Love notes by a black girl

Men. I’m tired of just hearing the word. They all get on my nerves one way or the other OR I just simply get bored. Smh sounds really bad but I’m probably just toxic.. a little ? Well I guess I’ll find out when I’ve finished this book. At this moment in my life I’m actually trying to find out if I’m the problem .. am I crazy ? Am I too nice to the wrong guy? Am I settling? Maybe I’m too prideful and independent. Too strong that it pushes away someone that could even possibly be good for me. But how will I know if I push them away? How will I know if I have trust issues & maybe I’m a little bit of a control freak.. Ha listen I’m a queen I won’t stand for nonsense so f**k it if too strong or independent or a little bit controlling. This is a “Mans” world “they say” Men always get their f*****g way. I am entitled I should feel entitled to have it all and want it all. Have a man only just for me & treats me like his queen. What’s wrong with that? It could all be so simple, but it’s unfortunate how young girls were raised on Disney movies alliterating this facade that their is true love and a Prince somewhere out there in the world. Maybe there is. But there’s so many ugly sides to Love and Men that portray themselves as potential princes. If only I could say to my younger self. Baby girl it’s not worth fantasising about. People are selfish and out for themselves in this world, focus on yourself.