both will sing one song and the winner is not winning by votes but by our result. So dont even try to bribe these audience." Artie says.

"Whoever will win, will get the Maria parts for the West Side Story. And I hope both of you can accept the winner with a big heart." I said to them.

Artie nodded to the band and the music start playing. They standing on the stage with black dresses and standing microphone in front of them.

Mercedes:

Sometimes I wonder where I've been

Who I am, do I fit in

Make believin' is hard alone,

Out here on my own

Rachel:

We're always provin' who we are

Always reachin' for the risin' star

Mercedes:

To guide me far and shine me home

Out here on my own

Rachel:

When I'm down and feelin' blue

Mercedes:

I close my eyes, so I can be with you

Mercedes and Rachel:

Oh, baby, be strong for me

Baby, belong...

Rachel:

To me

Mercedes:

Help me through

Help me need you

Rachel:

Sometimes I wonder where

Mercedes:

I've been

Rachel:

Who I am, do I fit in

I may not win

But I can't be thrown

Mercedes (with Rachel):

Out here, oh

On my (own)

Out here

Rachel:

On my

Mercedes:

Own

Mercedes:

Sometimes I wonder where I've been

Who I am, do I fit in

Make believin' is hard alone,

Out here on my own

Rachel:

We're always provin' who we are

Always reachin' for the risin' star

To guide me far and shine me home

Mercedes and Rachel:

Out here on my own

Mercedes:

When I'm down and feelin' blue

I close my eyes, so I can be with you

Rachel:

Oh, baby, be strong for me

Baby, belong to me

Mercedes:

Help me through

Help me need you

Rachel:

Sometimes I wonder where I've been

Mercedes:

Who I am, do I fit in

Rachel:

I may not win

Mercedes:

But I can't be thrown

Rachel:

Out here, oh

Mercedes and Rachel:

On my own

Out here on my own

"Bravo!" Artie clapping and cheering.

"Okay ladies, we will let you know. Thank you." Ms. Pillsburry says.

They both then walk off from the stage. "I'm still cant decided." I said to them quietly.

"Okay, my office now." Ms. Pillsburry says to us and start walking.

"Seems like we will do the plan B." Coach Beiste says.

"But how to make it fair?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Dont worry. I got a plan." Artie grins at us.

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Now we are in Ms. Pillsburry's office. Mercedes and Rachel are sitting down in front of us and look confused. We came out with a decision and it's the plan B.

"Please don’t tell us that we have to try out again." Mercedes says.

"No, we’ve come to a decision." Artie says.

"Yeah well, even it was really hard to choose the one who is the best but we make a decision." I nodded.

"It was one of the hardest decisions of my life, and that includes when I had to sell one of my two prize donkeys to pay my gas bill. I sold Kim, but I kept Khloe." Coach Beiste says.

"You named your donkey with Kim Kardashian and Khloe Kardashian?" I raise my eyebrows at coach Beiste.

"Yeah because they are lucky prize." Coach Beiste says.

Artie suddenly clear his throat to stop us. "Okay focus."

"So, um, in the grand tradition of the Special Olympics…everybody wins. We’re double-casting Maria." Ms. Pillsburry grins.

"What the hell is double-casting?" Mercedes asks.

"It means that we’ll both get to play Maria. You’ll get your well-deserved standing ovations on Saturday matinees and Sunday mornings for the Retired Lima War Veterans, and I’ll do all the evening performances." Rachel says to Mercedes.

"Actually, Rachel, we’re adding a week. You’ll both get four nights and two matinees." Artie says.

"Fair enough. Mercedes, it’ll be a pleasure sharing the spotlight with you." Rachel simply said.

"Are you double-casting any other roles?" Mercedes asks us.

Artie, coach Beiste, Ms. Pillsburry, and I just shake our head together.

"No. Just…" Artie shakes his head.

"Never." I shake my head.

"No." Ms. Pillsburry says.

"No." Coach Beiste says.

"Thank you for your time." Mercedes simply said and stand up from her seat about to leave.

"Where are you going?" Coach Beiste asks.

"Tell me you were better than me. Tell me." Mercedes turn her face at Rachel.

"Oh no." Ms. Pillsburry mumbled.

"Why is it that no one ever wants to hurt her feelings? You know, it’s always been “The Rachel Berry Show” around here. But it’s not gonna be for me. No, not my senior year." Mercedes says to us.

"Mercedes, don’t make this a stupid pride thing." Artie says.

"Oh, it’s a pride thing. But it’s not stupid." Mercedes simply said. "Congratulations. You got the part. I don’t want it." Mercedes says to Rachel and walk off.

We just being quiet and didnt know what to do. Rachel just half-smiled at us. "Well, by default, you got the part." Artie says to Rachel.

"Thank you." Rachel says and half-smiled at us and walk off.

"I'm still feel bad for Mercedes." Ms. Pillsburry says.

"But she already make a decision in her life. And that's why my dad always said to think twice before you say or do something because life is full of regret." I said to them. "Well, Artie I think we better publish the result of the audition." I said to Artie.

"Yeah Madison is totally right. Even it's kinda rude. I agree with her now." Coach Beiste nodded.

"Okay so Rachel got the Maria part." Artie says as he type something on his laptop. "Now done. And print!"

I take that printed paper from the printer then I read the result. All of the result of the cast are right and we can publish it.

"Come on, Artie." I said and give the paper to Artie.

"Now just think about the property and rehearsal." Artie says as I push his wheelchair out from Ms. Pillsburry's office.

"I though my work already done." I sigh.

"Not yet. The big thing is still in front of us." Artie shakes his head.

We keep walking in the hallways and passed the candidates who standing in front of their lockers and looking at us bring a paper.

I stop pushing Artie's wheelchair and standing in front of the announcement board. Artie give that paper to me and I stick that paper there.

"Perfect." Artie says to me.

"A perfect of imperfection." I chuckle.

"What are you talking about." Artie chuckle.

"A quote from a movie." I chuckle and about to push Artie's wheelchair.

"See? You're smart enough." A familiar voice.

I turn my face and Finn is smiling at us. "Yeah you're really smart." Artie smiles at me. "Well, I wanna go to the toilet now and dont follow me like yesterday." Artie says and wheel away.

"Thanks for telling her that she is smart, dude!" Finn shouts.

"Well, that's true, Finn." Artie shouts back and turn his way.

Finn just smiling at me. I raise my eyebrows at him then chuckle. "What?"

"You see that even Artie called you smart." Finn says to me.

"Okay stop talking about that because I'm hungry and I wanna meet my one true love." I grin at Finn.

"Who is it?" Finn frowns at me.

"Tots!" I laugh.

"Okay then." Finn simply said and turn his way.

I roll my eyes and take his hand. "Cafetaria is over there!" I said to him and walk lead him.

"Then?" Finn simply asks.

"I'll buy you lunch okay but with one rule, shut up." I said to Finn.

"Okay but I wanna ask one question. Who got the Maria part?" Finn asked me.

"Rachel...by default. We were about double-casting but Mercedes turned it down so Rachel won. You must be wish that you are the one who become Tony right? But it's Blaine because you didnt get an audition." I said to Finn.

"I see. Now. Just shut up." Finn simply said.

I just chuckle as we walk together. Finn turn his face at me and chuckles. We keep walking together to the cafetaria until our hands suddenly touching and then Finn holds my hand as we walk together.

I turn my face and looking at my hand. Finn keep looking straight and walk next to me. But why my heart beats so fast right now? It's really different when any other guy hold my hand. Really different.