Kissing the Fae

Chapter 41

I don’t know how to prepare myself for that. I thought I was prepared but now that it’s happening, I suddenly take my words back. I will never be ready for something big as this.

“Please calm down, Rani. You’re making us feel dizzy with you walking back and forth,” it was Terran.

“I can’t calm down,” I told him calmly. “How can I?! I will finally have the Power of Glamour! After days and weeks of searching, we finally reach it. So I can’t calm down!”

“You’re making it worse,” it was Deniz this time. “You are nervous and you’re pushing yourself more to the depths I doubt if you can finish the ritual later because of you feeling so stressed about it.”

I snorted and stopped walking and sat in between them. The Queen Mother already left and I know I still have hours before evening comes but I just can’t help but feel nervous about it! What if I can’t make it? What if because of the Power of Glamour, I’d die trying to have it?

Gosh... Those are just my thoughts going around inside my head and I felt like dying because of it! I hate it!

We waited until the sun comes down. My hearts thundered more and I felt so anxious. I shouldn’t... I won’t even go through something to have the Power of Glamour. The Queen Mother will just do her thing while I focus and wait ‘till I feel it.

“It’s already dark,” said Terran. “We will watch you, Rani Letisha. You should really ready and stop thinking of such things that contribute more to your nervousness. It won’t obviously help you, right?”

“Yeah, right. But that’s too easy to say for you, Terran. I am nervous but I will still go through the ritual. I won’t let it win over me,” I told him firmly.

He chuckled and patted my head. I glared at him at the action and he just giggle again, enjoying the misery in my eyes. They probably see the series of emotions in my kins and I really don’t care about it.

While the Little Fairies were just watching us. They were silent but I can feel the tension. Just like me, they are nervous. Even afraid for me and I assure them everything will be alright. And that we can do this no matter what it takes.

We will win. I promise them that.

“You sure you’ll gonna be okay?” Ria asked.

I sighed deeply and looked at her resting on my palm. She was worried, for sure. Everyone is worried. There’s actually nothing to be scared of but then when I think of the consequences of having the Power of Glamour, I just became... negative.

Like okay, I have accepted it. That maybe it would be the reason of my death in the future but at least, I have prove something before I leave the world. To prove that women is capable of ruling and that’s something to be proud of.

I sighed again. “I’ll be fine... There’s really nothing to worry about but you know me, Ria. I can’t help but think over small things that shouldn’t really matter. I just can’t help it... I always look for the negative side rather than the good outcome of an event and it is just so frustrating.”

“It’s really normal to feel that way,” she said calmly. “But they were right, Rani Letisha. You should really learn to lessen your worries. It’ll be hard at first but try your best, okay? It just doesn’t... make you feel good.”

I closed my eyes emphatically. It will never be good. I know that... Yet even how hard I tried to, I can’t. I’m being too hard on myself and I am clearly aware of that yet I am still going on it anyway.

Blackness welcomed my sight when I opened my eyes. The huge oak tree was swaying as the wind blew, I could feel my body shivered in coldness and my heart thumping for the same reason. The Queen Mother, the oak tree was in front of me... While I could sense a familiar presence far away and they’re probably from the guys and the Little Fairies.

The cold wind blew again. My hair dances with it as it kept blowing hard, as if it was controlled and yes, it’s indeed under some spell of the oak tree. I tried my best to focus and forget everything.

Just this once, focus, Rani Letisha. Do not think of anything outside this circle.

I am in the middle of the burning circle with the oak tree. No one was allowed to enter or it will be ruined. I don’t know how this ritual works for the Queen Mother didn’t tell me anything about it and I just hope it will end well.

I just want these things to get done so I can finally get over it. So I can finally go back to my region, to slap the counselors for belittling my ability and power. I will prove them wrong and I’d make sure they’d rot in envy and hatred seeing me lead not just the Faye region but the whole Acres Kingdom.

They will bow down to me soon. They will soon be under my command and to that, I can’t wait for that day to come. I can’t wait to see their reaction once I come back.

They probably won’t feel happy I’d be coming back alive bringing home the bacon. I can already imagine the distaste in their eyes as they pretend to applaud my success. An envy man won’t feel happy seeing the woman they hated climb on top.

They’d pretend but I know better.

I closed my eyes as I waited for something to come. I calmed myself down and then, I started feeling like I’m burning... Like the ring of fire has taken affect in me and now, I felt like I am burning inside.

I bit my lower lip.

“The Power of Glamour... Tho shall be passed down to someone who has a pure heart and soul. Tho shall not be used for her own interests and greediness.”

I can hear the Queen Mother’s voice. I can’t open my eyes! My body is burning and I am in deep pain. Physically! I felt like my body was being beaten!

“I give you the Power of Glamour, to the princess of the Acres Kingdom, the leader of the Faye region, Rani Letisha. I gave you permission to use it for good intention and not for greediness and power.”

I grip on my clothes tightly as I felt my more pain crawling on my body. My head is aching and I felt like I’m spinning around. I can’t hear clearly, I can barely open my eyes. I can only see the darkness and I can’t... handle the pain anymore.

I cried under the dark sky. The Queen Mother chanted more words I can’t comprehend. It was unfamiliar but every words bit me to the depths I felt like dying in pain. On my knees, I cried more as my body received all the pain this ritual caused me.

“I can’t...” I whispered, gritting my teeth as pain attacked me again.

“Hold on more, Rani Letisha...” the Queen Mother even felt so close. “This is a painful process and you must overcome every second of the ritual. You fight or you die... You don’t have a choice but to fight until this end.”

When is this going to end? I felt like my skin is being ripped apart! My insides are in turmoil and in pain! How can I last long? How can I handle this physical pain this thing brought to me?

It is so painful... It hurts so much that I can feel my tears streaming down my cheeks.

I can’t... I don’t know how this works. I was so naive I didn’t ask her. I was so stupid to mind my anxiousness first and choose not to doubt and ask about the ritual. Now I am suffering from it... I should have ask so I could readied myself. I should have inquire so I won’t be surprised at the amount of pain I am currently feeling.

Everything was blurry. I can barely hear anything. When I opened my eyes, I saw the oak tree glowing. There was a blue—ish color surrounding the tree and it connects to me...

It must be the Power of Glamour, right? It must be. I can’t wait to have it. I can’t wait for this misery to end. I can’t wait to finally go back...

“Hold on, Rani Letisha...” the Queen Mother said. “Just a little bit more.”

Her voice sounded so weak. I gulped hard and tried to fight the urge to totally stumbled on the ground and give up. I can’t give up, right? I can’t... I must overcome this pain. This is physical pain and I’ve been through a lot of it before.

This should be easy. This should be easy...

“By the power vested in me, I am giving you the Power of Glamour. It will be now owned by you... The future queen of the Acres Kingdom...”

With that, I blacked out.

I don’t know what happened after that night. All I could remember was the pain I’ve felt. Yet when I woke up, I was confused... Why am I here in the Enchanted Forest? What happened in the Queen Mother’s garden?

What happened to the Power of Glamour? Panic struck me. I don’t want to think I failed but that’s what entered into my mind. I can’t feel anything in my body. All pain was gone... Yet somehow, there’s something in me that I can’t just understand.

I feel normal... Yet something is urging me not to feel normal.

I roamed my eyes around. I tried to stand up but my knees just wobbled and I stumbled on the ground. I checked my clothes and it wasn’t the one I remembered when I went to Queen Mother’s place. I am in the Faye region...

I am home... I wanted to shout to seek for answer.

“No... this is not happening...” I whispered to myself.

Does it mean I failed? I blacked out. My body gave up on me that night! I can’t... This is not acceptable, Rani Letisha! I didn’t fail! I didn’t just give up, right?

This is so disappointing.

“You are awake...” I heard a voice.

I raised my head and saw Ria. She looked so concern as she join me.

“What happened, Ria? What happened that night? Did I fail? Did I not pass the test? Did I not acquire the Power of Glamour? The Queen Mother... Please, tell me what happened. I am going crazy thinking of it...”

“Rani... Relax... You’ve been asleep for three days since that night and that was what happened.”

I shook my head in disapproval. What I really want to know is if I fail! What about my position? What about my people? What about the power of illusion?! What really happened?!

I closed my eyes to calm myself down. I tried to remember it but there was nothing inside my head and pure disappointment for myself. I wanted to cry in dismay and frustration. This is really not happening. If I fail, please...

Just kill me. I don’t want to face those people who believe in me. I don’t want to see the disappointments in their faces.

“You didn’t fail...”

With that, my eyes wide open. “I didn’t... what? Then, what happened after I passed out? What happened in those three days while I was asleep, then?”

“The Queen Mother said it would take days for you to feel the Power of Glamour. You will also need to go through intense training to show and control it, Rani Letisha. So calm down...”

My mouth hangs open. I passed... I f ucking passed the test!

“Once you figure out the use of your new power, you’ll have your wings.”

I tried to speak but no words come out. I sighed in both relief and happiness... This whole course just proved that I overthink too much and it’s really not good, I know.

“Get ready. The La Roi and the Reine wants to see you.”