The Alpha She Never Saw Coming

Episode 4

  Samuel stood from the desk and took my hand as he lifted me upright from my chair. He turned us so that my butt leaned against the desk behind me. I bit my lip again as he nestled one of his legs between mine.

“Lily, if you consume small amounts of blood, then it wouldn’t control you. You could learn to control yourself and still drink blood for strength.”

“What do you know about controlling a vampire’s lust or desires?” I scoffed.

“My mother was in love with a vampire. He believed in living as a man and not by his lust for blood,” Samuel responded.

I immediately thought back to when I saw Wyatt and Greyson’s mother and father. It was obvious that she loved Lucas, and that’s why she trusted him with her son. Was it possible that another female wolf could fall for a vampire? Or could, no, it wasn’t possible. There was no way that the three of them could be related. I couldn’t decide if I was more shocked by his willingness to share or where my mind took the information.

“Why are you doing this? You hate them and me, so why help me now?”

Samuel made a small slit on his wrist, and the blood started to pool around the mark. He held his wrist up to me, and I wanted to turn away. Tell him that we shouldn’t be doing this, but I also wanted to control all my abilities.

  So, against all restraint, I took his wrist in my hand and licked the blood off his wrist. The minute the blood touched my tongue, I no longer could hold back my reserve. I allowed my fangs to elongate as I bit down into Samuel’s wrist. Samuel leaned in closer as I sucked fiercely at his wrist, and my thighs clenched tightly around his leg.

“I’ve never hated you,” Samuel said, stroking my hair.

Things were becoming very intimate all too quickly! As much as I wanted to continue to drink, I needed yards of distance between us. I released Samuel and pushed him back as I stood to my full height.

“Is this all a part of your game too?” I hissed.

“What are you talking about?”

Samuel had the nerve to look offended at my question. Well, I wasn’t going to allow myself to be manipulated like this!

“Just be honest for five minutes and tell me the truth.”

“I told you I would never lie to you, Lily. I am not playing any games,” Samuel stepped closer.

I stepped back but bumped into my desk. I wasn’t enjoying this feeling of Samuel blocking me in, so I pushed past him and to the other side of the room. I paced the floor as I ran my fingers through my loose hair. What was his end game, what was he playing at? One minute I get the feeling as though I am being used. Then, it is as if Samuel cared for me and truly just wanted to make sure that I was okay.

  It was really starting to give me a head trip trying to decide which personality was Samuel’s true self. He said he would never lie to me, and he had said it a lot in the past two days. I never doubted that he was honest. I just had so many doubts in all the half-truths and half-memories that I’ve dealt with recently.

“Then don’t lie, tell me why?” I asked one last time.

“Honestly, I came to gloat. Rub it in your face that you should have stayed with Jax as I had arranged.”

“Arranged!” I yelled, “as if anything you decided for me would be anything I would want. You’ve been out to sabotage me from day one.” I continued to shout, “well, get it over with! Tell me Jax would have never hurt me like this, that way you can leave without coming back.”

“I can’t!” Samuel shouted as he approached me, “do you think this is easy for me? It would be easier to say those things and walk away!”

Samuel stopped before me and lifted one of my hands in his. Slowly caressing the top with his thumb as he stared deeply into my eyes. I looked back at him with what strength I could manage.

“Then do it because I assure you that won’t hurt me more than what I have already experienced.”

I tried to pull back my hand, but Samuel gripped it too tight. Not letting me go, but not coming more than arm’s length. Making sure he was far enough away for my comfort but close enough for his own. I couldn’t look him in the eyes any longer. I bowed my head as I brushed the hair from my face, tucking the loose strands behind my ear.

  I hadn’t noticed that Samuel stepped closer until his other hand was playing with the ends of my hair. Twirling it within his fingers as my hand froze by my ear.

“Samuel, what are you doing?” I sighed.

“I would give anything to walk out of this office and never come back, but I’ve seen what casting out can do to someone.”

I couldn’t help the laughter that escaped my lips. I placed a hand over my mouth when I could feel Samuel shooting me a pissed-off look.

“I assure you, Wyatt turned out just fine,” I chuckled.

“Seeing you lying there on the floor yesterday made me truly understand a mate’s bond and mark.”

I opened my mouth to speak, wanting to ask if he lost a mate. Wanting to know if that was why he guarded himself. I heard the office door open, and when I turned my head, I saw Jessica standing in the doorway. Was everyone going to feel the need to babysit me from now until who knew how long.

  Samuel dropped my hand and backed away before Jessica, or I even spoke. He rushed past me and out the door. Leaving me more confused than I was from our interactions yesterday. Then the thought that Jessica was a part of Wyatt and Greyson’s pack had me wondering if that was why he left. Trying to keep his distance from the pack since he was clearly pissed at them specifically. Jessica barreled into me as she hugged me so tightly that it took my breath away. Something I had fully expected from her, I was just happy that tears didn’t fall.

“I have been so worried about you! The least you could have done was return a call if you weren’t going to answer your door,” she said, slapping my arm.

“Wait, you came to my apartment?”

“Of course! Blake too.”

I never heard them even knock or call out for me. I couldn’t believe I was that out of it!

“I am so sorry. I never heard either of you. I didn’t have my phone near me either. Can you forgive me?”

Jessica pushed us backward until we were sitting on the couch. Keeping our hands together as she rested them on her lap.

“You are kidding me, right?” She laughed, “you could have been on a killing spree, and I would forgive you. After what they did, you get a pass on everything.”

Jessica’s smile had me smiling back, and it made me think if the guys would feel the same way. Would I get a pass from them for all the time I had been spending with Samuel? Not to mention drinking his blood not once but twice, especially drinking it directly from his vein, in an oddly provocative way. Then I wondered if they all would be so forgiving of Blake. Now that I had chosen to set our joined mistakes aside, trying to mend our friendship.