Red

Leave Her Alone

"What if the best isn't good enough?" I ask myself as I crawl out to the living room. What if the best isn't good enough? What would replace it? What is the best thing in our people's lives? It might be a person, animal, or an item.

Sometimes we ask too highly of the people we care about. We want them to treat us as if we are the only thing that matter. We are selfish. We want something and once we get it, we want more. It's what humans do. Or is it?

I am content with not having a lot. I am content with staying at home during weekend and locking myself in my room. I am content with my lonely life. I am content with the crap I have. I would be content if it all changed. I would be content if I had tons of people to talk to. I would be content if I had no free time on the weekends. I would be content with a busy life. I would be content with I had almost no problems.

But that's not me. I am not that girl. I am not the one everyone wants to talk to. I am not the one everyone teases. I am not the one people chooses. I am not the one to shine. I am not the one with talent. I am not the one who people even care about.

I am just me.

"Ana, what's wrong?" My friend sits down next to me.

Don't tell her just smile and lie. I don't need to listen to you. Maynard, go away. "It's nothing. I was just thinking." I smile and stand up. Twirling around in a small circle looking down. You are so stupid! Do you even think she really cares? She just wants to laugh at you. Come on, just go drink some bleach already. Or do you prefer to watch her betray you like the other ones did?

I know I get it no one cares. Just leave me alone. Never, babe. Please, someone help me.

STOP! Alona yells and Maynard drags her out. He locks her out and I had to watch the whole thing.

I close my eyes and try to push them away. My friend left and I let out a small sigh. "When I need a friend, they're gone. Everytime." I mumble to myself as I walk to my class. I hate school, well, I hate everything besides my room.

I feel as if I am slowly unwinding. About to fall apart. What would they say if I do fall apart? Would they say it's about time? Would they say that they wished they knew? Would they say they miss me?

I doubt it. No one ever really talks to me unless they have to. It's no big deal though. It's just normal for me. It's normal to be nothing. Lost in the crowd but things can change. Maybe if I speak up. If I make myself stand out-

Yeah, that's a great idea. I know how to do that. Let's have some fun.

"No, don't you dare! I can't do that just forget it. I am not doing that." I whisper yell to Maynard. I look around to make sure no one was looking at me as if I was crazy. No one was.

I am done with you, Maynard. Go away. I locked him in a cage and let Alona come out. Alona, you are much more useful than him. Did he hurt you?

No, I am fine. Sweetie, are you ok? You look as if you are going to pass out. I think you should sit down. I am here for you. If you need anything I will take control but only with your permission.

I can see her sweet, innocent smile. I walk to the closest chair and sit down. Breathe in. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. Breathe out then repeat. Calm down and breathe.

My legs slowly stop shaking and the world stopped spinning. I stand up but just flop back into the chair.

Wait, a second. You need to get up slowly or you can get hurt.

I slowly get up and get on my feet. I didn't fall over this time but I feel uneasy. I slowly walk down the hallway to the classroom. Today is going to be a long day.

Not much happened at school just new seating arrangements. I am sitting by this one guy in english who I may or may not like a lot.

After I got home, I went straight to my room and laid down on my bed. I am tired and dizzy. I am ready for sleep. Good night, Alona.

Ahhhhhh! I hear her scream and jump up. What the heck? Alona, are you ok? Is that you hurting her, Maynard?

I am not hurting her just having a nice chat. I close my eyes and see them behind my eyelids. He tied her to a chair. Blood rushing down her arms and legs. I watch as he hit her over the head.

I can't do anything to stop him. I just open my eyes and let my negative side kill my positive side. I wish I was able to help out but it isn't that simple. I can't just reach her and pull her away where he can't get to her.

If I could I would but maybe I can do something else. I pray to God, "Please, if you can hear be stop him. Stop this, I don't want her hurt. I don't want anyone hurt. Just protect her and keep her safe. She may not be alive but she is always there. She protects me when she can and I want to help. Please protect her." But I know they aren't really real.

And with that I laid down and fell asleep.