VALENTINA’S POV
An unbelievable amount of rage is inside of me. I never thought I could be so angry in my life. Even when Alexis cheated on me and made me go crazy, doesn’t even compare to what I’m feeling now.
I feel bad because I know it’s bleeding into my relationship with Nìkolai. I love him, but sometimes the love is the last thing I feel when the rage is front and center. Mix it with a little bit of jealousy and I’m totally a chaotic b***h.
Sometimes it’s easier taking my anger out on him, even if he doesn’t deserve it.
I just never thought the grief would be so great. It’s consuming me, no matter how hard I try to stuff it deep inside. The only thing that will cure it, is my grandfathers head on a pike.
Now I lay here awake while Nìkolai sleeps next to me. It’s after 1 am
