Back to Lima, Ohio. I spent my christmas in New York with my dad and Kurt also Blaine. Kurt got into NYADA and that's a good news but a bad news is my dad got prostate cancer. And how could this is just happen to him.
I mean, like this is freaking me out like the time he got heart attack. I dont wanna lose my dad. I want him to stay with me and this is freaking me out.
And now what else? This week is Sadie Hawkins week. All the girls can ask guys to the dance and it must be so hard for those guys to say no. I really want to ask Jake but I guess there are so many girls want to ask Jake and they must be hotter or more beautiful than me.
I let out a sigh and shut my locker. "Hey, we have glee club now. Come on." Blaine takes my hand. "You okay?"
"I'm still thinking about my dad." I sigh.
"He will be fine. Dont worry. He can pass all those exams in his life. And I will keep my eyes on you and Kurt." Blaine smiles at me.
"Thanks, Blaine." I smile back at him.
We then walk in the hallways and turn our way to the science classroom for having quick glee club.
Sam's POV
I walk in the hallways and turn my face as Kate and Blaine are walk down in the hallways together and holding hands at each other. I know she just have an awful week since she found out that her dad have prostate cancer. But this week is Sadie Hawkins week and I really hope that she would ask me to the dance although it will be 20% possibility.
"I want to sit under Venus." Sugar yelled as we walk into the science classroom.
"I want to sit under Uranus." I said and sit down on my seat until Kate and Blaine walk in and laughing at each other. "What's so funny?" I frown at them.
They just chuckle and sit down on the opposite and next to each other. I just roll my eyes and turn my face to the front.
"So this week in Glee Club, it's ladies' choice, inspired by the Sadie Hawkins Dance." Finn says to us and write 'Ladies Choice' on the white board.
"Which I thought of. It was my idea." Tina raises her hand.
"Yes, thank you, Tina..And every girl will sing to whoever they want to take to the dance." Finn grins at us.
"Well, I, for one, love this lesson. I've got a song I want to sing to somebody." Kitty standing on the door and smirks at Jake.
I turn my face at Kate and she just look at Jake hopelessly. I really hope she could ask me but I guess it will be impossible.
The bell rings.
I stand up from my seat and walk out from the science classroom. I turn my face and Blaine and Kate are laughing at each other and walk together also holding hands.
Well I'm not jealous, Blaine is a gay dude and Kate is straight. Even though he is kinda handsome but Kate wont be a stupid girl who fall in love with her gay brother's ex boyfriend.
"What so funny huh?" I ask them.
"Nothing, we just make fun about prom theme." Blaine chuckles.
"Yeah so I can forget about my dad's cancer." Kate sighs.
"He will be fine. Just forget it okay." Blaine rubs her sleeve.
"This is freaking me out." Kate shakes her head.
"He will be fine. Trust me. He can get through everything right." I said to Kate.
"I hope so." Kate half-smiled at us.
"Come on, I'll take you to lunch." Blaine smiles at her and walk lead her to the cafetaria.
"Who will you ask to Sadie Hawkins dance?" I ask Kate.
"I really want to ask... you know. But Marley have eyes on him then Kitty smirked at him and I guess I'll be damn so my last options would be both of you." Kate chuckles.
"Sure." Blaine chuckles.
"If he smart enough he will say no to every girl ask him and say yes to you." I said to Kate.
"I know that but I'm not sure I stand a chance." Kate simply said. "Who you expect to ask you to Sadie Hawkins by the way?" Kate asks me.
"No one." I simply said.
"Sam, you will find the right girl." Kate smiles at me and holds my hand.
I just nodded and turn my face to the front. We are still walking in the hallways. I turn my face at Kate and looking at her. How to make her know that she is the right one for me? How to make her know that I expect her to ask me to that dance?
We walk to the cafetaria. Kate leaves my hand and take her foodtray then take her food. I know she is not feeling okay. Not her body but her feelings. I can see that clearly that she cant stop thinking about her dad.
I pay my food then sit down on the glee club table as the others already there. Kate just took some food and walk to glee club table and sit down next to Brittany.
"It's hard to resist chicks magnets around here." Artie says to us.
"It is, bro." Joe chuckles.
I'm just chuckle and turn my face at Kate. She just being quiet and didnt eat her food and only moving some straw like someone who got nervous.
I nodges at Blaine. Blaine turn his face at me and raises his eyebrows. I just give him a sign to look at Kate and Blaine turn his face at Kate and stops her and holds her hand.
"Would you stop? Your dad will be fine." Blaine says to Kate.
"I just... I guess I have an OCD attack when it's come to this." Kate shakes her head.
"What happened?" Artie frowns at us.
"Last christmas when we had christmas in New York, Burt told her and Kurt that he has cancer." Blaine answers.
"When I though that it would be the best christmas ever. I mean I had christmas for the first time in New York, disturbing Blaine and Kurt christmas duet, and then got a news Kurt got into NYADA and all his broadway dream. But then my dad told us that he has cancer and this is freaking me out like when he got heart attack." Kate sighs.
"He will be fine. We all here. You wont be alone." Artie says to Kate.
"Yeah God is busy with people with cancer and your dad will be fine just pray for that. We will pray for him too." Joe says to her.
"Yeah." Kate sighs.
"Isnt she lovely? Isnt she wonderful? Isnt she precious?" Artie's singing and grins at Kate.
"Okay stop that song before I stormed out and sing Gives You Hell for the second time." Kate shakes her head and chuckles. "But thank you guys. Maybe with all of your pray and surgery the cancer will gone." Kate says to us.
"It will." I nodded.
"Guys! I got a name for our Sadie Hawkins dance. It supposed to be Snowball!" Tina suddenly walks to our table and grins at us.
"Sadie Hawkins also usually called snowball." Kate says to Tina.
"And so I just thinking about that." Tina simply nodded and join us.
"Eat your food." Blaine half-smiled at Kate and rubs her hand.
I just turn my face at my food and eating that. Kate start eating her food slowly and talking with the others. I just dont wanna see her sad anymore. She is like my everything. My precious thing. And looking at her sad. It's killing me.
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Kate's POV
I wear my ankle boots then look at myself in front of the mirror. I wear black jeans, brown long sleeve knitted shirt, winter vest, and ransel. After that I walk out from my room and walk downstairs.
"Good morning, dad." I smile at dad and place my ransel on a chair in dining table.
"Hey, morning." Dad smiles back at me while eating an omlette.
I let out a sigh and take the omlette plate and change it with two slices of wheat bread and some jam that he can choose.
"I just made that five minutes ago." Dad says to me.
"I will eat that. This isnt good for you okay." I said to him and eat the omlette.
"Kate, I'm fine." Dad frowns at me.
"Dad, you're sick and the doctor said that you have to control your food and you cant eat anything fried. From now on, until Carole back from Zanesville, I will cook you breakfast, lunch, and dinner." I said to dad.
"Hey, you know that I always can get out from my illness. Dont be worry about that." Dad says to me.
"Yeah I know that." I nodded. "What time you will go to work?" I ask dad.
"In one hour." Dad simply said.
"Alright. I have to go now or I'll be late." I stand up from my seat and take my ransel. "See you, dad." I kiss his cheek and walk to the front door.
"Drive carefully." Dad simply said.
I walk to the front door and take my car key from the key box then walk out from my house. I unlock my car and get into my car then start driving away from my house to McKinley.
This is still Sadie Hawkins week and I havent ask anyone else. Not even Jake. I'm confused. Afraid. And dont know what to do. Or I guess I wont go at all.
I park my car in McKinley parking lot then walk out from my car and walk to McKinley building with holding my ransel on my back. I look around and some girls walk passed Jake's locker and smirk at him. I just let out a sigh and turn my way to my locker and take my binder from my locker. Maybe true love wont be exist in my world.
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Now we are in boys locker room for having glee club. It sucks because glee club doesnt have any place to rehearsal and we are like nomad. Move to one to another place.
"All right, so Tina is ready to present her solo and make her choice. Gentlemen, prepare yourselves for Tina Cohen-Chang." Finn says to us then sit down next to me.
Tina stand up from her seat and walk to tge front. "Thank you, Finn. For my song, I'll be performing I Don't Know How to Love Him from Jesus Christ Superstar. It's about the pain of unrequited love and..." Tina got cut off.
"Yeah, okay, just wrap it up. Beiste needs the locker room at 4:30." Finn cut her off.
"That was mean." I frown at Finn.
"Sorry. Hit it." Tina says and turn her face to the band.
"Better than someone cut her song." Finn simply said.
Tina:
I don't know how to love him
What to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed
In these past few days, when I've seen myself,
I seem like someone else
I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me
He's a man. He's just a man
And I've had so many men before,
In very many ways,
He's just one more.
Should I bring him down?
Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love,
Let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?
Don't you think it's rather funny,
I should be in this position
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool,
Running every show
He scares me so
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?
What's it all about?
Yet, if he said he loved me,
I'd be lost. I'd be frightened
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope
I'd turn my head. I'd back away
I wouldn't want to know
He scares me so
Ooh, I want him so
I love him so
Tina ended up her song with weird face from the others. I can see that when she was singing that song she cant stop looking at Blaine and that was kinda weird actually.
"Okay, let's hear it for Tina." Finn clapping.
"Yeah. Tina! Whoo! Tina! Tina!" Sugar yelled.
"So Blaine, will you go to the dance with me?" Tina smiles at Blaine.
"Oh, uh..... Wow, um, Tina I don't know what to say." Blaine chuckles. "Um no. Thank you, but no, no, thank you." Blaine half-smiled at Tina.
I raise my eyebrows and gasped. Tina just standing frozen until the bell rings and the jocks walk into the boys locker room. What's wrong with Blaine? I need to find out.
"Okay guys, we will continue tomorrow at 10 in history clasroom." Finn says to us.
I put my hand inside my vest pocket then walk out from the boys locker room. I walk to my locker and the school hallways is already empty. I take my ransel and about to go home but I see Blaine is standing in front of his locker and take his bag so I come over to him.
"That was humiliating to reject her like that." I said to Blaine.
"I know but I dont feel like I wanna go to the Sadie Hawkins dance." Blaine sighs and shut his locker.
"Is it because that story you told about your old school. How the whole reason you transferred to Dalton was because you got bullied at a Sadie Hawkins Dance? No wonder you don't want to go." I said to Blaine.
"No. Not because of that." Blaine shakes his head.
"Then what is the reason?" I ask Blaine.
"I-I can't tell you that. It-s-it's really embarrassing." Blaine shakes his head.
"Blaine, I'm your bestfriend. Talk. I swear to God I-I won't tell anyone." I frown at Blaine.
"I have a crush on somebody, and I don't want to go to a dance where everyone's gonna be romantic there but me." Blaine sighs.
"Who? Who is it?" I frown at him.
"It's-it's a guy and he's straight and he doesn't know that I like him." Blaine simply said.
"I swear to God I won't tell anyone." I said to Blaine.
"I'm not some predatory gay, so nothing's gonna happen." Blaine says to me.
"Who is it? Tell me, Blaine. You can trust me." I frown at Blaine.
"It's Sam." Blaine sighs and sit down on the ground.
"Sam?" I raise my eyebrows and sit down next to him.
"I dont know when this is start happening but the way he talked to me and his crazy mind. I just can starred at that. It's so stupid." Blaine chuckles.
"No. It's not stupid." I shake my head. "I know what it's like to have a crush on someone who's never gonna love you back." I said to him.
"I know it's all just a fantasy. I-I mean I'm proud of our relationship. I'm proud the gay guy can be friends with the straight guy. I'm proud of showing the school that.
I just I don't want to jeopardize our friendship, you know?" Blaine says to me.
"I know that and probably just lonely. Blaine, you miss Kurt. You need someplace to put your love, right?" I said to Blaine.
"I guess. And then there are those lips. Those lips." Blaine chuckles.
"Yes, those lips." I chuckle.
"And when he does all those impressions? It's pure crushable crack." Blaine chuckles.
"I will get distracted with his big mouth." I chuckle. "Alright, here is the thing you need to do. You apologize to Tina and maybe you can go to Sadie Hawkins with her as friends. I mean if you tell her like this, like what you've told me I guess she will understand. Dont worry about that. Come on." I grin at Blaine and pull his hand to help him stand up.
"Blaine, can I talk to you for second?" Tina suddenly interupts us.
"Well, we were about to looking for you." I smile at Tina. "Alright, I will go home now. See you both tomorrow." I wave them a goodbye and turn my way then walk away.
I go back walking in the hallways until Ryder suddenly blocks my way and smirks at me. "Hey.."
"Hey, Ryder." I smile at him.
"So are you alone or need someone to drive you home?" Ryder asks me.
"No. Thank you. I brough my car." I giggle.
"So have you decided who will you ask to Sadie Hawkins dance?" Ryder asks me.
"I'm not asking anyone I guess. I'm not in the mood for school dance or anything right now. See you." I smile at him and wave him a goodbye and get into my car.
Deep down I really want to ask Jake but I know I will never get my chance. Even since after christmas he rarely text me or calling me. And I guess that there must be another girl who ask her and he said yes and I got no chance at all.
And maybe on my senior year I wont have a boyfriend or whatever. I will live my senior year and I dont care with that anymore. I will survive. That's it.
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I'm sitting down in the school courtyard with my hot latte and sketch book. My outfit for today is kinda keep me warm. Not really fashion but I love wearing jeans, boots, winter vest, and beanie hat for my winter outfit.
Suddenly my phone is ringing. I take my phone and Blaine just texted me that glee club will be begin. I answer his text and put my sketch book into my bag.
After that I go back walk to the school hallways and walk to the history classroom where we plan to have glee club here. I place my ransel on a table and sit down on the table.
"Alright, gentlemen. The ladies has something to prepare." Finn says to them.
We then walk to the front as the music start begin and we start doing our choreography and singing the backup. Well, I guess it will be a great time to ask Jake.
Marley:
I know something about love
Brittany:
You've gotta want it bad
Marley:
If that guy's got into your blood
Brittany:
Go out and get him
Marley with Brittany (New Directions Girls):
If you want him to be (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
The very part of you (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Makes you want to breathe (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Here's the thing to do (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Brittany with Marley and New Directions Girls:
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Brittany:
I know something about love
Marley:
You gotta show it and
Make him see the moon up above
Marley with Brittany (New Directions Girls):
Reach out and get him
If you want him to be (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Always by your side (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
If you want him to (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Only think of you (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Brittany with Marley and New Directions Girls:
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Brittany with New Directions Girls harmonizing:
Ever since the world began
It's been that way for man
And women were created
Marley with New Directions Girls harmonizing:
To make love their destiny
Then why should true love be
So complicated
Oh, yeah, oh
Marley with Brittany:
I know something about love
You gotta take his hand
Show him what the world is made of
One kiss will prove it
Brittany and Marley (New Directions Girls):
If you want him to be (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Always by your side (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Take his hand tonight (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Swallow your foolish pride (Do, do-do, do, do-do)
Brittany with Marley and New Directions Girls:
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Marley:
Oh, you have to tell him now
Brittany with New Directions Girls (Marley):
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him (Oh, yeah)
Tell him that you're always gonna love him (Yeah)
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Marley:
Girl, you gotta tell him right now
Brittany with New Directions Girls (Marley):
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him (Oh, yeah)
Tell him that you're always gonna love him (Yeah)
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Marley:
Just take his hand in yours and tell him
Brittany with New Directions Girls:
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Marley:
Just take his hand in yours and tell him
Brittany (and Marley) with New Directions Girls):
Tell him, tell him, tell him, (tell him right now)
"Jake!" Marley suddenly yelled at the end of the song. I just bit my buttom lip and put my hands inside my vest pocket. Marley walks closer to Jake then kneel down. "I mean, I mean Jake. Would you go to the dance with me?" Marley asks Jake.
I just half-smiled at them. Jake just looking at Marley and being quiet. I sigh and turn ny head down. "Umm, Marley.. no." Jake simply said. I turn my face at Jake and he take glances at me then turn his face at Marley and shake his head. "I'm sorry but no. Thank you."
Did Jake just reject her? Marley just stand up and look pissed off. I turn my face and Jake still take glances at me. Is he wishes that I'm going to ask him? I dont know.
The bell rings.
I take my ransel and walk out from the history classroom. I really want to ask Jake but I'm afraid. Or maybe Jake said no to Marley because Kitty already asked him first.
"Hey, you still dont wany to ask anyone else?" Ryder blocks my way.
"Ryder, I'm planning to not ask anyone and I dont wanna go. Stop asking me." I frown at him and turn my way.
I know Ryder had crush on me but the way he is forcing me like that is bothering me. Besides I dont have any crush back feeling for him. I like Jake. I really like him.
I walk to my locker and open my locker. I take my binder from my locker then shut my locker until Jake shocked me.
"You almost make me got heart attack." I said to him.
"And I'll be happy to take you to the hospital and transplant my heart to your heart." Jake grins at me.
"Cheesy and disgusting." I chuckle.
"So, I'm right here." Jake says to me.
"And then?" I raise my eyebrows at him.
"Dont you wanna ask me to the dance? I rejected every girl in this school who asked me to the dance because I wanna say yes when you ask me that." Jake smirks at me.
"I'm not going to ask anyone." I shake my head and chuckle.
"Oh really? I know you secretly take glance at me and hoping that I would come on right to you so you can ask me to the dance. I've seen you. And you're the only thing I see now." Jake grins at me.
"Okay that was disgusting and dont tell me that Puck taught you that." I said to him.
"No one had to taught me. I know I'm not a romantic guy and when I tried to be romantic it sounds disgusting and you were right." Jake chuckles.
"You really want to go the dance with me?" I ask him.
"Yes. Unless you wont ask me. I will find Marley or Kitty and tell them that I take my words back to reject them and go to the dance with them." Jake says to me.
"Both of them?" I raise my eyebrows.
"Yeah. It could be cool threesome I guess." Jake nodded.
"You sounds like Puck now." I laugh.
"You want to ask me or not? I will change my mind to say yes and go with sexy cheerleader over there." Jake raises his eyebrows at me.
"Just go then." I simply said.
"Ugh no. I still want to go with you." Jake grins at me.
"You're crazy." I chuckle. "Okay, you and I Sadie Hawkins this Saturday and dont go with anyone else or I wont forgive you." I smile at him.
"Well, dress nice. I want to see you as the most beautiful girl that night." Jake rubs my cheek and walk away.
I'm just smiling and watching him walk away. Jake turn his face at me and smiles at me. I smile back at him and turn my way to my classroom for the next class. Finally I got a date for Sadie Hawkins dance and it's Jake. A guy that I like.