Tonya's Secrets and Lies

Tell the Truth

  When I woke the next morning Jonathan was already gone. So I decide to clean up mom's house so she could just relax when she comes home. It took everything in me to open the door to daddy's office but I did. Not much as changed, I so wished he was here so I could have his forgiveness, so I could be daddy's little girl again, but all I can do is stand here and say daddy I'm so sorry for everything, all the pain my action caused you. 

You should be sorry you ungrateful whore

Stacy your not going to keep calling me out my name

I'll call you whatever I want to call you, you no good piece of trash. You had to do what you wanted to do.

It's crazy how you can stand here and say mean s**t to me, call me all ut my name and don't even know what happened

I know what happened I was right here when it all happened

What are you talking about Stacy, because you can't be talking about anything that happened with me. Your ass was in college

I was here that day you break our daddy's heart, I was listening to him yelling at you about running around on with another guy while your husband was hard at work. And that of all guys him, who is also a married man. He said something else but I couldn't make out what he saying, then a few days later daddy died and it was all your fault, bad enough yo had him all to yourself, you had to kill him too.

Stacy, stop that mess right now, she had nothing to do with y'all father death, which is what you think also Tonya. That you disappointed him so bad that he had a heart attack.

Yes ma'ma

Will that's not true, now he was upset with what you was doing , but it was not why he died. Y'all father had been sick for a long time, but he didn't want to tell you kids because he didn't want to hold y'all back from the things y'all wanted in life.  The doctor told your dad he need to stop working when Stacy was in 7th, Tonya was in 10th, your brother was in 12th getting ready to graduate. He felt that he couldn't stop working until y'all was out and on your on. So he kept working, even overtime some times. Im say this and its not to put him down or to say its anyone's fault. But the day your dad past he had went to work when he need to stop, but Stacy you need books before you went back to college, Tonya your husband's dad told him y'all was short on some bills for the month, and y'all brother had lost his job and need some help moving back home. I told him I would sell my jewelry and other stuff around the house or get a loan, but he said no and went to work anyway. He worked  two days, which is when he seen you having your little affair. After him and Tonya had their words I set him right on that

Mommy you know what she was doing was wrong

Stacy, do you know the whole story, no , you only know what you heard that day. Tonya tell your what was going on in your marriage.

I really want to wait until Jonathan is here too, I only want to tell it one time

He's on the porch, Stacy can you go get him

Okay mommy

Yes, granny

Come on baby and listen to what your mom has to say

Why should I,  she only going to tell lies to make herself look good

No I'm going to tell the truth and believe it or not but by the end I won't look good not one bit

Nephew let's just hear what she has to say

Will just pick up where you left off

Ok, will your dad and I wasn't getting along, we were both mad about not being able to see the world like we had plan to. One night we got into our first physical fight, we had been having small arguments for awhile by now but that night was the tipping point for both of us.Your dad said I tripped us here and that it's all one me, I called your dad every hateful word I could think of, he got so mad he hit me, I hit him back, wanting to fight with him, he tried to walk away but i kept coming he hit hard that time and knocked me to the ground but i got up anger fueling me and went at him again he pushed me down and walked out the door. How dare he say its all on me and he the one had them bad condoms, he the one who didn't want to wear them anymore after we was married so how dare him. I sat there for a minute tell your sister woke up with a fever, I called around looking for your dad but couldn't find him so I called momma. Daddy brought her over I had forgotten about me and your dad fighting and think the hit had left a mark on me face, when momma saw it she called daddy in the house. Daddy was so angry he wanted to go find him and sat him straight but i talked him out of it, something I shouldn't have done. I told daddy I hit him first and it was a reaction of me hitting him, momma and daddy sat me down and told me what you should not do in a marriage. The told me that you should never attack your spouse, not physically or verbally, momma add especially not verbally, you can say things that you can never take back and I know right then we had ruined our marriage because we had said some hurtful, cruel things to each other especially me. There's no coming back from your wife telling you that your a worthless piece of trash and that you settled with him because you couldn't be with the love of your life. And a lot more hurtful things I don't want to say in front of momma. 

How you should take us kids and leave him for somebody else.