Red

Maynard

Dear me,

I am pathetic. Why can't I control myself and yet want to help others? My mind is like a prisoner and he is like the executioner. He wants to take his time though, before the slaughter. Torture like a psychopath but yet with a reason. He knows that if my mind dies, he'll die with it. So he tortures and abuses.

He is part of me but the only part I can't control. I hate him. I hate me. Sometimes I think it will be better if we did kill my mind. We will all be gone in a mental sense. Alona, Maynard, and myself. But I will still be alive just without the thoughts. Maybe it's best if I don't think.

What if it all disappears? What if I just say that I had enough and kill my mind? I would be like a zombie. Studying would be my only method of food. The thing is when you kill your mind it will come back just stronger and more powerful than every. Then you brake more than every and you become more fragile. One day you will give up.

Never kill your mind unless you want it to flood in worse and worse than before. This is the torture they will bring to you. You can fight it but never stop it. Sometimes you can clear your head but that is only for maybe an hour or so.

There is nothing you can do to get rid of me. There is nothing you can do to stop me. I am locked in your head but I know the way to control you. I did it before and I'll do it again. Ahona can't stop me. Ha, that pathetic girl! Thinking that she can take control and help you. Don't make me laugh. When I'm done with her she'll regret it.

Sincerely,

Your demon.