Chapter 4
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every time I close my eyes I think of what will be next tomorrow I wish I had maybe superpowers and I ask myself what would it be I take a deep breath then I think would it be anything that could have energy or something that no one knows about you know when you pass through a lot your mind becomes desperate to be successful I always think of being successful being known as a successful woman known as a person that could fight showing others that I was able to pass through hell showing other people that I was not a disappointment a p********e oh a single mother that had nothing or someone who's desperate to get something that can't happen I want to change that mindset I fight to I always wanted to study become a surgeon doctor but I wasn't able to then I will use what I have to show them to show them things are different from what they think I'm not the person they thought I would be I'm a successful man a young beautiful woman not what they told me I would be I want them to feel ashamed of what they said I want them to be disappointed in their souls and to make them realize never to never judge a book by its cover sometimes it's not good to make other shed tears I want them to feel the pain the tears the sadness the loneliness to feel useless to feel the meaning of those words that come out of their mouth sometimes it's just what's that make others feel bad to the extent that they want to commit suicide I want people to understand that what they do to others is not right to feel what others feel maybe they are poor maybe they can't get what they have but this world changes today you have tomorrow you don't so we are the same that means we could help each other not making other each other feel pain and useless today I look at my sick baby and feel bad because I don't have money for medication but I'm thankful that she's not dead oh she is well she smiles her love that makes others feel well that's the gift found from her she's my strength and I know everyone has that there is that one person that you find peace in never let people let you down fight survive make sure I survive this world because everyday it's in your day don't make others make you feel bad sometimes they're just words I know they hurt but remember that is someone passing through a lot more than you don't let you you are beautiful gorgeous wonderful extremely wonderful don't let that person make you feel down or make you feel like you want woman suicide people pass through a lot more than we can but it's all about what you can do and I know I can fight through this I always say these words to myself cuz I know no one will sometimes I used to say that one day I'll get a helper someone who helped me get through this someone who will change my life but I realize there is not that person that person is me it's me to fight for myself it's me to fight for my baby and I know I will fight for myself and I will survive and I'm the winner and the survivor every time I look I breathe I know that tomorrow is there and my baby will survive so no one can take me down people teach me that everyday so with life is not easy but you also not easy so fight fight fight when I look at my baby sleeping I realize that peace is what you give yourself and if you don't no one will give yourself peace know your place then you will get through this keep trying things will move don't you let yourself down work hard have self respect take care of yourself treat yourself love yourself that others will follow
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