Twin Flames

I stood there staring at myself. I had long brown wavy hair. That went past my shoulders. My lips were pink with a tint of pink cheeks. My eyes are a deep blue. That looks like the dark ocean waves. Trying to figure out what my mom thought when she called me, "Angel". I was no angel. Just a lost and broken person. Walking alone in this world. I had a routine I followed every week. I needed this. All the work I do keep my mind from traveling back to my past. My families words played over in my mind. Pains me. That's why I need to run. Listening to music and running helps me with all the pain that keeps coming back into my life. My parents are gone. My sisters and brother. Don't want anything to do with me. I'm still alone in this world. Trying to get passed all the pain that's etched on my bones. Buried behind my eyes. My smile is fake. Trying to show everyone that I'm just a happy woman. It's not true. I lay at night crying. Trying to understand why I'm all alone. I watch everyone around me. Smiling and in love. I stand there plastered a smile on my face. Nice and polite to everyone. Even the people that cuss at me. I just look at every situation I encounter differently then I look at my own life. It's easier that way. I can understand everyone else then me. I don't blame anyone for the path I followed. It's my fault not jumping off that path.