Something New (TTLIS Sequel)

Chapter 17

Passion POV

'i just felt like crying right then and there, but i'm not bout to cry over no nigga. what i look like ? i don't like him that much. i look at them and shake my head. i went ahead and walked right past them. then he gonna tell me hi. i just ignored him and kept it moving. Karen has morning sickness so she won't be here today. sucks. i head into my first period class that i got with Jeremy and Derick and sit down at my desk. Derick comes over to my desk and stares at me.'

Derick: why didn't you tell me Sky was all on Derick ?

Passion: would you have believed me ?

Derick: no.

'i shook my head and chuckled. now that hurt. he would believe a girl he's dating over his "bestfriend" ? shows what bestfriend he is.'

Passion: my point exactly and it wasn't my place to tell you, but you dumb enough to not break up with her because you love her ? please. just get out my face.

Derick: fake.

'he leaves and i shake my head and lay it down on the desk. today just keeps getting worse. first i find out that my crush/bestfriend loves some hoochie, then my ex boyfriend wanna talk to me, i see the guy i like hugged up all on another girl, then my "bestfriend" says he wouldn't believe me and called me fake. just great. i felt Jeremy sit in his desk and the bell rings. throughout the whole class i ignored Jeremy and me and Derick just didn't talk to each other. the rest of the day went by the same. with me ignoring everybody. i just wanna go home. the final bell rings and i literally ran out the classroom, went to my locker and ran outside and into my car. the ride home was relaxing and quiet, i liked it. when i pulled up in my driveway i noticed mama and pops wasn't home. i ran inside the house, up to my room, closed the door and flopped on my bed and released the tears i've been holding in all day.'

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'it's been exactly 3 weeks since i've talked to Jeremy or Derrick. Jeremy been trying to get my attention, but i really don't wanna talk to him now ! why ? well maybe because he dating the girl he was hugged up with in the hallway now. how he gonna tell me he likes me, but BOTH of us shouldn't be in a relationship cause we not ready as individuals, but he wanna go and date another girl. then Derick he aint making no effort to try and be close again. i just say forget and let him be with Sky who has been messing around on him. yeah i caught her a couple times in the hallway with some dude. do i tell Derick ? no, why should i ? it's not like he gonna believe me anyway. Karen and Sebastian are kinda a thing now i guess. they are cute for each other i'm not even gonna lie. plus it seems like Ethan and Emily are working things out. seems like i'm the lonely bird out of everybody. i guess this is what i get ? i mean i don't know what i have done to be getting hurt all the time. maybe i just have bad luck. i decided to get out the house and walk to Karen's house. when i got around there only her car was in the driveway. her dad is rarely home now from what she tells me, but when he is home he makes it up. she told me he didn't really get mad at her for getting pregnant. she did say she told him everything she had been doing and he got mad at that. shoot i would have to if i found out that my daughter was basically the tramp of the streets and was messing with a hood rat wanna be thug boy. i knocked on her door and she answers it in some sweats and a tank top. her belly is semi big now. she still has some months to go though. we greet each other and she lets me in. we get a bunch of snacks from the kitchen and go up to her room and have our girl talk.'

Karen: so how's things been going with you and the boys ?

Passion: *sigh* not so well. Derick still with Sky and she playing him, plus he aint making no effort to talk to me.

Karen: see. i don't like her. i was mad when you had us room together for your birthday. she was talking about how fine Sebastian was and how she would get with him. nasty.

Passion: yeah, she a pretty girl, she just needs to carry herself better. then Jeremy done got a girlfriend.

Karen: but didn't he tell you that he wasn't ready for a relationship a while back.

'i nodded my head and sighed. i picked me up an Oreo cook and stuffed it in my mouth. what ? i'm a fat girl at heart.'

Karen: maybe you should just stop worrying about them and get your mind focused on you and school. apply for some colleges..... explore some options. stop worrying about other people Pash.

'i sat there and thought about what she just had said. stop worrying about people and focus on myself. focusing on myself is exactly what imma do.'