Chapter 1 – The Night I Died Inside
POV: Lola
The moon shouldn’t have been that beautiful on the night my world fell apart.
Its silver light poured over the clearing like a blessing, but every shimmer felt like mockery, soft, pure, and far too calm for a night meant for heartbreak.
All around me, the pack gathered in a rough circle, their breath rising in white clouds under the cold. I could smell the curiosity in them, sharp, metallic, hungry. They wanted a show, and I was the one offering.
Ethan stood in the center, tall and confident, his shoulders straight beneath the weight of every pair of eyes watching. His golden-brown hair caught the moonlight; the same hair I used to run my fingers through when he swore he’d love me forever.
He didn’t look at me as he spoke.
> “I, Ethan Blackwood, heir to the Moonlit Pack, reject you, Lola Ainsworth, as my mate and Luna.”
The words came clean, practiced like a speech he’d been waiting to deliver.
For a heartbeat, no one moved. Then the air shifted. The bond that tied us together, the invisible golden thread that had tugged at my soul since the day the Moon marked us, snapped.
It wasn’t painful. It was empty.
A hollow echo where love used to live.
Serena, my wolf, whimpered inside me. “Don’t fall, Lola. Don’t let them see you break.”
But my knees hit the ground anyway. The dirt was cold, biting through my jeans, grounding me to a reality I didn’t want.
Laughter rippled through the crowd, low and cruel. Someone whispered, “I told you she wasn’t Luna material.”
Ethan’s voice rose again, colder this time. “Our pack deserves strength. Not a weakness. Not someone who can barely shift.”
That was unfair and he knew it. My wolf had always been late to rise. The healers said I was just “different,” that the Moon’s gift took time. But to the pack, that made me fragile. Unfit. Disposable.
Fay Ethan’s new choice stepped from behind him, every curve of her body confident, polished. Her eyes, an unnatural shade of violet, sparkled as she looked down at me. “You really thought Alpha’s son would keep a broken wolf?”
Her words sliced deeper than claws.
But I refused to cry.
> “The Moon Goddess doesn’t make mistakes,” I said quietly, forcing my chin up.
Ethan finally met my eyes. His were hard, unreadable. “She did this time.”
The crowd gasped. Someone murmured a prayer. Even the night wind seemed to flinch.
Serena stirred, her voice trembling. “We have to leave. Now.”
I wanted to scream, to fight back, but my strength had bled out with the bond.
When the ceremony ended, I walked away without a word. No one stopped me. No one cared.
Flashback – Six Months Earlier
The world had been softer then.
Ethan and I had hidden in the training field after dusk, lying on the cool grass. He’d brushed my hair from my face, his scent wrapping around me like warmth.
> “You’ll make the perfect Luna,” he’d said, voice low.
“Even if I can’t shift?”
“Especially because you can’t. You’re kind, Lola. That’s rarer than strength.”
He’d kissed me, then gentle, full of promise.
I’d believed him.
Now that memory stings like a cruel joke.
Back to the Present
By the time the sun dipped below the horizon, my room was bare. One small bag held my clothes and the single photograph of my parents wolves killed years ago in a border war. No family. No home. No pack.
I waited until midnight before slipping out.
The guards didn’t stop me; to them, I was already gone.
As soon as I crossed the boundary line, a searing pain ripped through my chest, the pack bond severing completely. I gasped, clutching my heart as the mark on my wrist glowed faintly before fading.
Serena whimpered. “We’re rogues now.”
Tears threatened, but I swallowed them down. The night forest opened before me, endless and black. The air smelled of pine and distant rain.
I ran.
Branches tore at my sleeves; roots clawed my boots. My breath turned ragged, each inhale sharper than the last. Every sound felt magnified by the c***k of twigs, the whisper of leaves, the rush of my heartbeat.
For hours, I moved through the wilderness, guided only by moonlight. When I finally stumbled into a clearing, the world tilted. My vision blurred from exhaustion.
Serena’s voice was faint. “Rest. Just for a moment.”
I sank beside a stream, its water reflecting the moon like a mirror. The cold bit into my skin, but it kept me awake.
“What now?” I whispered to no one.
Silence answered. Then
Footsteps.
Heavy. Purposeful. Too steady to belong to a rogue.
I froze, instinct kicking in. Whoever it was carrying power, I could feel it vibrating through the ground.
The scent reached me first; oak, rain, and steel. Alpha. But different… older. Stronger.
A low growl rolled through the trees. “Who dares enter my territory?”
I turned slowly.
From the shadows, a man emerged tall, broad-shouldered, his silver eyes glowing like molten light. The aura that surrounded him pressed against my chest, forcing my knees to tremble.
The stories had spoken of him: the future Alpha King, heir to the united packs. His presence was law; his anger, a death sentence.
He stepped closer, each movement smooth, controlled. “State your name, rogue, before I decide if you deserve to breathe another minute.”
My throat dried. The words tangled.
> “L-Lola Ainsworth.”
Recognition flickered in his gaze then vanished, replaced by calculation.
> “Moonlit Pack,” he said slowly. “You crossed my border.”
I tried to stand taller, though every instinct screamed to kneel. “I mean no harm. I just… needed a place to rest.”
His lips curved into something close to a sneer. “Rogues don’t rest. They run, they steal, or they die. Which one are you?”
Before I could answer, a sharp pain tore through my chest again. The lingering bond magic from Ethan’s rejection pulsed violently, making me stumble.
The Alpha King moved faster than sight one moment across the clearing, the next beside me, his hand gripping my arm to steady me. Electricity surged where his skin touched mine.
Serena gasped inside me. “Mate.”
My heart lurched. “No,” I whispered under my breath. “That’s not possible.”
His brows knit. “What did you say?”
I couldn’t reply. The world spun. My body, already weak, couldn’t fight the pull of unconsciousness closing in. The last thing I saw
Was his silver gaze softening just slightly, as if something deep inside him recognized me too.
Then darkness swallowed everything.